Sister Mercy still had fond memories of entering the convent. That was where she had first given expression to her dark, wicked desires. She'd been shocked by her first glimpse of a world where nuns ignored "unclean thoughts" to focus on something they called the Gift. From being convinced that she was destined for hell, Mary had taken her first steps into a life of devotion and fucking for Jesus.
The convent itself was more like a modern campus and some of the older students were permitted to live in their own accommodation. It was nothing so dark and solemn as is portrayed in so many movies and shows. But the rituals were followed strictly and the staff made it known they were very serious about training the pupils.
She'd been eager to enter the convent, despite having just finished at boarding school. Other girls at the school had discussed a lifestyle with more freedom and more enjoyment. But Mercy didn't really know how to embark on such a life. She came from a somewhat conservative family. Becoming a nun would make her parents proud. Devoting herself to service felt like a better fit for her.
Mercy had long struggled with deep desires that she frequently experienced as "unclean thoughts". Some of her school friends, and especially the older girls, had openly succumbed to those desires. They'd drawn Mercy into their plans, as well. Feeling guilty, she'd prayed that in time she might grow out of those unclean thoughts. Becoming a nun seemed a better way to rid herself of the torture of those thoughts and those wicked desires.
She had no idea that her misadventures at boarding school had brought her to the attention of the Order of the Mount and of the convent. There had been nothing serious. A group of students had been involved in a minor scandal -- some of the girls had been involved in improper behaviour linked to teenage hormones and exploration. Mercy had been implicated but it had been found that her part was only minor and she'd escaped sanction.
Nonetheless, there was enough to suggest that Sister Mercy offered some real promise to the Order of the Mount and its inner secret circle. Gaining new members was difficult, not least because the inner circle had pledged not to seduce young women or to lead them astray. Their service was aimed at priests and community members who could aid their work as nuns. Bedding other nuns would be a distraction. And, so, great care was needed to identify and recruit nuns with the necessary talents.
Thus came the day that Mercy was sitting in the office of the convent head -- Sister Ignatius. She was a surprisingly young woman and Mercy thought her quite attractive. That was another problem for Mercy. She'd long denied her obvious desire for women. Perhaps that, too, was something she would grow out of. After all, the boarding school had been an all-female affair from students to staff. The decision to enter a holy order was intended to give her more exposure to the real world. To see that her own desires were not so important. Mercy did her best to focus as Mother Ignatius spoke to her.
"It is a pleasure to meet you, Lillian," said the nun with a warm smile.
Lillian was the pupil's given name. She would not become Sister Mercy until after her training. If she chose to complete that training. Mother Ignatius already knew that there would be doubts in the mind of the younger woman.
"You are a very talented pupil. With much promise. But I was a little surprised that you joined the convent after your troubles at school."
"But Sister... I was a dedicated student. My grades at boarding school were first class. I promise I won't give any trouble."
"Yes, first class in academics," replied the teacher, her eyes dropping to the papers in front of her. "I have your file from the school and I can see that you topped almost every subject." The head paused. "And I can see that you were involved in activities that resulted in some students being punished."
"Oh, Sister... that was nothing, really. I didn't... I mean, I really didn't do anything."
"Young lady, we as nuns of the Mount do not hold to outdated, harsh attitudes about sin. And, whatever happened, your file is clear that you were above the age of consent. But I know you lied to your teachers. So please do not disgrace yourself by repeating that error with me."
Despite the Sister's reassuring words, Mercy was terrified. And blushing furiously at the thought that the head of the convent knew about her sexual experimentation. Sister Ignatius was no stranger to such things. She'd had her own experiences at the same school. The Order of the Mount had long found that place to be useful for supplying suitably talented nuns. The head continued her questioning, slowly extracting more of the details from her young student.
"It was myself and my friend, Allison. Some of the older girls locked us in a room. They told us that we had to do certain things... bad things. That if we did not, we would be punished."
Sister Ignatius cast her eyes over the form of the diminutive young woman in front of her. Lillian was quite pretty with her Chinese heritage. And she was small enough that her teachers could easily have believed that she was forced.
"This happened many times, didn't it? And you always did what they wanted?"
"Yes, Sister. They forced us to strip and to show our naked bodies. They made us touch ourselves and show our holes to them."
"And I am sure you'll try to tell me that you hated it. So what else did you do for these older girls?"
"They made us touch them. Touch their holes. One of them liked me to finger her... her pussy. She always got wet when I did that. And I had to finger Allison as well."
"And I am guessing that Allison hated it. But you, my dear, I think enjoyed it very much. So what else?"
Mercy wondered how Sister Ignatius could know that. But it was true -- she'd been more than comfortable to be handing out the humiliation to her friend.
"They spanked us. And then, after the first time, they made me spank Allison."
"And when this was discovered? When the school investigated? It seems that the teachers decided that you and Allison were the victims."
"Yes, Sister. One of the older girls was expelled. The others were punished. Allison left the school. But neither of us were punished."
"Well, youthful exploration is understandable. I suppose that in time you tried many of these things with a boy. Or boys, perhaps. You gave your virginity to a boy, perhaps?"
"No, Sister. No boys. There were no boys. I never wanted to... I would not have..."
Sister Ignatius took careful note. Her intuition had told her that Mercy was inclined towards lesbian play. There were hints in her school file that she'd not objected to sex acts with the older girls. It was true that the inner circle of the Order had need of women who were so inclined. But care would be needed with young Lillian until she became more confident in her preferences.
"And what about you and Allison? You made her practice, didn't you?" The convent head didn't know this from the file. But she sensed that the younger woman had enjoyed her exploration enough to want more -- and that she was the type of personality who enjoyed taking charge. "You made her finger your pussy? You made her touch you in other ways, didn't you?"
Lillian felt her face burn with the acknowledgment of her sinning ways. Her secrets were no such thing. But Sister Ignatius showed no sign of reproach. She was already thinking of the best person to help with Lillian's journey. Mrs Evers, a lay staff member, might be best suited.
"But the one thing I note from your file is that you showed no remorse. The teachers saw you as a victim. You let the older girls to accept all the blame. But you didn't think you'd committed any sin, did you?"
"But, Sister... they made us do those things. Those other girls. I didn't enjoy being forced... How can it be a sin when I didn't start any of it."
Lillian's response encouraged Sister Ignatius. It was clear that the girl had not objected to the games devised by her schoolmates. But she took no responsibility. Lillian had said it herself -- she didn't like to be forced. And the convent head knew now that she had young Lillian trapped.
"But you enjoyed making Allison so those things. Didn't you? I imagine that you made her touch you. Told her that it would be easier if she had a little practice. Isn't that right? And I am sure that you also told her that she should permit you to spank her. That was your idea, wasn't it?"
Sister Ignatius was guessing. None of that was detailed in the girl's file. The school's investigation had not pursued the scandal that far. But the older woman had her own fond memories of her time in the same school and her own illicit experimentation. That was how the convent head knew that a young woman, even at Lillian's age, might already show certain tendencies.
Lillian preferred to control and dominate her sex partners. The bowed head and reddened face of the novice confirmed that. The convent head had no concern about Lillian's lesbian preferences. In fact, they reinforced her choice of Mrs Evers as the next person to help to prepare Lillian for her future role in the Order of the Mount.
The head sent Lillian on her way with a gushing endorsement of her potential as a nun and encouragement to continue her academic success. Lillian was mortified by the meeting and humiliated that her deepest secrets were so easily discovered. She was certain that her plans to enter the Order had been ruined. But she was so aroused from reliving the memories of boarding school that she went to her room and masturbated furiously -- thinking all the while of beating the bottoms of those wicked, older girls.
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Mrs Margaret Evers loved her job with the convent. As a trained teacher, her official role was to assist the novices with their academic studies. She specialised in history, a topic that seemed to bore some students -- like young Lillian.