She settles into her day off routine: her early morning rising, stepping into a hot shower, that first cup of coffee. She moves through the house, picking up here and there, drifting into her thoughts. She has known for quite some time now that she craves something beyond her current reach. Her days have been full of searching within herself, talking with friends, others that have truly experienced, reading whatever she can find.
She slips onto the luxurious couch, snuggling into the cushions. Pulling her soft lap blanket up over her, she continues sipping her coffee. As the dream from last night inches its way back into her mind, she sighs. She knows that she needs to experience what she has dreamt, what she has woken with every day for some time now — the desire, the need, the wanting.
Standing up, she shakes her head and runs her fingers through her long dark hair, deciding to make that phone call she has been putting off for so long, unsure of what she wanted, until today.
Dragging her toe across the carpet, she hears the phone ringing on the other end…one...two...three..."Hello?" a deep male voice replies. She nibbles her lower lip and attempts to say something, but nothing comes out. She quickly hangs up the phone. Pacing back and forth through the living room, she mentally kicks herself for what she just did. ""Why did you back out?" she asks herself. "You know this is what you have wanted for a long time now." Suddenly her phone rings, startling her.
She quickly walks towards it, lifting the receiver; softly she speaks, "Hello?” A small smile creeps over her lips, as she knows already that it is He. For a moment, she had forgotten that He has caller ID.
His voice floating through her as He asks her, "Why did you hang up?”
She hesitates, then replies, "I got nervous, Sir".
She hears Him quietly sigh, then an intake of breath. He slowly speaks to her, "Little one, there is no need for you to be nervous. you do know that you can talk to Me about anything and everything that is on your mind."
Nodding her head as she replies, "Yes Sir, this I know; please forgive me.”
"Ahhhh, little one, you are forgiven," He says in a soft, gentle voice. "What is on your mind today?”
Twisting her fingers in the phone cord, she slowly begins to tell Him how her day has started out, what she has thought about, as well as what she wishes to happen. Intently He listens as she fills Him in on her thoughts, hearing her voice change with different aspects of the conversation. After she has finished, He calmly, yet sternly, tells her to prepare herself for the evening that lies ahead. No need for Him to go into details as T/they have discussed this before. She replies, "Yes Sir, i will see You at 5 tonight. Be well, Sir, until then." T/they finish T/their conversation and hang up the phone.
She quietly giggles to herself, knowing that T/they have finally turned the corner. She moves back across the living room, tidying up the couch, taking her coffee cup to the sink, washing it, and settling it in the dish drainer. Softly humming to herself, she moves through the house.