Ma'am and Bear

Chapter 13

The drive home was uneventful and with the car parked in the basement, it was a simple elevator ride up to Ma'am's bedroom. There had been no talking. Bear seemed in a daze and Ma'am was content to let him be.

As they walked into the bedroom, Ma'am took Bear's hand and guided him to her side of the bed. Pulling back the covers, she gently lowered him in and, taking off her dress, climbed in after him.

Whispering in Bear's ear,

"Hold on to me, Bear, hold on to me tight. I will never let you go and you need to do the same. I love you, Bear, with all my heart, and that will never change."

In response, Bear started to cry softly. Ma'am could feel the tears roll off his cheeks and onto her chest. It was strangely comforting to her and made her pull him all the closer to her. Soon she noted that Bear's breathing deepened, and he was sleeping. Ma'am lay there sifting through the evening and the last few days, observing Bear's submission grow and him accepting it. Involving a third person for fun had been a risk, but there was a point where revealing a little more of her heart was a simple progression and she felt comfortable that from here Bear would accept her desires and, more importantly, his own. Somewhere around this understanding,. Ma'am too fell into a contented sleep.

Bear awoke gently and then with a start. The feelings were very pleasurable as Ma'am was softly sucking his cock. Less than sexual and more a quiet, intimate engagement, as Bear was far from hard and erect.

Ma'am lifted her head from where she lay between Bear's well spread legs.

"Morning lover. Hope you don't mind me taking you into my mouth. It soothes me so, and it is one of the many ways I touch the depths of the love I have had for you these many years."

Ma'am could feel the tension ebbing from Bear.

"l think it's time for the tell part of our agreement and before that I just want you to know the show part last night was spectacular. I'm happy you feel some misgivings, but I feel these will not last when I show you my heart."

Bear stammered in reply,

"Oh my God, she touched you and I could not help myself. I feel so wrong. I should not feel this way, but I do. I can't stop seeing it replay in my head and being turned on no matter how often I tell myself no, this is wrong."

Ma'am just murmured again and again,

"I love your response. I love these feelings coming from so deep within you, and that you don't immediately recognise them. Bear, this is all part of who and what you are and I am so in love with you and so wanting this all to be true."

Bear's brows knitted, a look of concern, and then confusion filled his face.

"But how can it be alright?"

"First, it is alright, and it is a thing from deep within you. It's your submissive self arising to feel and love and be whole. You feel powerless, dependent, lost, and many other things. These feelings allow your true self to arise and join with me your Dominant. I have watched you sink into deep feelings of submission and then look at the ground flushed and lost in the sensations of falling and need. Oh, don't get me started on the feelings that arise in me, your Dominant as your need calls to my heart. I, like you, crave this. It is the fulfilment of my soul and once tasted, forever calls louder and louder to my heart. This taste, Bear, is bound to you. Might take a little time in understanding, but when I saw you ten long years ago, I knew instantly you were the one. My heart sang. You had me from hello."

"Now, back to last night."

Bear flinched as Ma'am just softly cradled Bear's cock in her hand, feeling it respond to the mentioning of last night and Sweet Thing.

"Bear, last night you found yourself trapped, in a position that had your submissive self arise. Now, just remembering your cock grows under my touch. Bear, you are mine. Last night, you fully realized how deeply you can become lost within me. You can't help but revel in the feelings of my sexual pleasure. Lost in yourself and feeling the overwhelming need to have me in your life."

Ma'am continued,

"Sweet Thing's fingers caressing my pussy and finding their way in to pleasure me, this just reinforced your submission. You are my submissive Bear to the core of your being and I will have and hold this way for the rest of our lives."

Ma'am was almost shouting as she declared Bear as her submissive. Bear's response was denial from his mouth, but full acceptance of his body.

"This can not be so. I can't be this. I don't understand. The feelings are so raw and powerful, and my need for you is overwhelming."

At this point Ma'am lowered her mouth and drew in Bear's very rigid erection and without restraint Bear came, a shuddering set of seizures lasting minutes and must feel like hours internally for Bear.

Ma'am softly crooned.

"Yes, my lover yes, let the feelings come to you fully. Accept the rightfulness of your submission to me. The fulfilment from my dominance within you. Yes, let it all out and be whole and held within me."

Bear was now in tears and lost in uncontrollable emotions.

Ma'am could not control herself. She arose, riding up Bear's body and straddled his head. Quickly, her fingers found her clit and to the sweet sound of Bear's anguish and tears, she came. Lost in the overwhelming richness of being herself and joining with Bear. After the worst of her convulsions had passed, she lowered herself down on to Bear and felt true gratification as his lips and then tongue responded to her making sucking sounds that were exquisite. She could not restrain herself for a second and promptly came again with such a feeling of fulfilment.

Fully spent, she slowing let gravity have its way and sank down onto the bed and drew Bear into her embrace and held him ever so tightly. She heard sobbing and realised after a few seconds she was making these sounds. Oh my God, she thought. After all these years, all the barriers needing to be overcome, finally she was home and fully bound to the man she had loved for what seemed forever.

Holding each other tightly once again, sleep claimed them, with each having a look of peace and contentment on their faces.

When Ma'am slowly awoke, Bear was already sitting up in bed and looking at her.

"I need to talk and, in doing so, hopefully make sense of the emotional turmoil that has accompanied me these last few days."

Ma'am responded,

"Yes, it's overdue, and communication is everything in a relationship. And Bear, if you realize it, we are in a relationship that, from my side, is deep and abiding."

"Okay, Ma'am you have hit one of my nails squarely on the head. I'm three days in here yet you, my love, behave as though we have been together for years. Easy to get swept along with you, but there's also the voice of reason. In simple terms, my relationship with you feels like love heroin. My body craves it, and let nothing get in the way, but this voice of reason within my soul asks, am I just giving myself over to addiction?"

Bear was slowly shaking his head.

"Sadly, this sums up my position, and it's scary. I'm so easily lost in these overwhelming feelings and, forgive the reality check, I'm not sure I'm respecting myself in the morning."

Ma'am laughed softly and then said,

"Oh dear, I hear you and don't stop talking as you need to talk this out and moreover, I need to listen."

Ma'am could see Bear visibly relax as he understood she was not defensive nor pushing back on his doubts and fears.

Bear continued.

"Okay, simply said I'm looking for love and I want it in all the right places. Anything that compromises my growing love for you needs a spotlight and a conscious decision, rather than if it feels good, let's just do it. Which I guess brings us to Sweet Thing."

Here, Bear paused and took a deep breath.

"On paper, just about as sexy as it can get."

Ma'am was nodding and then added,

"But?"

Bear's eyes widened, and then he said,

"Oh, hell yes. But, but and but again. I'm sorry. In your world, such a threesome might just be a trinket on the side. Much ado about nothing other than some extra sauce bringing a little more spice. To me, it's a big deal, Ma'am and let me explain. This is all about my submission and I am struggling here. You left me exposed to that woman, sucking my dick while being pleasured by her fingers. She was in control. You talk of Domme/sub. You are my protector. Well, while you're being finger fucked, I'm exposed to her. She is dominating me. She is in control of both you and me and I am trapped with in my submission, but you are no longer my umbrella. You are off getting pleasured by yourself."

Bear was now shaking and on the verge of tears.

Ma'am felt every ounce of his dread and her eyes just continued to widen.

"Oh Bear, I'm so sorry. I thought myself so clever, whereas in truth, I was putting you emotionally at terrible risk."

Bear was openly crying now. Ma'am beckoned him to her and held him while he cried. It was not only the trauma of the event but also this censure of Ma'am in failing him.

Ma'am was not taking this lightly. It was a rare day she got things wrong, but knew well to take immediate responsibility.

"I am so sorry, Bear. I am heartbroken that I have caused you pain. Please forgive me. I fiercely love you, Bear, and I am bereft that I abandoned you to face another as your submissive self without my protection as your Dominant. The first thing that comes to mind is a safe word. How about 'Arabella' as in Arabella Arabella who's got the ball. A game I played as a child. Oh, Bear, I can't change the past, but I will never leave you unprotected or isolated again. Please forgive me. My heart breaks from knowing I have failed you."

Bear just held on to Ma'am tighter and whispered thank you in response.