She didnât know whether to be furious at the builders, or amused by them.
It was awkward, the office being open while men in dungarees and hard hats struggled with air conditioning ducts and recalcitrant wiring. She found it hard talking business with clients when there were men clambering up stepladders next to her desk.
She had to admit though, they were fun.
She had to admit, too, that they brought out the best and the worst in her.
As a professional planner, working hard to keep projects on schedule, she hated their presence and the disturbance they caused.
As a woman who loved menâs attention, she loved the banter and the smiles and the cheerful attitudes to their work. She liked the way they didnât particularly hide their lechery either. There were four of them in total. Gary, the foreman, was a slender, thin-faced man, about forty, with the look of someone used to spending time in the country.
The other three were Paul and Terry, brothers, good humoured, always joking, and Phillip. Phillip she couldnât quite work out. He didnât joke as much as the other three, but he was respected by them; almost as if they knew something about him that made them accept his being slightly different.
Christine liked to reassure herself that she understood men. She liked men, too, but mainly she prided herself on understanding them, and being able to get them to do what she wanted.
That was why she was an exhibitionist. She wanted men to want her. Not in some spiritual way, or some romantic style. She wanted men to want her physically, to want to use her body. Not that she got many chances to act out her fantasies, but knowing that men were masturbating over the thought of her, or had the image of her body in their minds s they made love with their wives was a substitute.
That was why she had started leaving pictures of herself in places where men might find them. Each day at work she would wait till the office was empty at lunchtime, then check the Hotmail email address that she had written on the back of the photos. Sometimes the emails she received were lyrical, love poems that she would smile at with a little wistfulness, sad that the men hadnât realised she didnât want to be wined and dined. There were emails that were more to her taste, pictures that had been stained with menâs come and scanned into computers, or web cam pictures of men as they came on her image. Those were the emails that made her wet, made her need to slip into the office toilet and masturbate, rubbing at her clit with one hand, shoving the fingers of the other hand into her mouth to stifle her gasps. She suspected that colleagues had overheard her sometimes, but if they had, no one had said anything to her.
The fear that colleagues would find out about her tastes was part of the spice for Christine. She loved the idea that people might find out about her, might know that in her own mind she was a slut, a woman who wanted to be stripped of her business suit and her status, and reduced to an object. Sheâd never quite squared the circle in her own mind, of what she would do if a man walked up to her and said âI recognise you from the photos of you frigging yourselfâŠâ
She pushed the edge of flirting though. On a Friday she would go to work knickerless, and spend part of her day dreaming about driving home with her skirt pulled above her waist, her pussy on show to anyone able to look down into her car. She always thought of a reason not to do it, but increasingly she knew that all that was stopping her was the lack of a towel to sit on to soak up her juices as she drove and exposed herself. In her head she imagined the Friday when she would slip a hand towel into her bag as she left the house, ready for the journey homeâŠ
On this Friday she hadnât brought a towel to work, but she was knickerless, and the builders wandering in and out of her office on the slightest pretext. In fleeting moments she wondered if they knew about her uncovered state under her skirt. How could they know? She didnât know, but her mind could roam round the possibilities, and each time she thought about it, she got wet.
The day flew by; if she wasnât busy with the next seminar she had to organise she was lost in her imagination. She only realised what time it was as colleagues popped their heads round her office door, calling out farewells and the usual invitations to the pub that she declined each week. On Fridays she was usually the last to leave, giving the reception staff the chance to flirt with the sales men in the local pub.
The final group of people to pop into the office and offer their farewells were the builders. They gathered in front of her desk, as if they were waiting for something. She looked up, took her glasses off and waited for them. Sheâd flirted with them so often that she couldnât look stern, or ask them what they were waiting for, even if sheâd wanted to. The tension was broken by Gary handing her an envelope, foolscap size. She opened it slowly, expecting one of those photocopied joke sheets that every office has shared since the invention of the photocopier. Thirty reasons why a cucumber is better than a man? Sheâd seen that one a hundred times, and always wondered why none of the women in the office had added on the bottomâ because you canât find a cock the size of a cucumber in Sainsburyâs vegetable sectionâ or âbecause feeling utterly stuffed as if youâre going to burst while frigging your clit is the best feeling in the worldâŠâ
The envelope didnât contain a photocopied joke. It contained one of her photographs, the one of her fastening a handcuff to her left wrist, naked, her breasts towards the camera, her crotch slightly shaded. When sheâd left the picture in a car park sheâd written on the bottom âwant to finish the job?â along with her email address.
She turned the letter over in her hands. It was handwritten in block capitals.
âThis is Christine Smith. She works for the Builders and Plumbers Training Association. She lives at Martins Lee, and she is a member of the school PTA there. Do you think this kind of woman is what you want as a neighbour?â
She looked from the picture to Garyâs face, then to the other men. They looked expectant, eager, but also implacable. They were waiting for Gary to deliver the final blow, and even ass he thought crossed her mind she realised that this was the moment she had always feared and wanted.