Chapter 2
Her stomach and her fridge are full. She made a salad with panko fried shrimp, lettuce and green onions and a spicy homemade dressing and sliced fresh fruit for dessert. She seemed concerned about whether or not I liked it. It was amazing and I told her so. She pressed her lips together and nodded.
Still, she has to feel overwhelmed and vulnerable. She didn't mean for all of that to happen. Does she feel like I raped her? Does she feel obligated to have sex with me in order to try to save her place to live? How does she feel about me? Where do we go from here? Should I maintain a professional distance? I don't think that is going to be possible. I have pictures and video of her in a demeaning and vulnerable condition. Is she concerned that I will use it to humiliate her?
She leans over me to take my plate and freezes as I take her hand, 'Sit?' She sinks into my lap as I tug softly on her hand. 'Let's make an agenda. Your items and my items.' I lean back and take a pad of paper and a pen from the kitchen counter, writing as I speak. 'Number one for me is how you feel about what happened. Number two is what to do with the pictures and videos. Number three is how you feel about me.' I continue softly. 'Number four is getting you financially solvent.' I wait, but she doesn't seem to have any agenda items for the moment. 'Let's start with what we have and we can add more as we go along.' Again she is silent and I point with my pen to the first agenda item. I wait so long I don't think she is going to reply. Everything she is feeling crosses her face. Embarrassment, humiliation, uncertainty. Finally she sighs and starts softly.
'When I first figured out you were there... I was so mortified and humiliated. Every time I tie myself up I fantasize that someone will come in and...'
I won't use the word rape... 'Ravish you?'
She nods, 'but I never really expected it to happen!'
'And now that it has?'
She pauses, deciding, 'It was better than I ever could have imagined!' She shrugs, 'The embarrassment made me... really hot! I figured it would, but it really did.'
'So I want to make sure that I didn't do anything that you didn't want me to...'
'Like I might press charges?' I sigh uncomfortably and nod, 'Never in a million years!' A pause, 'I think there might be something wrong with me...'
'You are way out of the realm of what I consider normal, and I have never imagined these fantasies of yours before, but I definitely responded to it...'
'I was practically begging you to do what you did.'
'Despite the gag and the restraints...'
'Obviously I love them, or they wouldn't have been there in the first place... and it was the first time the bondage was tight enough... and I was helpless enough... When I do it to myself there is always...'
'A way out...' She nods. 'Okay... We can come back to this later... The second item is the pictures and videos. As far as I am concerned there are four options. One is that I can delete them all. Two is you can download them to your computer with password protection and I can delete them all from my phone. Three is you can download them and I can keep them. Four, I can keep them to myself and post them on the internet.' She squirms and hugs me, pressing her breasts into me as she sticks her tongue down my throat! No doubt she feels my cock swelling under her thigh. Her eyes are hooded as she pulls away and I wait for her response.
'I would love number four if I was only thinking with my ummm...' I grin and nod and jostle her, 'but I think for now I should choose number two. I don't know you after all, but I think it is amazing that you even offered number one or number two. I can always give you unrestricted access to them later.'
I jostle her again, 'Go get your computer.' I figured that would be her choice and it is the best choice for her. Her computer is in a pouch I hadn't noticed at the head of the bed. She retrieves it and sets it next to my phone with a usb dock. I look at her.
'I had to sell my iPhone.' She shrugs.
I nod and pull her back to my lap. 'Do you know how to set up password protection?' She shakes her head. 'Okay, do you want it all to be protected, or do you just want that folder protected?'
She rocks a bit uncomfortably, 'It probably all should be protected... I have... stories.'
'Fantasies?' She pinks up and nods. 'Mmmm... maybe you will let me see those somewhere down the road.' She shrugs and I gesture to her computer. She turns away from me and I put my arms on the table around her as she boots it up. 'Do you know how to do it?' She shakes her head and so I begin typing while looking over her shoulder. I get to the point of entering the password and then duck behind her so she can feel my cheek on her shoulder blade while she enters it.
When she is done I create a folder for the photos and videos and she watches as I delete them from my phone. I sigh a little remorsefully when I am done, but I hug her from behind.
She suggests playfully, 'Maybe we should watch them one more time, just to make sure they actually made it into the folder?' I grin and hug her again, nibbling on her neck.
'We should, but later. We still have other things to discuss.' I pull another chair closer before I get too sidetracked. She sits facing me and I tap the paper, 'Number three... how you feel about me.'
'And how you feel about me.'
I nod, 'You first.'
'I don't think I knew you at all. I mean, you were the enemy... at least for the last few months... before that... well, and even since... you were part of my...' she shrugged, suddenly extremely uncomfortable.
'Your fantasies?' I ask in awed amazement.
She nods... 'You had the master key.' Double meanings?
'Is that the only reason?'
'No,' she is blushing now.
'Tell me.'
Her eyes fly to mine, 'That.'
'What?'
'Natural command? But not in an offensive way... You are no nonsense? You expect people to respond to you? You take control.' She shrugs, 'And... you are athletic and decisive about your motions and graceful in a masculine way.'
I feel strangely gratified at her assessment, 'You called me Sir.' She nods and looks at me again. 'Is it part of the fantasies?'
She nods again, 'Very much so... submission to a dominant.'
I nod, digesting. 'Is that all?'
'No... I felt very vulnerable... More than just because I was naked and bound and aroused. I mean... I was starving... and sick of peanut butter and worried about having to go live on the street... I have given up things... and lost things...' She shrugs again, close to tears, 'but you have been a lot nicer than I expected... I mean in the scene too when you tried to figure out what I needed, but also after... I didn't expect the groceries, or help, and I still don't. I want to pay it back, but I can hope now... That is a gift I didn't expect... You are... nice.'
'I whipped you...'
'Flogged... it is different.' She grins and blushes, 'I loved it!'
'It was the first time I have done that... It never would have occurred to me... that it could be arousing.'
'Because you were vanilla.'
'Vanilla... that's what Brad calls me... my nickname.'
'Brad?'
'The guy I sent the picture to.'
'Not anymore...' She smiles a little uncomfortably. 'Your turn.'
'You are beautiful! Sexy... hot... I couldn't believe it when I came through the door... I knocked first...'
She nods, 'I couldn't hear.'
I grin, 'or respond!' I nod in memory, 'I wanted to watch what happened and it was going to be a while... the sink is fixed, by the way.'
She shrugs, 'Thank you.'
Not even a "took you long enough". 'I thought you might be dead, but then I saw you... writhing...' She sat back suddenly and turned beet red. I grinned, 'writhing and undulating, and sticking your tits out and your sex... Your tits are absolutely perfect, by the way, and the rest of your body is stunning. Physically I find you more than attractive.'
She heaves a sigh and grins with embarrassment after I waggle my eyebrows.
'But, I think I love the submission most. When you called me Sir... it aroused me even more, and I was pretty aroused... I've never taken anyone
there
before... that was very amazing... I would never have considered it. I would never do it without an invitation...' She nodded a bit.