Hanna
I woke more rested and refreshed than I'd been since my arrest. Last night I'd slept like the dead, and though I vaguely remembered dreaming, I couldn't recall the dream's content, only that it had been pleasant. I showered and dressed, and by 7:45 I was pacing the room, waiting for Rand to arrive.
At 8:03 I began to fret, worried that the Bayport Riders had changed their mind about helping me. I again peeked through the curtains while chewing on my bottom lip in thought. I released the sheers. I'd give Rand until 8:30, but if he hadn't shown up by then, I was going out on my own to start searching.
I made another loop around the room and was returning to the window for another peek when I heard the far-off rumble of an approaching motorcycle. I swept the sheers open as I heard the bike banging down through the gears, and a moment later, Rand turned into the parking lot and rolled to a stop beside my Bug. I nearly wilted with relief. I picked up my purse and waited until he knocked before I flung the door open.
"You ready to go find your son?" he asked.
"Yes. I can't thank you enough for doing this for me."
He held my gaze a moment. "What?"
He was amazingly perceptive. "Nothing. You were just a little late... and I was worried you weren't coming."
His gaze flicked from mine to the clock beside the bed before he reached into his pocket and pulled out his phone. He glanced at it and then turned it to me so I could see. 7:52.
"Your clock is a little fast."
I felt like such an ungrateful shit. "Sorry," I whispered as I looked at my shoes.
"Hey," he said, pausing until I looked up to meet his gaze. He had a small smile on his lips, as if he understood. "Don't worry about it. We have a deal. You helped us so we'll help you."
I nodded as he stepped back. I stepped out of the room and pulled the door closed behind me before walking to the passenger side of my car.
"Let's take my bike."
"Shouldn't we take my car?"
"I saw your car running yesterday. If you drove all the way from Prineville in that, you're a braver woman than I gave you credit for."
"But...?"
"But...?" he asked.
"But what if we find Garrett? How will we...?"
"
When
we find Garrett, we'll call the cops and let them handle it." I opened my mouth to object, but he continued. "I won't let Carl leave with your son... you have my word." His eyes darkened slightly. "I'd almost like him to try." I chewed my bottom lip, my feet stuck in place. "Hanna, we have to get the cops involved or this could go sideways real fast. You said you have a restraining order on him, and the judge had granted you temporary custody, so all we have to do is find them. After that, the cops can handle it, you'll get Garrett back safe and sound, and Carl can sit his ass in jail."
"But what if Carl gives him back if we don't call the cops?"
"Then we'll take him, I'll call for backup, and you can hold him until someone arrives with a car."
I sighed as my gaze dropped to the ground. He seemed to have it all thought okay. "Okay. Sorry."
"Hanna..." I again looked up. His smile had been replaced by tenderness. "It's okay, really. I can only guess how freaked out you must be, but you have my word we're going to do everything we can to get Garrett back to you. We're not the Orcas, and I'm not Carl. You can trust us."
I took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "Yes, okay, but why not just take my car?"
"Because we have a lot to do today and I'd like to not waste any time broken down on the side of the road." His voice was still gentle and teasing, and there was no hint of condemnation in his tone.
I looked the car over and I felt a pang of shame. "It was all I could afford. It's temperamental, but it's always gotten me to where I wanted to go."
He slowly shook his head as his lips thinned. I could tell he wouldn't be caught dead in a car like mine, and I felt a bit more shame. "Well, today, I think you can do a little better."
"Okay. Sorry."
"You okay?"
"Yeah."
"Good. Let get moving. Breakfast first, then let's go get your boy."
That brought a smile to my lips. "Okay, and thank you again."
Another smile tugged at his lips. "I have another idea. Why don't you try not saying 'thank you' and 'sorry' all the time? You know, just for an hour or so, to see how you like it?"
His voice was kind and I could tell he was teasing me. My smile spread, and fuck me if I didn't almost apologize again. "Okay, just to try it out."
"Perfect," he said, his smile spreading. "I brought you a helmet," he said, pulling a plain white helmet from the saddle bag.
"You just happened to have an extra helmet lying around?" I asked as I took the helmet, plopped it on my head, and began looping the strap though the rings to secure it as my purse disappeared into the saddle bag. His helmet had been too large for me, but this one was sized almost perfectly.
"Never know when you might need to give a lady in distress a ride."
A smile painted my lips as I wondered how many ladies he'd ridden. I finished strapping on the helmet and climbed aboard behind him. As the bike rumbled to life beneath me, I tucked in tight behind him, looped my arms around his firm stomach, and leaned into his broad, muscular back. I felt almost giddy. Having him talk to me like he did, with humor and warmth, made me feel all gooey inside.
After Carl and I were married, nothing I did seemed good enough for him. Even when he was being nice to me, his words could be cutting as he sometimes belittled me in front of other Orcas. When I complained, he claimed he was just teasing, but his words had still hurt. It seemed the harder I tried, the less he cared about me. After he started having his affairs, and I stopped giving a shit, that made his sneering attitude even worse when were alone, and his remarks more heartless when we were with others. Even though I was the one working to support us, and raising Garrett almost as a single mother, he often acted like I was beneath his notice.
That's why it was so hard to understand Rand. He barely knew me, but he'd been nothing but kind. He'd even gently suggested I should stop apologizing all the time, where Carl seemed to believe that everything that went wrong was somehow my fault, even if it had nothing to do with me.
Some of my girlfriends occasionally gossiped about how great their sex lives were, but I didn't understand what they were talking about. I knew sex was supposed to be fun and exciting, but with Carl it hadn't been, and I nothing else to compare. Listening to the gossip, I often wondered what was wrong with me and why I didn't enjoy it as much as they seemed to.
Now, having met the Bayport Riders, I was beginning to question everything. I'd often wondered if I deserved how Carl treated me because I wasn't meeting his needs, that I wasn't a good enough wife, lover, or mother. Looking back, even when we were dating, it was all about Carl and what he wanted. He never seemed to think of me, but being young and stupid, I was eager to please and thought I needed nothing more than his company to make me happy. Later, as the responsibilities of marriage, and my pregnancy, began to weigh on me, and I'd began asking more from him, that was when Carl's true nature began to appear.
I'd allowed Carl to have me whenever he wanted, like the dutiful wife, but I hadn't
wanted
sex in years, not since our first year of marriage, and especially not after he started banging other women. But even when we were dating, and early in our marriage when I still loved him, I'd never enjoyed the sex. Carl did, and he often spoke of how hot I was, and how good I felt, but even as I savored the closeness I felt during our post fuck snuggle, the sex for me seemed more of a duty than a pleasure.
I smiled into his back as I wondered if Rand knew how to please a woman. Looking like he did, and with his strong but gentle demeanor, I suspected he could have all the practice he wanted. Sitting on the back of Rand's motorcycle, his back warm against my chest, I felt a stirring, a yearning I hadn't felt in a long time... and it felt good.
He banked his bike into a large, crowded restaurant filled with bikes of every make and description, the sudden change in speed and direction pulling me from my thoughts.
"See anything?" he asked as we took a slow tour through the parking lot.
I looked at the bikes, feeling a rush of excitement when I spotted Carl's, only to realize an instant later it wasn't actually his. "I thought that one was Carl's, but it isn't," I said pointing out the bike as we putt-putted past. "Carl's doesn't have the backrest thingy."
"You sure?"
"Positive, unless he added after I moved out."
He found a place and backed his bike in before it fell silent. I thought we were going to grab a McMuffin or something quick for breakfast, not sit down in a restaurant.
"We're eating here?" I asked, not offering to dismount.
"Best breakfast in town."
"They look busy."
"They always are."
I fumed as I stepped off the bike. I didn't want to spend an hour waiting for a table, and then another hour waiting for our food and eating. "Okay."
He smiled at me as he pulled his helmet off. I followed his lead, reminding myself Rand and the Bayport Riders didn't have to help me at all. "This is the most popular breakfast spot in town for bikers, if you can't tell by looking at the parking lot. I'll give you even odds if Carl has breakfast, he'll come here. If he comes to us, that's better than us trying to track him down."
I held his gaze, wondering how he knew what I was thinking. Having just met me, he could already read me better than Carl could after five years of marriage. "Good idea."
"Trust me."
"Sorry."
His smile spread. "I thought we agreed..." he began, his voice full of humor as it trailed off in teasing.