Most marriage has the benefit of getting sex regularly at least, even if the marriage is not working well. Humans need it and husband and wife take each other for granted in bed a lot of times.
I broke my marriage, an abusive one, and thought I will be happy forever. I guess I was a little wrong when it comes to intimacy and I had never thought about that. This is Sangeetha, a 45 year old single mom, living happily now for sure. This incident is at the time when I had gotten my divorce and was about a month or so. Almost 9 years ago.
Always been on the higher side of the sex drive, now I was handling myself with my own fingers. Days I never thought I would go through being a woman in India. Insecurity, fear, not wanting another relationship, many reasons why I probably was trying to stay away from men during that period.
On one such day, after my work, I was sitting in a pub. Dressed in my jeans and a black tee, my hair left open, sitting on that high stool at the bar counter, sipping on favorite drink. I guess tiredness was written all over my face since the bar tender asked me if I had a tough day at work. The regular guy who makes my drink whenever I visit. Gives company with chit chat too when he is free. I was sitting staring into the blankness with my vision towards the dance floor might be. A little tipsy because of the tiredness, frustration and yes, I was on my 3rd drink.
I heard a deep voice talking to me "hello, seems you are interested in a dance without any company". I turned to see a man, might be in this late 20's or early 30's. Clean shaved, neatly trimmed hair, tall for sure and could make out the well toned physique. He was dressed in a black tee and jeans too. He was holding the same drink I was having. At least that's what I thought since it looked similar. I was not friendly but was polite when I asked "Excuse me, do I know you?" trying to probably avoid him. He seemed not to be shaken with that. He continued with his deep voice "we seem to have similar tastes and I assume you are also alone like me. So thought would say a hi".
Our human mind is full of surprises at times. I did realize our tastes did match in our dressing, grooming and even the drink. That was the moment when your mind instantly likes or dislikes someone and my mind I guess liked him. I smiled "sure, yes I am alone too" as I showed my eyes to him asking him to sit on the next stool. He sat really happy raised a toast with our drinks. "Dance with me if you are ok?" was his next question. I thought for a moment and not sure why, I got off the stool, gulping my drink at one go with a "sure, why not" to him. He followed suit finishing his drink and we hit the dance floor.
We spent a good 30 to 45 minutes dancing. Grooving, swaying, shaking for the music. He had his hands a bit all over me for sure, but I ignored it as dance moves and did not worry much. Finally, both of us were panting for breath, sweating profusely and we decided to move out of the dance floor. Somewhere we felt a bond, a connect that I sat down for a few minutes to rest and I did not mind talking to him and laughing at some silly jokes, etc. Then I decided to leave. He also said he was leaving and we walked together out of the pub. The pub was at the basement of a good hotel. As we walked out, he said he is going to his room since he is put up in the same hotel. And that I can go to his room too, if I am comfortable, to freshen up and might be have another drink and then leave.