Ann, a single woman, living the single life after her former relationship has left her mentally drained. Her brain, exhausted from the grind of dealing with an ex who lived life only based upon himself. She has no desire for a relationship, but her body is still human and craves to be desired, craves to be taken, craves to be filled.
Her nightly routine stays the same, reading a smutty book, finding a somewhat interesting porn to view and using a toy to provide herself with a moment of mental and physical relief. The routine does its job to provide herself the minimal dose of endorphins needed to relax her body but is never the full release that she craves more and more as each day passes by.
The mindless routine continues day after day, week after week, and month after month becoming a routine no different than brushing her teeth. As time progresses, she delves deeper into darker readings. Her mind and body knows what it needs; she needs to feel the roughness of a man's hands, the removal of her autonomy that pushes her to be used by a man for his pleasure.
Her brain continuously searches for someone or something that can quench her thirst, but every candidate comes with obstacles. Some men want a relationship, some men she knows wants to make it a romantic encounter, others are just not on the level of depravity that she requires to satiate her carnal desires.
"Why cannot I find someone who will simply fuck me then leave?" she asks herself out loud, pushing the energy of her voice out into the ethos with hope that the universe will deliver to her what she so desperately craves.
More nights go by, same routine over and over, read...watch...orgasm....sleep....repeat.
But on one particular night her imagination begins to drift to Ross. But he is too taboo, she works with him sometimes, he has a relationship, it would be too awkward to face him for the days after. But in his presence, she feels his deviancy, hidden away deep within him but glimmers in his eyes at the appropriate times.
Her eyes close as she begins to have scenarios run through her head, imagining Ross as he handles her roughly. Imagining how it would feel to have his large hands spanking her ass and telling her she is being a good girl as he pushes her past her usual levels of comfort. As the scenes prance through her head her fingers tease her clit more and slide inside herself. Pushing deeper inside herself as her body pushes into them while her other hand tussles her hair and pulls on her nipples. With her legs spread wide she imagines the sensations of feeling his hard throbbing member thrusting into her. Hearing the sounds of the skin smacking together as he mercilessly slams forward, quickly retreats and then slams his body forward again.
"FUCK!!!!" she screams out loud with her voice echoing off the walls as her orgasm rips through her body. Sitting upright in her bed she looks around the room in a daze as she is in disbelief of the level of orgasm she was finally able to achieve. Her body falls back and she rests her head on the pillow. Guilt begins to rush through her as she realizes she has finally had a fulfilling orgasm but it being with the thought of a man who is unavailable.
She lays back in the bed, her thirst quenched and drifts off into a peaceful sleep that is obtainable only after satisfaction has been obtained.
As the days go by her mind is torn between the concepts of satisfaction and guilt, battling back and forth between moral and immoral. But each night when she lays in bed, reading her books and watching videos the idea of Ross taking the place of the male character intrudes into her thoughts and each night she is rewarded with orgasms that leave her soul vibrating with glee.
One night, as she is laying in bed and following her routine, she finds herself texting friends in between pages of her digital book. All subjects being covered between friends from frustrations at work to needs not being attended to at home. Her brain quickly flickers between the words on her page playing in her mind as she imagines Ross taking control of her body and feeling herself being stretched by a man, then quickly flipping to conversations of her friends describing why they are unhappy with their mates and their lack of trying.
"Listen, I'd be happy just to get a good hard fuck" she responds to her friend complaining about a project not being completed around her house.
She flips back to her book and continues to read another sexual scenario. As she turns to another page in the midst of a hot steamy scene a message pops up on her screen.
"I can do that for you, but I have some rules" the message reads.
She looks at her phone confused and flips over to her messages. She shrieks in fear as she realizes the message she sent of needing to be fucked was not sent to her friend but was accidentally sent to Ross.
She quickly closes her phone, putting the phone to her side as she contemplates her ways of getting out of this. She could send a reply and inform Ross that it wasn't a message meant for him. She could say that her phone mistakenly sent it to him when it was meant for someone else. She could blame tiredness; she could not respond and send an apology text in the morning. The embarrassment of revealing such carnal desires has her hands shaking as she lays in bed.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck what do I do" she asks herself as she runs through scenario after scenario in her head.
She picks up her phone again and begins to reply with an excuse. If she sends one now, she can at least have the night of sleep to relieve some of her anxiety. As she holds her phone with her thumbs ready to type she reads his reply again, "...but I have some rules."
Rules? What rules could someone have after someone outright admits they just need to feel their body taken advantage of. Ann's fingers begin to type out each excuse, only to be followed by backspacing and erasing the message and beginning another. But each time she clears the message her eyes revert back to his reply and rereads "...I have some rules."
As her eyes stay locked on his words her fingers type out "What are the rules?" and before she is able to contemplate whether or not to send the message her thumb hits the send button.
"Oh fuck" she screams out loud. Her hands shake as she is in disbelief that the message sent and now, she feels vulnerable as her desires have now been admitted to the person she has repeatedly fantasized about.
Those three little dots indicating he is responding appear on the screen, her hands continue to shake, and she stares at the phone waiting to see what the response could be. Each moment that passes fills her with more anxiety and her mind delving into the possibilities of "rules." She continues to stare at the three dots, shaking her phone in an attempt to hurry the response to come through. Finally, after what feels like an eternity, the message appears.
"1. This is physical and not personal
2. You will do what I say when I say
3. When I enter the room, you will be on your knees at the the foot of your bed