There is no way for you to really understand what the transformation was like for me, but let me try to give you a small hint of the sensation. Every minute you are processing of all of your fears, hopes, needs and wants...most of which you are not even conscience of or your head would explode. Am I going to get the promotion...check email...I'm hungry...I need to call my mom...check email...reevaluate my retirement plan...should I take the promotion...check email...did I feed the dog this morning...check email. All of that purpose in life drained from me starting from my head, flowing down my body and out. Before I even had a chance to bask in just being, it was replaced by an urgent singular desire...to be in the presence of my owner. And this desire originates and emanates between my legs...messy with wetness.
And not just merely in my owners presence...but to be petted by him...touched by him...fucked by his big cock. And not just his cock. To be fucked by his hand...his mouth. To be filled with his cum is the only purpose in my life. And this sounds great right? But my owner has bills to pay...my doll house isn't free. He likes to buy me sexy Fuck Doll clothes and they are expensive. So he has to leave me daily. And as soon as the door handle clicks on his way out, I feel as if I really am an inanimate doll, left crumpled in the corner with arms at odd angles. No longer alive. But I am a living doll of course and I feel every minute that passes without him...and it is torture. The ache is between my legs deep in my pussy. My pussy feels empty and craves to be full of his cock, his hand, his tongue, his cum. I endure hour after hour of intense want that is not satiated.
Sure, I nap and snack and I don't work. I never walked into another pharmacy. But I wait and wait and want and want with more desire than you can ever imagine. Sometimes I writhe on the couch with my fingers playing with my wet clit trying to dull the ache. I'm embarrassed to tell you this, but one day early on in my new Fuck Doll life, when the want was more than I could handle I actually rolled up one of his socks and used my fingers to push it deep into my pussy so I could feel close to him...so I could feel full of him. And while it helped a little, it gave me an intense itch for days. I have better coping strategies now.
I guess it would only be fair for me to tell you what it is like when I am in his presence. So you can decide for yourself if Fuck Dolls have a good life.