The summer sun filtered through the dense Seattle clouds, casting a warm glow over the streets, but it's warmth failed to reach me. As I walked along the sidewalk, each step seemed to serve as a reminder of the life I once had as I passed restuarants and shops frequented by me and my ex-wife, Sarah.
Reaching my destination, I glanced at the massage studio's sign, which read "Healing Touch." The name promised something I wasn't sure I would be able to find any time soon. I hadn't for over nine months now since the divorce became final.
Taking a deep brearh, I pushed through the glass door, the bell above jingling softly. The interior was a blend of soft blues and greens, the walls adorned with serene landscapes. A gentle hum of soothing, ambient music played in the background, mingling with the faint scent of eucalyptus.
A tall woman with long, silvery blonde hair and ice-blue eyes greeted me from behind a small counter where she stood. "Hello there," she said a friendly voice, "may I help you?"
"I have a three o'clock appointment for a massage." I looked down at the confirmation email on my phone. "With Seraphina," I added. "It's my first time here...and getting a massage." I couldn't quite put my finger on why I felt a flutter of nerves. I had never been one to feel nervous talking to a beautiful woman, I thought to myself as she extended her hand.
"I'm Astrid," she said, with an inviting smile. Her hand was soft and warm to the touch.
"Don't worry; you're in good hands." She grinned, her confidence somehow easing my concerns. "Seraphina will take good care of you. I see you have a bag with you. You may have read in the confirmation email that we have shower facilities for after your appointment."
I nodded and followed her down a narrow hallway to a small sitting room with two chairs and two loungers. At the back of the room was a station with cucumber water and tea. To the left was a women's room and to the right a men's room. Astrid knocked, then opened the men's room door.
"It's just me and Seraphina so we have a very modest space here."
Astrid showed me how to change the code on one of the four lockers to secure my bag. There was also a toilet and two shower stalls. Once she finished giving me the "tour" of the facilities, I followed her back out into the sitting area.
"May I get you some tea or water? Hydration is important, especially after your massage, but I find a little bit of hot tea can be relaxing."
"That would be nice. Thank you," I replied.
"You're a little early so Sera should be with you in few minutes," she said. "You can either change out of your clothes in the locker room and use one of the robes or you can just change in the room after you meet with Sera."
Since it was my first time and I was a little apprehensive about it, I decided to wait. Not too long after I settled into chair drinking my tea, the door to the hallway opened and a woman stepped through. She was younger than I expected, maybe in her late twenties, with a curvy figure, long chocolate brown hair that she wore in a loose braid, and fair skin.
"Ethan?"
I stood and nodded, "Yes."
She offered her hand as she introduced herself. "I'm Seraphina. Everyone calls me Sera. Ready for some pampering?" she asked, her voice smooth like honey.
"I guess," I said, "thanks."
"You can follow me." She turned, her hips swaying slightly as she led me down the hallway.
As we walked, I was suddently aware of how long it had been since I had last been with a woman. While there had been opportunities since the divorce, especially more recently, I hadn't been in the right head space to date. It was with that thought bouncing around my mind that I admired the young woman perhaps a decade younger than my 38 years. She wore yoga pants that hugged her round butt and flared out at the bottom of her legs, which served to accentuate her figure. Her white, form-fitting short-sleeved top also did little to hide her ample curves.
"Here we are," she announced, gesturing to a cozy room filled with soft light and the sound of ambient music.
She motioned for me to take a seat and she did the same, pulling up a chair facing me. "I understand it's your first time getting a massage?"
"Yes," I replied, running my hand through my hair, something I did when I was feeling self-conscious.
"Well, we have an 80 minute, full body massage scheduled for you. What brings you in today? Any spots you want me to work on or stay away from?"
I thought for a moment. "No, not really. Well, actually," I said, "my lower back has been tight...and my shoulders, now that I think of it. I...a friend of mine from work suggested getting a massage here. She's into new age stuff and self care and thought it might help me. I recently got a divorce; well, nine months ago. She thought it might help to...I don't know..." I heard my voice trail off.
Seraphina smiled warmly. "It's okay if you don't know. While you're here, you don't have to think about anything; worry about anything."
She looked at me with those beautiful, hazel eyes, her long lashes accentuating their feline-like shape, and I realized I could hear my heartbeat in my ears. Her face was so open, her smile comforting. "Just be in the moment and enjoy your massage, okay?"
"Okay," I replied, smiling back.
She stood and said, "You can remove your clothes and place them here." She motioned to the chair she had just vacated. "Then lie face down on the table under the sheet. The table is heated so let me know if it's too hot. I'll step out to give you some privacy."
"Okay..." I said. "Should I..."
She smiled. "Undress to the level you're comfortable with," she said. "You can stay in your underwear if you want. People do both so do whatever feels right for you today. Okay?"
"Okay," I replied, "I appreciate that."
After she closed the door behind her, I stripped down to my boxer briefs, deciding to err on the modest side for my first time. The table's warmth almost immediately helped me relax as I felt myself sink into the cushion. A couple of minutes later, I heard a soft knock and then the door open.
"Comfortable?" she asked.
"Yes," I replied, "thanks."
"Let's get started then," she said, her tone playful yet professional. She took the sheet and pulled it down, exposing my back; then she tucked it into the waistband of my underwear. "That way I don't accidentally get oil on your underwear," she explained.
When her oiled hands touched my back for the first time, I couldn't help but let out a low, involuntary moan as she slowly smoothed her hands up and down the length of my back.
"Wow," I breathed after a few minutes of silence save for the sound of Seraphina's hands against my skin, the tension in my muscles unwinding with each stroke. "This feels...amazing."
She chuckled softly, her touch becoming more firm as she zeroed in on trouble spots. "Just relax into it and breathe. I can help you with whatever you're dealing with out there. Just leave it...out there. Relax your hands. Relax your jaw. Relax your eyes. Focus on your breath; on the feel of my hands on your muscles...on your skin...and let go."
Her voice was melodious, soft, and comforting. I did as she instructed and I felt the tension melt away - bit by bit.
"That's it," she said in a low, soothing voice. "You're doing great, Ethan."
The sound of my name on this young woman's lips sent a shiver down my spine and a flicker of arousal passed through by body.
"Everything okay?" she asked.
"Yeah," I replied, amazed that she sensed the momentary change. "All good."