I had no idea there was anything different about me until just after my 15th birthday. That's when I joined the Junior Varsity Football team and took my first public shower after a particularly strenuous practice. Bobby Larkin, the class clown, took one look at my pecker and let out a whoop.
"Hey everybody! Check out the elephant trunk between Derek's legs!"
To a shy guy like me, it was an incredibly embarrassing experience. Soon the word got around the school as such things do. What amazed me was that older girls began to talk to me. Now when you're in your teens, there is a huge gulf between 15-year-olds and 16-year-olds, but girls who are 18 never talk to someone 3 years younger. They're only interested in college dudes.
Suddenly senior girls were passing me in the hall saying, "Hi, Derek." I was pretty nerdy and rather gawky so it didn't go any farther. I often wonder what might have happened if I'd been a little more adept at talking to girls, instead of turning beet red and stammering.
The flip side was the extreme needling I took from all the guys because of my last name: Small. I'll leave it to you to imagine all the infantile variations on the joke. Usually those things die down after a month or two, but it kept up all through 10th and 11th Grade. If finally stopped in my senior year when I'd finally had enough and knocked a guy down. Having gotten pretty big and proven myself to be pretty mean, I was left alone.
I didn't lose my virginity until I was 18. It was to one of my mother's friends. She was looking in on me while my parents were out of town for a long weekend. She surprised me coming out of the shower. One thing led to another, and well, you know how it goes. We only did it that once. Both of us were too embarrassed by what had happened, I think, but she did her best to show me a good time.
After turning 18, though, I began feeling more comfortable with myself and could actually work up the nerve to ask girls out.
The next time I got intimate with a female was the summer after I graduated, and it was not a great experience. I went out with Nancy Groves and knew she had a bit of a reputation. I guess she had heard about me and was curious. Fumbling around in the back seat of my dad's car, she had my cock out pretty quickly. Not yet fully hard, I think she thought the stories had been exaggerated. As we continued to make out and remove our clothes, she seemed more interested in what I was doing to her and forgot about my cock. It wasn't until after I'd made her cum with my fingers (Thank you, Mrs. Jensen!), that she realized it wasn't my arm pressing into her leg, but my cock.
Sitting up, she got a good look at it. "Oh my God, Derek, it's huge!"
"It's just a cock."
"No, it isn't. That thing wouldn't look out of place on a horse."
Having worked in my family's riding stable since I was old enough to lift a bale of hay, I knew what horses' cocks looked like, and for some reason I took offense at her words. I was also incredibly excited and didn't want to not get some action after I'd worked hard to give Nancy a pretty good orgasm.
"So what does that mean?" I asked.
She bent over to take a closer look. Reaching out, she touched the end, pressing down. It sprang up, wobbling for a second. "Wow. That is a big one."
"Are you just going to leave me hanging?" I tried to make it not sound whiny.
Nancy touched my cheek with her palm. "Derek, honey, I was planning on letting you fuck me tonight. I'd heard that you were big, but this," she added, pointing down, "is a lot more than I care to try to handle."
"It's not THAT big."
"I've seen my share of cocks, and believe me, that thing is B-I-G." Leaning over the front seat, she began to rummage in her purse. "I have some hand lotion in here. How about if I just jerk you off?"
Well, she did do that and it was very nice, but I also have a big set of balls, and a teenager in such a randy state can produce a lot of semen anyway, and what happened at the end further shocked my date. Cum was everywhere in that back seat, mostly in her hair, and that's not easy to explain away when you walk into your house at the end of a date.
Suffice it to say, the ride home was pretty frosty. If I'd known then what I do now, I could have shown us both a great time, instead I was pretty freaked out. And the story spread quickly. The rest of that summer, girls would stare at my crotch, but they wouldn't come near.
Sometime in there, I got out a ruler and a piece of string and measured my tool. Fully erect, it was 10.5 inches long and 7.75 around. Working up the courage, I called my best friend Tom to get some perspective.
"I've heard through the grapevine that something happened between you and Nancy," he told me.
"What did you hear?" I asked, really concerned.
"Well, not to put it delicately, rumor is you have a baseball bat between your legs. All the guys are jealous."
"And the girls?"
"From what I've heard, curious, but for all their big words about their love lives, let's just say they're intimidated." There was silence for a moment. "Just how big is it? Have you measured it?"
"Um...yeah."
"And?"
"Seven and three-quarters inches."
"That's not all THAT big."
"Um, that's how big it is around. It's ten-and-a-half inches long."
Again silence on the line. "That's, ah, pretty big all right."
"Well, Nancy had me pretty turned on. It was probably bigger than usual."
"You're a hero, man," was all Tom said.
After that, things were a little strained between us. I found out years later from his ex-wife -- as she was happily riding my cock -- that Tom had the opposite problem from me.
I kept to myself the rest of the summer, thoroughly spooked. Some mothers must have overheard their daughters and sons talking and they came sniffing around, but doing it with my friends' moms just felt too weird to me. I know what you're thinking, but I just didn't get it at that point, and maybe that was a good thing. You're going to laugh, but I began to think that the size of my cock was a handicap.
That fall, in college and far away from my hometown, I took the responsibility of my parents' investment in my education very seriously. I'm smart and I was motivated, but there was a real problem living in a dorm. Freshman, once away from their families, tend to go a little nuts. My floor seemed to be party central seven nights a week and it was tremendously difficult to study. To top it off, my roommate was one of the most notorious culprits. He was going to be booted out for sure when grades came out, but I didn't think I could hold out until first term ended. The university library was nearly a twenty-minute walk from my dorm, but I made the trek every evening -- which got old very quickly. I was getting pretty frustrated.
The only recreation I allowed myself was a weekend touch football league. Our team was good and since I'm fairly big and fast, I was the star halfback. In late fall, after an intense game on an unusually warm Saturday afternoon, I decided to forego the long walk back to the dorm to take my shower because I was just dripping with sweat. So I showered with the team in the field house. Not wanting to be hassled about the size of my dick, I'd never done this before.
Waiting until everyone was finished, I headed for the shower with a towel around my waist. Unfortunately, someone had forgotten something and came back in as I was lathering my hair. When I heard him, I looked up and he was just staring between my legs. Without saying anything, he turned and left. I breathed a big sigh of relief. However, when I walked back into the locker room, Mike was dressed and sitting there with a thoughtful expression.
Turning to my locker, I took the towel off and quickly slipped on my boxers. God,I thought, he's going to hit on me. I mentally kicked myself for not trotting back to the dorm.
The rest of the team had left for a nearby pub and it was just Mike and me. Funny thing was, Mike had a girlfriend, or at least someone very pretty I'd seen him with a few times.
"Were you planning on coming out with the team for a beer? I want to talk to you about something."
"Um, I guess I could," I answered, relieved that he didn't want to go someplace else. If he wanted to make a pass at me, it wouldn't be when he was out with the team.
"Great. Let's get going."