This is the ninth episode in my story series, Years Before.
In the last part, the thing with Eva hit an ultimate peak but then came crashing down. Ruthie turned out to be a real friend.
In this part, the friendship between Ruthie and I builds but, in amongst it, the realisation for Cass and I that we were both finally single results in a rampant night that nearly happened more than once before.
Thank you for reading
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Ruthie and I kept in touch. We met up to go for a walk and chat. No intentions beyond just being friends. Having talked about Cass to Ruthie, though, I began to realise that I hadn't heard from, or seen, Cass in a while. It was time to phone her.
"Cass?"
"Andy? Oh..." Cass had none of her usual energy.
"Cass, what's wrong?" Silence for a moment.
"Everything. I'm glad you rang. Do you have some time soon to come over? Now if you like."
"Yes, please."
"Do you want Ruthie to come over too? She's been trying your door for a few days."
"Yes, please." Cass wasn't right.
"Give me 20 minutes. Leave your door open."
A quick call before I leave.
"Hello"
"Hi. Is that Joan?"
"Yes."
"Hi Joan. It's Andy, Ruthie's friend."
"Oh, hello Andy. Don't forget. Cup of tea always here for you. You want Ruthie?"
"Ooh, yes, please, if you don't mind?"
"Not at all, hang on..." What came next in the background made me smile with some surprise. "Ruthie, it's your favourite man on the phone......"
"Mum, stop it! Bloody hell." The sound of pounding footsteps.
"Ah, Andy, Hi, honey. You OK?"
"Yes. It's Cass."
"You spoke to her?"
"Yes, I don't think it's good. You free if I call for you and we go across together."
"Yes, yes. Knock for me, Andy."
I pulled up outside Ruthie's house. I still had to get used to actually going to Ruthie's house even though my car partly lived outside it at times! As I walked up the path, Ruthie came out.
"What do you think, Andy?"
She asked before greeting me with a kiss.
"Something's happened."
We got across and Cass, as requested, had left the door open.
"Cass? Cass, where are you?"
"In the living room."
The sight of her shocked me. I had never seen Cass like it. She was pale, had almost smoked herself out of house and home and had streaks from tears down her face. Ruthie went to her while I tried to find a cloth and a cup of water.
I came back in. Cass was resting on Ruthie's shoulder. Ruthie spoke to her.
"What happened, Cass?"
"So, two things. Firstly, and I'm sure you'll be pleased...David and I are done. He started being a shit again so I told him I'd had it so he could fuck off."
"He's not tried contacting you since?"
"No, I made it clear that I didn't want to hear from him again."
"OK. How long ago was this?"
"Two days ago."
Ruthie held Cass's hand. "Oh, Cass, I was trying your door yesterday. I thought you weren't here."
"I had to be alone especially after the other thing..."
"The other thing?"
Cass waited a moment, lifted her head away from Ruthie and turned to me.
"I'm sorry, Andy."
"Cass, I don't understand."
"Eva came to see me but she didn't want you to know."
"What do you mean?"
"She called it off with you about 6 weeks ago, didn't she?"
"Yes."
"She must have come to see me the day after. We spent hours talking."
"OK." I really wasn't sure where this was going.
"I will tell you because you deserve to know but Eva will not know that you know."
"OK."
"She turned up here and cried her heart out...for a long time. She told me that she had to give up the man she loved for her friend. I realised she was talking about you and me. Ever since then, it was weighing on me what had happened. You know Eva told me everything and, well, with me, finally, calling time on David, it has just been too much. I've been like this since I told him to fuck off."
"Oh." I could feel the tears well up. Ruthie was looking at me and I glanced at her. "You know how deep it got then? Don't worry, Ruthie knows my side."
"Eva said you'd both fallen in love with each other and that the sex had become making love and you were both so close and in a proper relationship but, because of what might happen with me, there was never going to be a commitment if it upset me. I'm so sorry, Andy, so sorry."
I couldn't speak. I was glad Cass knew about it all but I didn't want Eva to be crushed as well. I had to let it out so cried into my hands. Cass and Ruthie came over and held me. I was overwhelmed.
"I loved her, Cass. Really loved her."
"Andy, when did it change for you?" Cass wanted to understand it from my point of view.
"When you went away, we met up and spent the weekend together. It was very special, very physical but we spoke a lot too and I realised we were in a different place by that time."
I recovered my composure a bit and continued.