For those that have been following this story, please look at my profile as I have mentioned why the chapters are messed up. Hopefully Lit will get the right chapters loaded soon as one (Chapter Five) is still pending. This is chapter seven.
Chapter Seven: Going for It All
"You know all those rumors are just that, right? Rumors?" Jaquelyn asked as I told her about my upcoming lunch date.
"I am not dumb," I nodded.
"Okay," Jaquelyn said as she looked at me.
"So, what is it really like then?" I asked.
"Same, nothing is different," Jaquelyn nodded. "Nathan is the same as Derek, Andy and all the other men I have been with, all of them have minor differences, but all the same within reason."
I nodded. I was prepared for something if things went further than just a lunch date.
"What are you thinking about?" Jaquelyn asked.
I didn't want to tell her exactly what I was thinking. It had been the same thing I was thinking about last night and this morning.
"Ah," Jaquelyn smiled as she looked at me through our video call. "Sex with a black man," she laughed.
I didn't know what to say.
"Like I said, it's not different, if that's what you are thinking then you are wrong, like I said before Nathan isn't huge or does he last all night, or cum buckets," Jaquelyn smiled. "He is just like all the others."
I was slightly disappointed. I had thought it might be different.
"Don't look so disappointed, your guy might be different," Jaquelyn said.
I didn't want to get my hopes up, but after being with Benjamin and then Henry, I wanted something different, something more exciting.
Maybe that's why I had such an interest in Andre. He was different from both Benjamin and Henry.
"There is that look again," Jaquelyn said. "What are you thinking now?"
"Nothing," I smiled. "I will call you later."
I did have something in mind, but it would have to wait until later. I had to head to work and get things ready for a sale that I worked on.
"So, what's the issue?" Sheila asked as she met me at the house I was trying to sell.
I told her about my lunch date, and Sheila smiled from ear to ear. "I knew you would call him," Sheila smiled.
"It's just lunch," I shrugged as I set most of the furniture and other pictures that I usually placed in a house.
"Then why call me?" Sheila asked. "Could've gone on the date without telling me anything."
"I just wanted to make sure you were okay with it," I said.
"I was the one that told you to call him," Sheila said. "So, of course I am okay with it. What's the real reason?"
She had me, there was more that I wanted to know, and as much as I didn't like asking my daughter about personal things, she did have the most experience.
Unlike Debra and I, Sheila was more promiscuous. She didn't see herself as the settling down and getting married type. Debra married Jimmy straight out of high school, and I married Benjamin in our first year of college. Debra had only been with Jimmy her whole life. Benjamin and Henry were my only experiences.
"Ah," Sheila smiled. "Sex!" she laughed.
"You don't have to be that loud," I shook my head.
"What do you want to know?" Sheila asked. "If it's the whole big black cock thing, that's a myth and only for porn."
"Really?" I asked.
"Definitely, trust me, four black guys only one was above average, and the whole can go for hours thing, yeah, that's a lie too," Sheila
shrugged. "They were a bit more assertive and aggressive, but other than that," Sheila shrugged.
"Same thing Jaquelyn said," I said, slightly disappointed again.
"One thing I do like, is the color difference," Sheila nodded. "It's probably what turns most white women on the most, and there is a certain taboo to the whole thing."
"How so?" I asked.
"The looks people give you when you're out with a black man, and the slight whispers and people shaking their heads," Sheila smiled as if she remembered something. "It's quite exciting."
"Even in the city?" I asked.
"Anywhere," Sheila shrugged. "Movies, dinners, restaurants, just walking around, it's a rush. You will see."
I didn't think about that aspect. I had never thought about it, but now that she brought it up, I remembered Henry shaking his head at an interracial couple as we were dancing. Benjamin always thought it was a traitorous act to have a mixed child.
"You think it will go that far?" Sheila asked.
I didn't know for sure. We hadn't even gone out yet, and here I was thinking about the next step. Maybe all Andre wanted was to go out.
"My advice?" Sheila asked.
"Absolutely," I nodded.
"He's younger than you and doesn't know everything you have been through, so take it slowly this time," Sheila said.
"Go slow, coming from you?" I smiled.
"I am just saying, you're looking for something that he might not want," Sheila said.
I nodded. I didn't need another failed relationship. I wanted something more substantial, something real.
"Thanks," I nodded.
"Anytime," Sheila smiled.
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"So, where are we going?" I asked as I met Andre in the parking lot outside his building.
"There," Andre pointed to a Caribbean restaurant across the street.
I had seen many people going in and out of it, but I had never gone in. I had to admit I had no interest in the food, let alone the loud music from the restaurant.
"Ah," Andre said. "Don't knock it before you try it."
I nodded. We walked across the street and into the restaurant.
Immediately all eyes fell on the white woman with a tall, dark-skinned man. At first, a bit of fright and fear came over me, but as Sheila said, the excitement slowly came over me as we sat down.
A huge black woman came to the table, put down some menus, and asked what we would be drinking. Andre smiled at me as I looked over the menu, trying to look for a regular soda.
"Cream Soda, is the closest you will get to a sprite," Andre smiled.
"Fine," I smiled back at him.
The woman walked back behind the counter as I looked at the menu. There was nothing that sounded appealing, except for the curry chicken which I had at an Indian restaurant.
When the lady returned, I placed the order, and Andre smiled back at me. "What?" I asked.
"Next time you can pick the place," Andre said as he leaned back in his chair.
"Next time?" I smiled.