After being fucked -- used -- by Paola and her husband, Sister Claire knew that she had much to think about. She felt it vital to reconcile in her own mind the rules of the Order, as she understood them, and what she had experienced at their hands.
Poor Sister Claire still had not understand that she truly was a sexual submissive, dedicated to letting others take what they wanted because she wished only to please them. That was the reason that Sister Teresa had wanted to induct her to the inner circle of their Order. Mother Mary, too, had recognised those talents and instantly seen how she could put Sister Claire to use.
It was in Claire's nature to submit and obey Paola -- to be excited by giving pleasure to her and the police chief. She told herself it was all part of her assignment, even when she was screaming out her own sexual release at the hands of the perverted couple. All that Claire knew for sure, as she drove back to the village, was the warm glow of satisfaction that so often came from sharing the Gift.
The pretty nun had every reason to be on a high after such wondrous sex play. She'd given them such pleasure and had been thrilled to take their invasions of her body. That was what worried her. Sister Mercy, her colleague, surely had been speaking for the inner circle when warning Claire against permitting lust to control her actions. But what did that mean when a man or woman performing oral on her or ramming a cock into her soaking cunt?
Claire had her obligations to the Order. The Gift was used by the Order of the Mount to advance its own works for the needy. And to secure protection. There was no doubting that those obligations took precedence over any pleasures of the flesh. It was a mortal sin to permit the Gift to be misused. But why not take the most intense enjoyment from cumming on a man's penis or when he blasted his holy seed down her throat?
She knew that there was a link between the Gift and sin. It was her own sins, those unclean thoughts, that had taken her first to Sister Teresa and given a first glimpse of a hidden world. Learning about the Gift had relieved her of so much guilt and opened a wonderful new world.
It was clear that lust was approved of when it was experienced by others. That was, after all, in the nature of the Gift when used by the Order. Others allowed their desire and their carnal lust to be expressed freely in exchange for all manner of assistance. Was it wrong to take advantage of the sins of others? Claire pondered over the nature of sin. And wished she had paid more attention in divinity classes.
What about Mr Watson with his lust and greed for sexual pleasure? He'd given critical help to the Order. The Order repaid him with the Gift. Despite his enormous lust, Mr Watson was so obviously a good and kind man. Claire knew she was right to have agreed to his request to be fellated in his car that day.
Though she had to wonder about how much she had been influenced by that incredible phallus. Claire was just wired to love beautiful cocks. A big, hard cock was a sign of virility and power that she found irresistible. She loved them all -- powerful, imposing. They had filled her mind with unclean thoughts even after she had sworn off them with her vows to the Order of the Mount.
Mr Watson seemed proof enough that women were intended to worship the male organ. His was a thing of wonder -- more than eight, thick inches and surely made to be used just as Mr Watson did. Claire told herself that it could not be wrong to worship such power and beauty.
It was a different story with Monsignor Davis and his more humble penis. But Sister Claire knew that he was a wicked man who took full advantage of his position in the church. She had willingly paid tribute to him, exposing her body and taking his hard, lust-filled penis into her bottom. Such was the cost of the nuns using the Gift to support their work. Claire had craved his approval. And Davis would have to find his own way of answering for his sins. The young nun had to admit she'd been turned-on at being sodomised by the senior church man but it was all for the benefit of the Order.
Was Claire right to worry about the fate of her soul? Her sister nuns seemed to have no trouble in enjoying fucking and being fucked. She recalled vividly the wicked gleam in Sister Teresa's eye that day when she'd displayed her slit, wet with the semen of some man who'd she'd just given herself to. Was Sister Teresa's joy merely for the chance to share the Gift? Or did her supervisor feel her own sinful lust and pride in the carnal delights? After all, Claire had witnessed Sister Teresa's groans of delight as she was being fucked by Mr Watson's huge cock.
The Gift was real and Sister Claire knew that sexual pleasure itself was not the sin. Perhaps the joy of giving something so wondrous to another person -- the heavenly thrills of amazing sex -- was naturally rewarded with the same pleasure being experienced by the giver. That was a nun, to be sure. Or had god intended for the Order of the Mount to be a bunch of sluts who made sure that good works were done on Earth?
It was natural for Claire to consent and want to please others. That was the reason for that first, clumsy threesome -- so long ago -- after a boyfriend had suggested it. But she was eager to please and to conform as a new member of the inner circle. Her sister nuns had removed the torment of her unclean thoughts. And they'd given her an opportunity to make a greater contribution. What more could a woman do than give her body? Even if that meant she was a slut.
She had never experienced anything like those incredible orgasms when Sister Teresa had used her mouth and her toys to take her to climax. Did that make her a slut, too? Learning about sapphic pleasures had equipped her to better share the Gift. Claire had not expected to enjoy sex with a woman quite so much but she had loved meeting the challenge of the dirty Paola. Was that the only reason for being tutored by Teresa? Claire was certain she'd seen something in the eyes of her supervisor that betrayed her own carnal reasons for teaching the new member.
Perhaps there was no answer to the confusion. Perhaps she was, indeed, a slut nun who took greedy pleasures where she found them. Mother Mary was a fine example of unbridled enjoyment of the Gift. There was her eagerness to be sodomised by the Monsignor. The senior church man was an important patron but that could not explain the Mother's craving. And Claire had noted the Marys lascivious behaviour when given the chance to be penetrated by Mr Watson's massive organ.
And what of the perversion and dirty sex acts that she'd been introduced to? Sister Mercy had enjoyed whipping her and that meant such things were part of the Gift, too. Being urinated on had shocked Claire but obviously had excited Sister Mercy.
Claire could not fault the teaching she had received from the tiny Sister Mercy. It had been invaluable preparation for her current assignment. And Claire thought it only fair to take pride in having not flinched when the dirty Paola had pissed directly into her face. Or was that another failing on her part? -- was it wrong of Claire to enjoy the gush of hot, golden fluid on her face and into her mouth?
Claire was left with the thought that "fucking for Jesus" surely could mean sexual enjoyment for everyone connected by the Gift. Whatever the danger to her mortal soul, there was comfort in devoting herself to the pleasure of others.
It would have been better to discuss all of this with her sister nuns. But she would not do that -- fearful of being judged or, worse, expelled from the inner circle. Sister Claire had no desire to be returned to a life of simple service and celibacy.
Father John would have had wise words. But this was a conversation she needed to have face-to-face. It must wait till she returned home. The priest had been a gentle, skilled teacher. Claire was grateful to him -- and more. She knew that her feelings for him must be kept in check. She had sworn to place the needs of the Order ahead of any tug she felt towards the sweet priest. Though John, too, had an unholy relationship with carnal pleasures. Only someone who really understood sexual pleasure could be as diligent a tutor. He had shown Claire how to embrace the Gift in its many forms.
