I've been sitting at work all day trying to focus but it's impossible. All I can think about is what's going to happen later. I'm nervous, what if you don't like me when you finally see me? What if it's super awkward?
It's almost time to leave to meet you. I've had so many thoughts about canceling, telling you I got caught up at work, or that I'm sick. Just some excuse not to go. But I know I won't do that because I need what you promised me.
Walking to the park I regret how bold I've been in text. All those things I've said I wanted you to do to me. When we first started talking I had just gotten separated from my husband. I was feeling brave. I was feeling adventurous like I deserved to meet someone who'd give me what I had wanted for so long.
Now that it's almost time I feel like a shy girl and I'm not even sure I'll be able to look you in the eyes without blushing. Will I even be able to say "Hi", or will it just be a squeak?
I spot you right away. You're tall, and even before I get close to you, I start to feel small in your presence. I bet you can already tell I'm blushing. I deeply regret not wearing underwear. It makes me feel exposed. I'm embarrassed because you know I'm not wearing panties, and you're probably thinking about that right now. The way you smile at me confirms that's exactly what you're thinking about.
We somewhat awkwardly say hi - I don't squeak. You have a nice smile, and I feel reassured that my gut feeling about you seeming safe, was right, for now.
I start to relax once we talk for a while. We smoke that joint you said you would bring, and it helps me feel calm. You're funny, and I make you laugh, so maybe you think I'm funny too. We're both a little awkward, but who wouldn't be? You don't know me at all, yet in a few minutes you're going to follow me back to my hotel room. Undress me, touch me, hit me, taste me.
I feel dizzy just thinking about it, or maybe it's the weed. I haven't smoked in years, but I've missed this feeling. Even though I'm almost too embarrassed to ask, I look at you and say "So... Do you still want to come see my room?" I'm scared you'll say you've changed your mind, but you haven't, and you laugh, nod and start to get up.
"It's not really the room I want to see, but yes, I still want to," you say.
On the way to the hotel, you're talking, telling me a story about something you did some time, somewhere, but my head is spinning a little and I don't remember a word of what you've said. The only thing on my mind is how crazy this is. In a few minutes, this stranger is going to see me naked and he's going to touch me in ways no one has touched me in years.
Suddenly we're in the lobby, the elevator door opens and you get in ahead of me so you're standing behind me when the doors close. I'm on the 7th floor, and even just getting past the third floor seems to take forever. I know I said I wanted you to check if I was wearing underwear, but now I'm scared you'll actually do it.
I turn around and see you looking at my dress. When I catch your eye you reach out to me, lightly touching my hip, running your fingers down to the hem of my dress, slightly lifting it as your hand wanders up my thigh, all the way up to my ass.
When you realize I did go through with it, and I'm not wearing panties, you smile and whisper "Good girl." I blush so badly that I have to look away, and it makes you laugh. You give my arm a reassuring squeeze.
"It's okay," you say. "You're doing great!"
I'm still blushing when the doors open to reveal my floor and you gently nudge me to get me out of the elevator. As we walk down the corridor, I'm acutely aware of you walking behind me. I feel your eyes on my body, but I don't turn around.
As I'm unlocking the door I feel you get closer to me. Your hands are suddenly on my hips, moving to lock around my waist, as you gently press your body up against mine. I can tell you're rock hard and I start fumbling nervously with the card, trying to get the door open. In my head I see myself dropping the card, having to bend over to pick it up. Having to bend over in front of you, with no panties on. But I don't drop it and the door finally unlocks.
When we get inside I have no idea what I'm supposed to do now. You're still close to me so I turn around and look up at you. You seem like you're thinking about your next move, when you suddenly push me up against the wall, putting your knee between my legs, pushing them apart.
You kiss me, while your hands start wandering all over my body, ending up between my legs. I let one small gasp out as you easily slide a finger inside me. I blush at how soaked I am and blush even more when you look at me and tell me again that I'm a good girl. We stand like that for a while, you kissing me, kissing my neck, pushing one finger deep inside me. I close my eyes and just try to stay on my feet.
You let me go and walk across the room to the chair. I know what happens now. I asked for this and I want to, but I'm still embarrassed when you sit down and pat your lap. My sign to walk over there and lay down. I do as I'm told because no matter how anxious I feel, I still want to obey you.
I somewhat awkwardly lay down across your lap. I can feel exactly how hard you are, and it reassures me you're just as turned on as I am. I close my eyes as I feel you lifting my dress, your hand caressing my skin. You tell me to relax and I haven't even noticed how stiff my body has become.
The anticipation of what's about to happen makes me tense up even more. I can hear that I'm already breathing funnily, even though you've barely touched me. You keep stroking my bottom, almost tickling me, and the feeling of not knowing when you're going to hurt me is almost torturous.
You notice I'm still tense, and I hear you whisper "Relax, sweetheart. Nothing bad is going to happen, I'm going to take good care of you," and just as I'm starting to ease up, you spank me hard.
I'm so surprised I let out a loud whimper. You don't let me recover and spank me even harder, three times in a row for each cheek. This causes me to clench my jaw and let out several little squeaks.
"Such a good girl," you say, as you start caressing me again. "You're doing so well."