We were friends all through school and many classes found us sitting near one another. My last name begins with "S", his with "V". Even our lockers were neighbors. He always seemed to be around me – one way or another. I spent most of my high school years fantasizing about him. In those years, once the hormones had kicked in, I wondered what it would have been like to go out with him, to be his girlfriend, to kiss him, to touch him. But I knew I wasn't his "type". He was a jock, incredibly cute and always hung out with the cool girls. I was cute, but wasn't in the same circle of girls. Nevertheless, a crush materialized during 9th grade English class.
Years later, after graduation, we all went our own ways and I didn't see him again.
I planned our 10 year reunion and he was there along with many of our classmates. He and another friend of mine surprised me and sent flowers as a thank you for all the hard work in planning the party. Yet, I didn't see him after that.
I always looked forward to seeing him at our reunions because he seemed to be a "regular". As a reunion approached, my lust for him would reawaken. I looked forward to the next reunion before we'd said goodbye at the current reunion. I had always hoped that someday the timing would be right and he'd be mine.
At our 25 year reunion, he made my dreams come true – he kissed me. My biggest, baddest, 16 year old girl fantasy had just become reality, so I decided to let him know he'd made my dreams come true.
"What?" he said after I admitted my crush.
"Don't tell me you never knew I had a crush on you."
"I had no clue." He said as he laughed.
"Well, you're probably the only one who didn't know." I told him.
After a few more dances, hugs and kisses with him and several others at the 25th, I bid them all farewell and as I left, I could have sworn I heard him say "I've loved you all along!" Or did I just imagine that? Instead of stopping and asking him to repeat what he said, I waved, went home and looked forward to seeing him again in five years.
And what a five years it was – 9/11 happened shortly after our reunion and that changed our world. I moved my family into the rehabbed home I'd inherited earlier in the year; I entered into grief counseling; my son and I moved out of our family home into an apartment; I got a divorce; I lost my job; I found a job that was even better than the one I lost; I was alone, but happy.
I experienced a lot of personal growth during those five years but what remained constant was my lust for him, the desire to touch him, to taste him, to have him. He was on my mind many times over the years.
There were times I'd lie in my bed, alone, and my thoughts would drift, finding a path to him. As my thoughts of him drifted from place to place, my hands would drift along my body. I imagined my hands were his, as my fingertips would glide lightly along my skin, they were his fingertips. My touch, his touch.
I would imagine his touch as I brushed my palm across my nipple, now hard and tight; his fingers grasped my nipple and pulled gently, twisted slightly. He knew this would get me hotter. My fingers grasped the other nipple and imagined it was his fingertips that now pulled on both nipples. I felt the wetness between my legs and reached down to dip into it; his fingers spread my swollen lips to push into me to find the slickness from inside. Now both hands between my legs, hot pussy lips pulled apart and back to expose my clit. A gentle touch to the naked flesh of my clit with his slick fingertip sent a bolt of electricity through me. My hips rose to meet the touch; begged for more. The fingertips knew exactly what to do, rubbed in small circles, my clit pinched between the two fingers, rubbed between the fingers, the other fingers holding the lips away. The orgasm built inside me and with one more perfect touch, exploded with a force I'd not experienced in a long time.
I lay there, breath coming in gasps. I licked my juices from my fingers, imagining the feel of his tongue on my fingertip, the thrill of having my finger in his mouth, touching his tongue, his lips.
As the evening of our 30 year reunion drew near, I'd not heard that he'd be there, but I couldn't imagine him not coming to a reunion. Truth was I needed to see him; I needed my five year fix. The lust I felt for him increased tenfold. I imagined his body still lean and strong from the days of track and the rigors of his career as a cop; his eyes still strong and clear; his ass still, without a doubt, the best ass I'd ever come across.
I had a revelation a few years earlier that he was the one responsible for my desire for the martial artist, wrestler, well built body type – not too tall, lean but not thin, built but not over developed. Anytime I saw someone with that build, I felt my body react and my mind returned to the picture of him held in my memory.
I had these images frequently; more so as the reunion drew closer. I was relatively certain I'd see him at the party. I was even more certain he'd never be mine. All I would ever have of him would be my fantasies, 16 year old school girl crush and memories of a great guy from school.
The night of the party came and, although it was a very busy day, I took the time needed to look nice for the event. I dressed professionally, yet sexy. I wore a black lace bra and panties, black stockings, black dress, black jacket and black shoes with bows. I curled my hair and felt very pretty. But with a little sexy underneath that no one would know about except me.
I was seated in the lounge talking with a group of friends when one of the others stood up to greet new people behind me. I turned to look and there he was.
He was more handsome than the day we graduated all those years ago. It had been more than thirty years since that day and he looked as if he'd gained only a few laugh lines where the rest of us had gained pounds and lost hair. I looked at him and smiled. I was sure my smile gave away my lustful thoughts, but hoped for the best.
He came and hugged me as he always did. I hadn't been with anyone in a very long time and I felt my body react to his closeness, his smell. I felt the wetness start between my legs, the heat in my chest and on my face. I was flushed because he was here; I was excited by his touch. I hoped I didn't look as though I was that 16 year old girl with a crush.
Through the evening we talked and mingled, everyone enjoying the reconnection with old friends. There were times I watched him as he talked. My imagination was going to places I was sure reality would never see.
The evening drew to a close and I said my goodbyes. I came to him and we hugged.
"Why didn't you say something at the last reunion when I told you I'd loved you all along?" He asked pointedly as we stood toe to toe, my arms around his neck, his around my waist.
"Wow. You really did say that? I thought for sure it had been my imagination." I replied.
"No, it wasn't your imagination."
"Walk me to my car?" I asked as I broke our embrace.
He said his good byes as well, took my hand in his and we headed to the parking garage. As we walked, we talked.
"You know," I started, "I'm probably going to make a fool of myself by saying this, but what the hell, I'm going to do it anyway. That crush I had on you in school? "