You know, I have had some really nice people contact me based on my writings. They are intelligent, literate, literary and not seeking sex; per say, but enlightenment or excitement as we all do, in our rut of life, repeating it day to day, giving in to the grind and paying the bills. So, I thank those who encourage me as a new writer, it is just therapeutic to me, but very fun.
So, why do I write... many have asked? Well, first of all I always loved English. I struggled with it in Jr. High School and College but later in life, very later, found it as fun, a challenge, an expression of sorts to explore and demonstrate one's life, of a kind.
So, now, you're wondering, is this a confession, an admission or a story? Yes, a bit of all three? Well, I'm trying to decide why I write, what I am missing in life and what you readers are missing in life? Maybe it's just the diversion, an aphrodisiac of sorts or just a pastime. So, I think the subject to write about is intimacy, not sex; am I right? Okay, let's have a little bit of both.
Intimacy is missing in our lives for a lot of reasons. The internet, for example, encourages perhaps superficiality or interpersonal relationships if we are not screening properly or particular.
I began an online romance recently. It began one Saturday night as we both sipped wine, while instant messaging, laughing and getting sillier as the hours passed. We asked each other questions. You probably are familiar with the routine. We got a bit sensual and thus started our online romance.
As time went on, for some reason, I would get irritated with this man frequently based on some flakiness or distraction in his thought process. I would ask him not to contact me anymore; thus, the tumultuous relationship began.
One evening, I get an instant message asking me if I was still "cranky?" I replied, "No, not until now." I was just joking and then we continued to seduce each other online. We started to build a binding relationship based on the exchange of pictures, secrets, our personal and professional lives. As bizarre as one might think if you haven't dated online yourself, we were starting to build a seductive relationship.
A few dates that were scheduled became convoluted and rescheduled. Then, one day I get a call, "I'll be working in your area on Tuesday for a couple of days. Care to get together?" I was very excited and of course, said "Yes." He wanted to go to dinner and have me book a hotel for him. So, I was the beckoned date and did so as requested. He wanted to meet at my house, but that's one of my rules about online dating β no first dates at my home. "Will you spend the night?" he asked. Well, by this time I did feel pretty comfortable with him. I liked his picture, his personality and his sense of humor. It's amazing how close one can get to a perfect stranger. I said, "Let's just meet for dinner and take it from there." "Why don't you pack an overnight bag just in case with some lingerie?" I was pretty sure that we would hit it off and we were yearning and lusting for each other. But, I had just gotten over the flu and told him I didn't want to get him sick. "Get me sick." Okay, I'll be wearing jeans and dress casual if you want," he said. I laughed and said I'd think about it