How I write naked and masturbate about my brilliant affair.
As usual, I awoke just after seven naked and alone in my king-sized bed. Stretching as I thought about the day ahead, I realised that it would most likely be the same as yesterday, the day before and tomorrow, I felt depressed. But then such a feeling was pretty common and was becoming the norm for many during April 2020. The first lockdown had been decreed a few weeks earlier and was just beginning to bite.
Most shops were shut, pubs and restaurants were closed, we couldn't go to work or meet friends. Life was awful, but it was necessary.
Having just separated from my husband of nearly twenty-five-years, it was an interesting time for both of us. Recently, our son had moved to Dubai to work and our daughter had started studying law at a university some 150 miles from where I now lived. My near ex as I called him stayed in what had been the marital home in Essex and I moved into our investment apartment in London Docklands.
The split was amicable. Both of us just no longer wanted to be married and, before it was too late, wanted to savour being single again. I was 49 and Kevin was 55. We had a broad agreement that if after ten years we were both single, we'd get back together again!
So, we had it all worked out and everything was set up for us. But then, of course, bloody covid hit and, as they say, the best laid plans of mice and men were completely fucked up.
After showering and cleaning my teeth I slipped into a pair of panties, made some tea and ambled into my study, mug in hand. I fired up the PC, went into the cloud, accessed the folder 'my stories' and opened up the story I was currently writing. There were a few pages of description of him and me, how our relationship had developed so far and a little background on both of us and then onto how our affair started.
I read:
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I had been attracted to my boss since starting at the marketing agency, in fact I thought he was gorgeous, but I hadn't in my wildest dreams expected anything to happen.'
In some ways I guess it was a classic office romance, a predictable work colleagues' affair. But to me it was not that, as time went on it became more, much more. I think he could well have been the true love of my life and I feel I was that to him.
Patrick was one of the directors and he was my boss. He was just older than me, nearly fifty and lived in an upscale North London suburb which was just a few miles from where I lived. He too was married with two children. His wife was known in the office and didn't seem to be liked. She was heavily into politics and was a local Tory party councillor, but was trying to get adopted for a parliamentary seat in Kent so she was away from home quite a lot. As he and I got to know each, many other similarities emerged.
I suppose it developed and followed a fairly predictable path.
We worked closely together, probably closer than was really necessary.
We had to attend meetings together, both in the office and at clients' premises, most of which were in London, but some were round the country; we usually travelled together.
We got to know each other, we talked of many things including our personal lives, which I soon learned were dangerous discussion topics.
We started to work late together, we had lunches, sometimes with clients, but more often just the two of us, ostensibly to discuss work.
We had drinks after work, just the two of us, he gave me lifts to the station and then.
"Maybe we could have dinner one night Jayne, perhaps when we are both at a loose end having been partner dumped?" he asked one day
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As I sat in front of my PC creating this, partially true, story I could feel the arousal building up in me. Describing the beginnings of the affair made me feel warmer. That started in the pit of my stomach and was spreading out through my body filling my breasts which felt so full and heavy. My nipples were pounding and my thighs were trembling.
I knew that the writing was doing its job and was going to work. Also, I knew that being almost naked was the wise choice.
I continued writing the story that I had entitled, A Working Affair.
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Staying late at the office, mild flirting, lifts to the station, the odd drink after work even lunch are all part of work. Yes, they may be extensions of it and they may bring the participants closer together, but they can always be viewed as work; they are usually in work time so they can be justified as that. Dinner is different. It's out of work hours, it isn't part of the working day, it intrudes on one's personal time and cannot really be justified. I could no more say to Kevin that I was going to dinner with Patrick my boss than Patrick could say to his shrew of a wife that he was taking me out. You can wrap it up how you will but dinner, even between work colleagues is a date, it's as simple as that. But rather than say 'come on a date' we use the euphemism 'let's have dinner.' We both knew, though, exactly what it is and what was going on; after all we were both grown-ups! Patrick was trying to extend our relationship, take it beyond work, mould it into friendship or more, he was extending a guarded invitation to me to go out with him. Yes, Patrick was inviting me to take another step along the intimacy trail. I strode out with little hesitation on that road to be fucked.
"Yes, that would be nice," was my hesitant reply.
It didn't go anywhere. We got on well, we chatted easily, we found out lots about each other, but it ended when he dropped me at Liverpool Street Station and I got the tube home. I think we were both too nervous and concerned that we would do something to upset the other. I certainly, and I suspect Patrick as well, was also relieved; starting an affair is a big step, a huge responsibility and a massive guilt trip.
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I stopped composing and typing for a while to gather my thoughts on what actually happened. I checked the time and saw that it was only seven-forty meaning that I'd been working on the story for nearly half an hour, fifty percent of my target daily total.
I felt good. Slightly, but not yet massively aroused I had some lovely feelings running through my body and my guess as I was about to write about the start of the affair, was that I would masturbate.
I returned to my hobby and wrote
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Whether I was trying to justify my feelings for Patrick and the potential affair or whether all the signs from Kevin were adding up to him being 'at it' again I'm not sure. But he was away and out more often, he had more 'urgent' trips and then yes, I did smell the 'cheap' perfume that bimbos wear, that is until he buys them Chanel. That convinced me he was up to something, but then 'leopards never change their spots' I thought feeling remarkably relaxed about the fact that my husband was fucking another woman!
Again, whether it was me 'knowing' that Kevin was up to his old tricks' or some other force I don't know, but I started feeling differently about Patrick. There was almost, or so it seemed, a correlation between the strength of my suspicions that my husband was shagging some little bitch and the strength of those feelings for Patrick.
I looked for him from my cubby hole as he walked round the large open plan office or I glanced into his glass walled office through the vertical blinds as I passed by, which I seemed to do more frequently. I looked forward to our daily meetings and to presenting stuff to him as just the two of us sat in his office with the door closed, sometimes our arms or legs touching. When he touched me, perhaps guiding me through a doorway before him, they were now more than mere touches, they felt like caresses. When he looked at me his stare became more than a glance in my direction it became a look of affectionate lust, I felt as if he was undressing me as, increasingly I was mentally hoping he would!
We had dinner again. This time when he dropped me at Liverpool Street Station he got out of the car, came round opened the door and stood there as I got out. He stared at me, put his hand on my shoulder and said.
"I have really enjoyed tonight, Jayne, thanks so much."
He kissed me on my cheek. It was like an electric shock. We both just stood there a moment or two. Involuntarily I touched where he had kissed me with my fingertips, his hand was still resting on my shoulder. I whispered.
"So have I Patrick, thank you."
And still neither of us moved. Then I felt his hand on my shoulder as he applied some pressure. Slowly, we closed the gap between us. He pressed his body against mine and buried his face in my shortish, blonde hair.
"Maybe Jayne, I have enjoyed it a little too much, if you know what I mean?" he said quietly, his hand running down my arm and resting on my hip.
I felt surprisingly calm. Although my heart was pounding and a heat was oozing through my body from the pit of my tummy to my breasts and nipples, I managed to hold on.