We passed by each other in the hallway. I was on my way to a meeting and in a rush to get a seat. Frank, strolled, as he always did, down the opposite way of the corridor. "Yo,yo." He gleamed a small smile in my direction. His broad shoulders and chiseled chin betrayed any attempt he had to be subtle. I'm 5' nothing and he's 5' 10" with massive body compared to mine, and the hugest hands I'd ever seen.
"Whaddup, playa," I said awkwardly. Immediately I'm embarrassed, yet Frank rolls it off like it's nothing, and chuckles. The fitted white collared shirt he had on was spotless, and his pinstriped tie, his favorite, was loosened. He always wore clothes that seemed to be made just for him. The way fabric fell on his body just seemed divine. His sleeves were rolled up, which meant it was the late afternoon. Frank's arms were sculpted; his shoulders firm and round lead to his lovely neck with the top collar button unbuttoned. The prominence of his chest in the way that he walked showed that this man loved to go to the gym a fair amount.
With all the business I have to deal with, I could never allow myself to enjoy the gentle gaze that he always gave me when he saw me. If I did, I wouldn't be able to focus for the rest of the day. So today I just allowed myself a polite smile, and hurried past. As we crossed paths, the scent of his cologne slowly drew my attention - it wasn't overpowering, but just enough so that you'd notice. I shook my head, bringing myself back to reality. "To the conference room," I say quietly to myself as I make my way through the door. No one was here yet, of course. I was early - I'm always early.
I set my laptop down; the sudden whiff of his cologne filled my mind. It was never strong, but just enough for me to pick up on. My team suddenly filed into the room I was settling in. "Hey, Miss Early Bird!" My good friend Maria barged in, with her bubbly voice. "So I saw your guy going off somewhere with his friends in the hallway!" She always teased me about Frank and I, and how we would make a great looking couple.
"Thanks for the update, news channel 8, but you know I'm taken, and he's not my 'guy'," I said, sticking my tongue out. Maria was my best friend. She knew all of my business, as all best friends should. But she knew the goings on in my head like she read my mind.
"He doesn't have to know!" Maria winked at me.
The meeting started and I was distracted of course. My boss was ranting on about the merger and how much of a shithole this place was going to become (in not so many words, of course). But that smell kept taking me away in my head. Frank was so quiet, but attention-grabbing. A bit arrogant, but humble in a strange way. I liked the way that he would look at you with a warm stare but still was able to make you feel he looked through you. Frank had this way about him that made you anxious yet comfortable. Not to mention the air being thick with attraction every time we saw each other. For the past couple of months, I wrestled with the fantasy of standing in front of Frank and smelling the area around his shoulders to his neck. The thought of it even made me forget about the meeting. I felt a small mischievous smile graze my mouth.
Before I realized it, the meeting was over. For some reason, I was eager to get into the hallway where I had seen Frank. Small bouts of excitement helped the long day of work move just a bit faster. I was slightly disappointed when he obviously wasn't there. I got to my desk and felt like a child that didn't get to play with her toys.
My mind wandered again as I buried my head, staring at my dual computer screens. "I wonder what it would be like to see him, working out." I bit my pen as my thoughts became increasingly dirty. A small fluttering in my stomach started as I thought about Frank sweaty. His caramel skin, athletic arms, clever smile and round lips. The fluttering became warm and moved down toward my thighs. "Great," I thought to myself. "I'm not even half way through the day and I'm already getting that feeling.."
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My job is fairly complex. Work seldom stops for me, and consumes a lot of my time. My boyfriend is a bit of a starving artist who seems to have the world at his fingertips, while I toil over excel spreadsheets and calls from idiots that need me to explain how to do their jobs. Like a job should, it fulfills me, but it does overwhelm me from time to time. I'm value added, my team is awesome, and my superiors love to bounce me around the country for business. It's my love life that feels a little less exciting. Being a focused career girl, and having a boyfriend obsessed with his paintings and sketches, doesn't exactly breed the best sex life.
Don't get me wrong, I love him, but many times it just feels like we're disconnected. Simply going through the motions seems to keep what we have together. But something seems to be missing. Intimacy can be faked, but raw passion is something that cannot be replaced. It is the random and spontaneous love-making that I desperately need. The thought of the raw sweat of a man's brow dripping on to the bed sheets makes me anxious. I would give anything to feel the flexion of his abdominals in to my hips. Grunting, moaning, grabbing. Hell! I just need that experience of one man worshipping my body as a sexual being. "Ha!" I chuckle, at the thought of simply asking to fuck more often. But even then, I have to be played with first and warmed up before a romp. I need to be worked up right, if I am to want more from my lover. Make me want more. Ensure that I want to own you as my own after. If a man could do that, then let's just say my rabbit wouldn't be "useful". To be completely honest, I think my rabbit gets lucky more often than my boyfriend does. Actually, I know it does.
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It was 6pm finally. The day dealing with invoices and angry customers with stupid requests was done. Well, until my phone went off again. I tried to pack my stuff away so that I could get home to my empty apartment - scrupulously clean, like I like it.
Hurrying down to the center elevator, I couldn't help but think it would be purely serendipitous to run into Mr White on my way down. I could conveniently run into to him as we waited in the lobby. I could still smell that lingering scent of cologne from earlier in the day, just barely sensible to the nose. The look of Frank's face with its five o'clock shadow, and his deep eyes that suggest sex. Umm. Just to watch him gently undoing his tie, as if to say "Can you please help me take my shirt off?"
The elevator came.. Sadly no one was in the lobby. A strong urge told me to wait for the next so I watched it go down without me. Pushing the down button again, an eager feeling started to rise in the base of my chest. I waited again. No strapping young man in the lobby. Helplessness crept over my belly. Small enough to ignore, yet noticeable. The tin box welcomed me and my slightly bummed attitude. The door closed, while I noticed the fake wood panelling and an ugly brown-green rug.
Suddenly, someone stuck his hand in the way of the sliding planes of steel. "Which dumb idiot is in such a rush?" I thought quietly to myself. The doors slid back open. I was pleasantly surprised to see the object of my desire at the other end of the sculpted arm. His massive frame glided into the tight space. Frank's pants fit well, and he was wearing dress shoes that you could tell he took meticulous care of. He had his tried sex face that I can't look at without staring.
"Thanks for not shutting the door on my hand," he said half-jokingly giving me a charming, he wink.
"Next time, come on time!" I stuck my tongue out, then hit him on the shoulder. Our silly routine that made the day go by. He teased me and winked, which made my knees wobble. I gave him shit back with some strange face.
"Careful! My girl wouldn't like random girls touching me," he said, sticking his tongue out back at me.
"As if you don't love it when I do stuff like that to you." We both chuckled.
He looked back at me, as if to say "Yes, I do". A small silence fell over the elevator as we tried to break eye contact. In just those few seconds, the sexual tension that I had grown accustomed to built between us.
"So, any plans tonight?" he asked.
"Um... Nothing really, Freddy's got another art exhibit that he has to host."
"That sucks monkey balls, dude."
"Yeah, but what am I gonna do?"
"Um, let's see." A mischievous look came across his face as he looked in my direction. "You could hire a masseuse?" Frank said, with a sneaky inflection.