Much as I hate staying late at work, I hate going home even more. At least it's quiet when everyone else has left. The phones have stopped ringing, the faxes are still, there are no assistants knocking at my door. It'll just be me as usual. God I need a drink.
As I cross to the small stash of liquor I keep in my desk, I look out along the long row of cubicles and notice the dark head bent over a computer. Greg - hard at work. I forgot for a moment that I had asked you to help finish the Brubaker project. The thing was proving to be a bitch.
I pour myself a healthy splash of bourbon and raise it to my lips. The heat slides down my throat like a smooth flame, warming me from the inside out. I really shouldn't drink this stuff, it goes straight to my head and gives me ideas. I stand in the doorway watching you work. I can only see the top of your head from here, but my mind fills in the rest. Don't think I haven't noticed you. From our very first interview you have starred secretly in my dreams. I've pictured your large hands smoothing down over my body as you lay me down onto my desk, slowly pulling off my conservative suit. Kissing my...
Wait a minute, my desk? These dreams always take place on a beach or someplace wonderful, not in my office! I open my eyes and realize that I've been standing at the open door fantasizing about a man not 50 feet from me. A younger handsome man who thinks I'm attractive. I've seen the way he looks at me during client meetings and project brainstorming huddles. It's the reason I've started wearing tighter skirts and blouses.
Yep, the drink has gone straight to my head, and I think a little farther south. I toss back the rest and walk back to the bottle to pour another measure for myself. I also take out another glass.
They say you should never drink alone.
Without turning, I call out your name. "Greg, why don't you come in here and take a break?"
A moment later, still facing the window, I feel you come up behind me. I can feel the heat from your body - you smell delicious. I turn to find you standing so very close. A shiver runs down my spine. The thoughts chasing through my brain are so wrong yet so...well...delicious. I truly just want to eat you up.
I hand you the glass and gesture to the amber bottle. "Have a drink and come sit with me", I tell you, "we both need to relax for a bit." I move away as I speak, I've got to put a little space between us before I jump you where you stand. The sight of you in front of that desk is giving me ideas. Is it wrong to want to grab your face and kiss the life out of you? To run my nails down the front of that starched white shirt? With the jacket off I can see how broad your chest is, how wide your shoulders are. Your biceps are huge. I'll bet they could hold me against the wall for hours
I'm gonna get fired, I know it! I must have slept through that inservice on sexual harassment and I've probably imagined the way you look at me. Hell, I'm sure you think I'm a bitch. An old bossy bitch.
I lean back against the cushions of my leather couch and watch as you cross the room to join me. So I get fired, who cares! If I don't at least get to touch you, I'll combust.
As you sit down beside me and turn to watch the sunset, I try to decide how to proceed - do I just tell you what I want? Do I ask you to please, please touch me? Crap, I've forgotten how to do this. I've been stuck with a shit of a husband for so long, that the flirty/sexy part of me that I need now has died. Though apparently my hormones still work, 'cause I'm having a hot flash. Either that or it's early menopause.
I figure that I might as well try to cool this heat a little and take my suit jacket off, after-all, you had ditched yours. No need to be stuffy after hours. I swivel on my seat to partially face you and open my mouth to start a conversation but my mind freezes. You have a dazed expression on your face and are staring at my chest. I glance down thinking that I've no doubt dribbled bourbon on my blouse or something. But the only thing I notice is that the top three buttons are undone, the light from the windows has made the fabric kinda see-through, and you are staring at my breasts. My nipples tighten as I watch you watching me.
I shift a little more in my seat and recross my legs. Slowly. Your eyes now fix on the sight of the skin visible above my stockings when my skirt pulls tight. Your nostrils flare and I see the tip of your tongue sweep along your lower lip as if you are tasting something sweet. I can give you sweet, I think to myself, and a whole lot more.
I rub my hand along the inner curve of my upper leg and lean towards you while I rest my other arm and the still icy glass on the back of the sofa. This pulls my shirt open a bit more, and I feel another button go. Your eyes dart back to my chest and fasten on the scalloped edge of my bra that now peeks out from the opening. Poor baby, is the big bad boss too much to handle? Not to worry, I'll take care of your handle. Ooo, did I just think that? Hell, yes.
"So Greg, how do you like this so far?"
Your eyes jerk up to mine and widen. Surely I'm not asking what you think I'm asking!