Even the coffee was tasting tired in the museum break room, but Andrew's lovely compliment in class that morning was still ringing in Nancy's memory as she watched her break tick away on the clock.
"That's a beautiful skirt!"
"Thanks!" And she'd finally bitten the bullet and asked for his phone number, along with an invitation to join the study group she'd organized. Both were readily accepted, and Nancy had enjoyed her first spark of joy on what had otherwise proven to be a bleak Valentine's Day.
As she sipped her coffee now, Nancy looked down at the outfit that Andrew and two other guys had complimented today. She didn't really see what made it so special. Maybe it was just the novelty of seeing anyone dressed up among the otherwise-drab fashions of grad school. The full, electro-pleated black skirt did flatter her wide hips well, but Nancy was a sweatshirt-and-jeans gal and would never really feel at home in a skirt. Maybe that was why Michel, her boyfriend of nearly three years and unofficial fiancé, hadn't been one of the three guys who'd expressed such fondness for it, even as he'd watched her put it on from his side of the bed that morning. As for her tight lavender sweater, it did accentuate her too-big breasts pleasantly, but she found it also framed her generous belly all too well. But maybe it was true that some guys really did like a few extra pounds.
There was, though, one thing Nancy had come to love about her outfit over the course of the day: not a drop of red anywhere. Since Michel had made no mention of Valentine's Day, she was only too happy to not acknowledge it in any way either.
As if on cue, Robert, the museum's upstairs security guard, arrived for his break at that moment and became the fourth man to express his admiration that day. "Hey, Nancy! You're looking great tonight! You been here all day?"
"Thanks! And since one o'clock." She stood up and stretched. "Morning is for classes, after all."
Robert shook his head. "I don't know how you do it, Nancy. Grad school and this job? When do you find time to sleep?"
When I ought to be spending time with Michel, she thought with a dollop of bitterness that she hid behind a smile as usual.
"Hope you and what's his name have special plans for after you're done, then," Robert said. "Happy Valentine's Day."
"To you as well, Robert." She forced a grin and reminded herself that he meant well, and excused herself to return to her post.
It could be worse, Nancy reminded herself time and again through the tail end of her shift. She could have been in poor old Andrew's shoes. The more she thought of that, the more flattered she felt that he'd been brave enough to compliment her that morning. Michel might be a cold fish lately, but at least she had him to go home to.
Andrew had a crush on her. He'd never said so, but all the signs were there. The shy smiles she always detected in the most fleeting of time whenever he saw her, the way he never contradicted her in a class discussion no matter how fearlessly combative he was with other students, the way he always kept her at arm's length in a group of friends, though he was unfailingly diplomatic at the same time - Nancy had known them all too well for years. But where most of the other guys who'd displayed them all had gone on to make fools of themselves or worse, Andrew had always played the gentleman. He'd played it well enough to persuade her that he
was
a gentleman.
Nancy couldn't help but respect the way he'd coped with the situation, and so she'd never grown uncomfortable around him the way she otherwise would have.
Rather, she'd grown frustrated. Frustrated that they shared a mutual best friend, Maria, and three courses to date, and that Andrew had proven himself a star in all those courses (he was reportedly second in their class, just behind Maria), and by all accounts a really nice guy besides. And yet he'd never hung around her long enough for her to even invite him to their study group, even as Maria had regaled her time and again with tales of what a wonderful guy he was.
Until that morning, when she'd needed it the most!
Nancy worked three days a week at the museum, and of course she always dressed up for it. It made her feel silly rather than beautiful, as if she were playing a role that was utterly different from the real Nancy. But she couldn't very well argue with success.
If only there had been any success with Michel! Too typically French, her boyfriend had always been utterly, sickeningly aware of his charming accent, as well as the lack of any need for anything else to turn her inside out back when they'd first met.
He'd stayed by her side on the big move out from Chicago last summer, and he'd more than willingly found a job of his own at the university gym to keep himself busy while she was studying and working, and there had been talk of marriage. But the staid months since their arrival had Nancy acutely aware of something she'd been able to look past back in Chicago.
Having fought off her share of frisky boyfriends back in high school, she had never imagined she'd end up with a boyfriend who rarely even tried to get her into bed. But that's just what she'd ended up with. Michel's lovemaking had been enthusiastic at first, but it had always been straightforward and deliberative, just like it might have been with someone new whose body he didn't know at all. And it was mostly about his own orgasm, too. Like the naïve young woman she'd been at first, she'd accepted it as just the way of mature love. But lately, her patience had been running out. That was why she'd made a point of giving him an eyeful as she got dressed in the morning lately. That very morning, she had pranced around the bedroom several times in her tights and bra, pretending to look for a belt whose location she'd really known all along. Michel had given her an appreciative look or two, but nothing more.
Nancy had even forgiven his failure to wish her a happy Valentine's Day then. After all, he'd still been half-asleep. His failure to mention it again at lunch just before she'd left for the museum had been a lot harder to forgive. But she had, as usual.
At least she wasn't in poor Andrew's shoes. And now she had his phone number.
The last two hours of her shift did little to change Nancy's state of mind, though she did a good job of keeping it to herself. As she stepped out into the midwinter night to face the chilly walk home to Michel, the bombardment of Valentine's Day reminders once again hit her with a blast as cold as the wind itself. Other women carrying bouquets and teddy bears, garish pink and red displays in all the darkened storefront windows, couples huddling together for the walk...at least she could have counted on Michel for that, probably. Regardless, all at once, Nancy knew she wasn't ready to return home to Michel's indifferent embrace just then. It was a perfect night for a drink at Bluestocking's Bar, and Nancy had little doubt her tips for the day were just enough for at least two glasses of wine.
Bluestocking's, the city's first self-proclaimed "female-friendly" bar, was just a few blocks up from the museum and had become increasingly irresistible to Nancy of late. With its convenient hooks for purses under the bar and clean seats and unoppressive sound system and watchful bouncers to keep mouthy guys at bay, it had of course aroused the ire of the usual haters; but men were more than welcome there provided they behaved themselves. There were several of them present as Nancy shook off the cold and settled herself at the bar. They all appeared to be taken, but Nancy only wanted to admire from a safe distance anyway.
That's what it must be like for Andrew when I'm around,
she realized as she ordered a glass of merlot and smoothed out two of the crumpled five-dollar bills she'd collected over her shift.
"Any plans for the big day?" asked the barmaid as she took Nancy's money and poured the wine.
"I'm afraid you're looking at them," Nancy said. "He's working, I'm working...who's got time?"
"I sure know what that's like," the other woman said. She set a tiny dish of cashews beside Nancy's glass, and was then distracted by another customer, saving Nancy any further small talk on the last topic she wanted to bother with right then.
