Looking at a photo of this man in his combat gear, holding a machine gun with a cigarette hanging out the side of his mouth. Tall, dark hair, warm brown eyes, with a smile so charming it would make any woman melt. I met Jeremy during a trip I made to the Petawawa Army Base when I was dating CM. CM was having a going away party at the junior mess hall as he was leaving the army. I drove up through the craziest rain storm with my best girlfriend at the time.
Being at the junior mess hall, or "the ranks" as the boys call it, is always exciting to me because I enjoy so much the attention lavished on me due to the complete lack of estrogen in the place. Being two girls surrounded by about thirty or so young guys in prime shape is like the beginning of a good gang bang porn. You can sense the guys' arousal and the sexual tension goes through the roof.
This was the scenario the day I met Jeremy. For him to have stood out amongst all the attractive soldiers I met that day should speak somewhat to his charming nature.
I arrived to find my boyfriend, CM, completely annihilated and pretty well ready to be poured into bed. Jenny and I had begun drinking during the drive down, as we were an hour or so behind the start time of the festivities. We had both dressed sexy casual for the occasion, both of us showcasing our best features: Jenny in a low cut top showing off her gorgeous Cs, me in a mini-skirt showing off my long legs and tight ass.
The ranks have a couple pool tables and some picnic tables used for beer pong, a favourite game up there. Jenny and I found ourselves immediately pitted against my BF and one of his friends, with a bunch of other guys hanging out and watching the competition. We had a blast teasing the guys who challenged us, fondling each other and Jenny hanging her boobs over the cups to distract any of our competitors. I had the chore of bringing my boyfriend back to his room in the men's dormitories (referred to as "the shacks") and Jeremy was one of two friends who helped me carry him back. After putting him in his bed, the other guy bid a quick goodbye and left.
I felt really awkward standing there with my boyfriend's gorgeous friend and found it hard to take my gaze from his. He looked longingly into my eyes with his gorgeous warm brown eyes and said, "I wished you were the best friend."
Those words had the effect of making me weak in the knees. I could feel my temperature rise significantly, and I was burning with desire to get this man naked. When I broke our gaze finally, I'm sure I was biting my lip as I often do when I am sexually aroused.
"Why don't you come back for a few drinks and make sure your girl is okay?" He suggested, and I readily accepted. Totally justifiable to spend more time with this hottie to go make sure Jenny was okay.
We returned to the ranks where Jenny was continuing to kick some serious ass at beer pong, though she had never played before that night.
It was late August and it was starting to get a bit chilly at night. While we watched Jenny finish her game, I shivered in the gentle breeze that had set in after the sun had set. Jeremy placed his sweater over my shoulders without even being asked. I could smell his sweet cologne on it, and it was driving me crazy. I think we both knew that it would be inappropriate that night, but also that we needed to have each other at some point soon.
The night ended disappointingly with Jeremy escorting us back to my boyfriend's room to crash. Jenny and I were both drunk and giggly, but Jeremy was very much the gentleman and didn't try anything. I think if he had, I wouldn't have been lusting as crazily as I was.
A few months went by and CM and I had a terrible breakup in which he had a psychotic break and tried to commit suicide. To Jeremy, who had been overseas and seen the awful terrors of war, suicide was a coward's death and I believe that CM's attempt made him lose respect for him as a man. Although still having both served together at Petawawa for years, he was conflicted in pursuing me as I was still his friend's ex.
I had not been able to forget the handsome corporal during the few months since the party. Newly single, I saw him as fair game. I contacted him through Facebook and soon added him to my Blackberry Messenger. He was still serving at Petawawa, so he was a good two hours' drive and I didn't have a car when we first started flirting via BBM.
Jeremy: Seriously, why couldn't you have been the best friend?
Tara: It doesn't matter now, does it? ;)
Jeremy: Well, you're still his ex...wouldn't feel right without his blessing
Tara: So if I got his blessing, it would be okay?
Jeremy: ;)
At that time, CM I think was still not over me and wanted desperately to remain friends. Simple. I wanted his blessing to pursue Jeremy, he wanted to remain in my life and that was what would make me happy. He reluctantly told me and Jeremy that if we made each other happy, so be it.
The words were no sooner left on Jeremy's voicemail that he called me one Friday afternoon when he finished work. I believe CM had called him that day. He tried to conceal his excitement as he asked if I would come visit him in Pet that night. If I had made plans, I don't recall what they were but nothing would stop me from going up to visit if I could find a way to get there. I checked the bus schedule, and a bus was scheduled to leave at 7pm, but Jeremy didn't want to wait.
