Author's Note: The first two chapters of this story are dub con about reluctance. This and any chapters I write are less so. This is a story about slowly giving, not about being used and abused. I know that will disappoint some readers. I have rewritten the early part of the story, essentially doubling the length of the thing in my (unposted) version.
There wasn't any use in denying it anymore if there ever had been in the first place. She might not know why, but she definitely knew that she wanted to fuck Jay again, in the worst way, because it was impossible to ignore the way her pussy throbbed the rest of the day.
Even after she cleaned off his cum, and sat there in class listening to a lecture on Prussia, of all things, all she could do was squirm and squeeze her thighs together as she wished he'd cum inside her pussy instead of all over her face.
What's wrong with me? She asked herself over and over again, but there were no answers. There was only need.
She should be furious, and truthfully, she was, but it was for all the wrong reasons. She didn't hate him for using her mouth. She hated him for not using her pussy so she could cum too.
Ryan wanted to hang out after school, but she couldn't. Not with the taste of Jay's cum on her lips. That was doubly true when she saw Jay eyeing the two of them from the parking lot. He probably wants me to kiss him, she thought with a surge of anger.
She denied him that pleasure at least, and instead, she went home. She intended to wash her face and take a shower, but instead, she ended up laying in bed frustrated. Soaking in the smell of Jay's cum, all she wanted to do was finger herself, but her tampon prevented her from doing that properly, either.
Oh, she could play with her clit, but it wasn't as rough as she felt like right now. What's wrong with me, her mind repeated again. Even after she came on the shower head a few times, she wasn't at peace with any of this.
She should have felt grateful that she'd gotten her period at all. Someone had cum in her without any protection and with no regard for her future, but instead, she resented it. If I'd missed my period, I would have gotten fucked earlier at school, she complained silently. If I'd missed my period, I could have basked in the smell of cum and played with myself in bed.
It was stupid, of course. She knew that. When she got like this, nothing would make her happy. The very last thing she ever wanted to happen was to miss her period. Sucking dick, though, well, that was something she could definitely do.
That evening, after dinner, she told her mom she was going to go hang out with her friend Anna. That was a lie, though. Instead, she met Ryan in the mall parking lot and then did her very best to suck his soul out through his dick.
He wasn't particularly enthusiastic about it at first, but Grace was unwilling to take no for an answer. "We can do it here, or we can sneak into one of the disabled bathrooms and--"
"What's gotten into you lately, Grace?" he asked.
"It's what hasn't gotten into me," she complained. "I just want to try new things. Is that so wrong?"
"It is if someone catches us, and we become sex offenders," he answered automatically.
She ignored that very sensible argument and said, "Well, then you'd better keep a good lookout," as she bent down and started unzipping his pants.
He didn't stop her then. Not once, his dick was out, and she could feel it throbbing in her cool hand. She smiled at that and jerked it experimentally a few times, noting how different it was from Jay's. It looked and smelled different. Ryan was circumcised and smelled like soap. He still had a masculine scent, but it was drowned out by other body products, which was just the opposite of what had happened with Jay. His musk had been all but overpowering.
Moments later, she found out how differently they tasted, too, when she took the first few inches of her boyfriend's cock in her mouth. She gurgled in delight, determined to enjoy this experience. Earlier in the day, she'd tried to go as fast as she could with Jay, but she'd treated Ryan better. She worshiped his dick.
Grace spent a couple minutes looking for the little spots and motions around the tip of his dick that made him moan and focusing on those, trying to gauge his reactions. She tried to express her love to him then, in the rawest possible way. It was a moment of pure eroticism that was made that much better when he praised her.
"God, you're getting so good at that baby..." he moaned. "I'm not going to last long at this rate."
"Cum as fast as you want, baby," she purred, lifting her lips from his head just long enough to speak as her spit-slick fist continued to pump up and down his shaft. "This is all about you. I want you to explode for me..."
He moaned aloud at those words. Then, as she started sucking again, he did something unexpected. He rested his hand on her head as he groaned audibly, and for a moment, she thought he was going to force her head down.
No, she didn't think he was going to. She hoped he would. She loved being a good girlfriend, but what she wanted was for him to take control. She could worship him all day, and it would make her nearly as wet as it bottomed out in her mouth and fucked her tight little throat until she was on the verge of suffocation.
That didn't happen, though. Instead, he continued to moan and groan as their windows fogged up, and then, suddenly, he growled, "Watch out baby, I'm... Oh, fuck... I'm cumming!"
Her throbbing pussy practically wilted at that moment. She didn't want to be warned. She wanted to be used. Still, there was nothing she could do about it now, and tried to make the best of it as she felt his hot, sticky cum fill her mouth.
She was tempted to swallow his load at that moment, just as she'd wanted to do with Jay's, but she resisted. He'd find it strange if she did that unsolicited. Instead, she lifted her head, hoping he would ask, only for him to hand her a Kleenex instead, ruining the moment. So, instead of fulfilling one of his fantasies, she spit it out.
She had to. It would have been weird not to then, but that was just one more disappointment on a night of disappointments. He didn't even notice her sour face as he started the car.
It's just not the same, she thought in disappointment, even as she smiled at him, and they started to drive home.