The days seem to get longer with each and every one that passes. I feel like I am in a daze and can't snap out of it. But sometimes great thoughts float in to my mind and it puts me into a trance of sexual fantasies. I'd like to share one of these thoughts with you. It all started the other day..................
"Jamie!"
"Jamie!"
"Huh...WH...What?" I said as I snapped out of my delusion.
"I have been calling your name for like 10 minutes man, what ya thinkin bout over there?" said my friend Denzel
"Shit nothing, just zoning out." I said, wondering if he believed me but couldn't care if he did.
"Yo, I'm tired let's just go do this shit tomorrow." Truth is I wasn't tired I just wanted to be alone with my thoughts. Once he left I went back into my living room and sat back down on the couch and started to drift off to that amazing sweet though I was having before...............
I'm standing at the door to a house I have never been to before and I knock then wait for someone to answer the door.
"I'm coming hold on!" comes from behind the door.
The door open slowly and what appears from behind it is an angel who must have came directly from heaven itself. Beautiful slightly curly hair that falls perfectly around her angelic face. With the most amazing brown eyes I have ever seen in my entire life! The body of a goddess perfect curves an amazing ass and the perfect chest size. I stood there speechless for what felt like hours. I finally snapped out of it and realized I was at Rachel's house. My Cousin Sam's wife. They weren't together anymore but were still married.
"Oh, hey Rachel I was just stopping by to see how you were doing and how everything has been I hope you don't mind!?" I was so nervous and could barely get the words out, never had I seen such beauty in a person. I also felt like I was violating an unwritten law of family code by going to her house alone. But we are both adults and I can control myself to keep from making a move. Or so I thought.
"Hi Jamie, Nah I don't mind come on in." she moved to let me through the door and then closed it behind us.
"Can I get you anything to drink?" she asked in a voice that sounded like angels singing a song.
"Um, I'm ok but thanks anyways." I looked around taking in my surroundings as it was all new to me. I was wondering where the kids were and how come she was home alone. She came walking across the room and started to answer the questions that were running through my mind like she was a mind reader.
"You just missed the kids. They all went out for the day and since I haven't really had time away from them being a single mom and all I decided to stay behind and just relax." she sat down next to me not to close but close enough to send what felt like electricity through my entire body. It was an amazing feeling, one of the best if I do say so myself. As I turned to say something to her our eyes made contact and I was at a loss for words they were so beautiful like stars that belonged in the sky and were shinning just for me. Just by looking into her eyes I could see how great of a person she was and how she has gone through a lot of tough times through her life but it only made her soul and spirit shine brighter than ever.
"Jamie, are you ok?" her voice cut through the silence in the room and brought me back to reality.
"Me yeah, I just got lost in your eyes. I feel like I could stare into them for days. They are incredible!"
She smiled a bright loving warm smile and thanked me.
We sat there talking about our lives going back and forth telling stories of when we were growing up. We talked about everything from best childhood memory to favorite foods, colors, movies, and activities. I couldn't keep in the questions I wanted to ask anymore and finally asked what I really wanted to know.
"If you don't mind me asking what happened between you and Sam? He must be crazy to have let you get away! You a beautiful woman with a great personality. If you don't wanna talk about it I unde....."
"Yeah know what to be honest I just wasn't happy and I tried to make it work but I just couldn't get him to understand that I wasn't happy. He just didn't' get it."
"I tried dropping hints giving him clues all the way to flat out saying it and he still wasn't willing to change anything not even a little" after she was done she seemed to be a little upset not about what she said but about the fact that she wished it could have worked out but realized it was time to move past that and start her life over.
"I'm sorry if I upset you or brang up painful memories. I didn't mean to, the last thing I want to do is to see you in any kind of pain." While looking into her eyes those feelings seemed to wash away and that bright warm loving personality began to shine trough again.
"Eh, it wasn't your fault you were just curious. No harm done!" "I do how ever have a couple questions for you." As she said that I seen a smile come across her face. Not a smile that would be from something funny but a smile that was meant for I really would love the answers to these questions.