It had been a month since Alice and Bryan had started mentioning the option of "taking a break." Somehow along the way something had changed. The passion had been lost, and although the break was fairly mutual, it was still so hard to understand. Where had their passion gone?
Bryan was the first man Alice had ever loved, and the first man to truly make love to her. Her past experiences proved she only knew how to make all the wrong choices with men, and she always came out from experiences feeling shameful and slutty.
At 20 years old, she was amazed to find confident, slightly older, sensitive Bryan to show her everything she was missing. He was the first man who ever told her she was beautiful who she believed. She was a beautiful woman. Her bright blue eyes glowed through her auburn hair, and her olive skin would tan in the summer and make her toned, but petite body look all the sexier, especially with her perky breasts and cute round ass.
Bryan made her feel amazing and sexy, and they spent the first three months together lying in bed, screwing all night long and holding each other through the long rainy Sundays. But it got to the point where there just wasn't excitement anymore. Alice rarely felt the urge to make love to Bryan, and Bryan just didn't have much to offer but satisfying his own sexual needs. She felt used and unattractive and lost her nerve in bed. The thrill, the anticipation was just gone. It was at that point that the red flags were raised and they both knew something wasn't right. They had just grown apart and lost that spark that they couldn't rekindle.
Truthfully, the only time recently when Alice was ready for Bryan was when she could close her eyes and think of Jamie. Jamie and Alice had worked together behind the bar at a lounge while they were both in school, and being that the nights were long, hectic and required working in intimate spaces with one another, they quickly became close and an unspoken but unique sexual tension built between them.
It was strange. One night it literally crept up like a dream for Alice as she awoke from an erotic dream in the middle of the night, climaxing. She couldn't believe that she actually was having an orgasm as she awoke, trying to remember who the familiar presence was who was with her at that moment of pure, unadulterated ecstasy, and wondering how she could play out her dreams in real life and feel that way again. It took until the next evening when she looked across the bar at Jamie that she realized how sexy and charming he really was. He always took her with his dark, stunning, naturally lined eyes and rugged scruffy beard and shaggy dark hair, and just like that she realized he was her dream lover.
Still, she was a good girl, and breaking up the good thing she had going with Bryan was not an option. This wasn't to say that the tension didn't grow, and there weren't close calls. One too many drinks and some dancing after hours would almost lead to a kiss and allowed for some light petting. Drinking in the booths in the lounge they would move closer each night; his hand would rest on her thigh and she would lose her mind as her crotch would throb in anticipation, hearing his deep, sexy voice as he spoke but only being able to resist the urge to straddle him and ride him right there.
One night as the drinks loosened her tongue, Alice told Jamie that she wanted him, to which he replied, "I know. I want you, too. I Always have." Ever since then, they tried to cool it, but acknowledged in every glance and smile their lusting for one another. She sometimes would talk about her troubles with Bryan, and Jamie would tell her of his heartbreaks with other girls, and he was always there to talk and had good advice, even though he would slip in an ulterior motive here and there.
One shift, Alice came in distraught and frustrated with what seemed like the same old story. She and Bryan had finally decided that they needed some space, and he left town for a week to stay with his brother. It was so hard and confusing and left Alice lonely and just wanting someone to hold her. She had no idea what to do, but just knew that something had to change, she was missing something.
Jamie and Alice talked all that night behind the bar, and decided they would grab a drink afterwords and really talk. Maybe Jamie would be the friend she needed to hear her out? After all, they saw each other almost every day and he had seen her through these things in the past. It would be nice to sit down and talk to someone who she knew would just "get it."
A long shift rolled on and after cashing out, it was finally time to sit and get it all off her chest. Jamie and Alice walked around the corner to a dark little dive and took a seat in a corner booth. They talked out Alice's problem until there was little left to say, and then drifted on to other conversation. All the while, Alice marveled at how easy this seemed, how close she felt to Jamie and how he seemed to radiate this energy that she couldn't get enough of. Watching him get up and walk to the bathroom, she found herself eager for him to get back and slide in next to her. She needed to be near him. The sexual tension seemed to subside for the night, which seemed to make sense in light of what was happening, but they both knew it was still there.
After the hours slipped by and they closed down the bar, Jamie offered to walk Alice home the few blocks to her apartment, and that's when the inevitable happened....
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"So, this is me," Alice gestured up at her building. "Umm...So, thank you for listening tonight. I know that you've had your share and then some hearing about all of this..."
"Hey, you don't have to do that," Jamie assured. "You know I'm always there to listen, and...you know, I just want you to be happy and get what you deserve." Alice looked down and shook her head. It seemed so weird. She was thinking about Bryan but just wanted to throw herself into Jamie's arms. Everything was confusing and all she wanted to do was just shut it all down. She didn't know how she was going to get back that thing that got lost along the way, but she seemed close to that place right here in this moment.
"I want that too," Alice finally agreed. They stood there outside her building awkwardly in this new place they had never taken their relationship.
"Well," Jamie started.
