Chapter 01: The Beginning
Gwen didn't give much background information on our first meeting, so I will. It is one of the most important events in my life and I can't just skip over it.
I first met Gwen on line in a discussion group. She was knowledgeable, smart, funny and literate. Even when we disagreed, we did so civilly and respectfully, bringing out points to explain why we differed. She impressed me. We teased each other about typos or unintentional double entendres, that kind of thing.
After several years of this, Gwen and some other members of the group talked me into flying up to her city for a weekend event.
At this point, I'd been struggling along in a bad marriage for several years and trying to keep it together "for the kids." The wife had become a drug addict and life was an endless loop of me drying her out and her falling off the wagon, interspersed with her drug induced tirades. Somewhere along the course of this, she also got religion and decided that we didn't need to have sex anymore. Not a big loss, I don't want to have sex with a druggie anyhow. Nothing against those of you who do, it's just not my cup of tea. I want my woman awake, aware and willing.
I hadn't had a vacation in years and really needed to get away. Going to the event this weekend at least promised to be some fun. I would probably get more sleep than I'd had in a while. I didn't even consider "getting lucky," after years of being degraded and ignored by my wife, I was not feeling very attractive and didn't want to risk more rejection.
So I went up there only hoping to have some fun, get some shuteye and get away from the druggie for a few days. Rest and relax.
I arrived at the airport and caught a shuttle to my hotel. As I had decided to go at the last minute, I was not in the same hotel as the event organizers. But Gwen and I had exchanged cell phone numbers. She called me when she got to the event hotel. I walked the two blocks over.
Now, I had only text chatted with Gwen on line. I had no basis to guess what she looked like. If I had to be pinned down on what my expectations were, I would have said anywhere from dumpy to fat. That was based on nothing more than low expectations of people on line in general and had nothing to do with anything Gwen had said or done. I simply figured people spending a lot of time on line probably had a lot of swivel chair spread.
So imagine my shock when I met Gwen, because she was STUNNING! Okay, not merely stunning, she was my kind of stunning. Every guy has what he likes in girls. Most guys are breast men, but I am a leg man. In order of body parts that appeal to me, I like hot legs, tight butts, flat abs and champagne-glass sized breasts. I'll talk more about breasts later. You could safely say that I like my women svelte. I prefer Calista Flockhart to Salma Hayek.
There I was staring at my dream body come to life, topped by a beautiful face with deep, dark, mysterious eyes and a crown of dark, curly, luxuriant hair. In a sultry voice, she asks me if I am Lance. I think I managed to admit that I was. She could have asked if I was Dr. Mengele, I'd have said yes. I don't remember what we said for the next few minutes, I was preoccupied trying not to stare and drool.
The first event was a rally downtown. We rode down to it together, sitting next to each other. I don't actually recall the conversation. I only know I loved the sound of her voice and was falling into her eyes. I've never felt such an instant, visceral attraction for anyone in my life
This was just TERRIBLE! Because in addition to being smart, funny, literate and drop-dead beautiful, she looked to be about 15 years younger than I was. I'd noticed a few years back that I had become invisible to teenage girls. Every year the age of girls to whom I was invisible seemed to rise. So I figured there was absolutely no chance of anything happening between me and this Goddess, no matter how smitten I was. I was merely going to spend as much time with her as I could and enjoy her beauty and company.
The rally was in a square downtown, between a bunch of tall buildings with mirrored glass fronts. The sunlight was reflecting off the buildings and pretty much turned the place into an oven. They had a band playing and I swooped on the chance to dance with Gwen. Damn, she moved well. It was a real turn-on to watch. Periodically there were some speeches, we sat down and listened to them, then got up and danced again when the music started back up. Sadly, there were no slow dances. I'd have loved to have held her in my arms.
At one point she seemed to have a pain in her neck. Without thinking, I reached up and started to massage her neck and shoulders. It's a good thing I did it without thinking, I'd have probably chickened out if I had thought of it. I felt like I'd grabbed a live wire when I touched her. It sent a shock through me. Wonder of wonders, she didn't pull away. She actually relaxed into my hands and made a happy noise. So I kept massaging and kind of worked down her back to the muscles between her shoulder blades. This was surreal. I was touching this unapproachable beauty and she was not only letting me, she was enjoying it. I think I forgot to breathe.
I was standing behind her, staring at the nape of her lovely neck, my hands massaging her back. My brain was spinning. This was too good to be true. Then I realized my hands had a mind of their own and were working their way forward, en route to her breasts. Holy shit, was I going to grope her in a public place, when we had barely met? No way she'd put up with that, it was a fast track to getting slapped and never talking to her again. I pulled back hurriedly and tried to get my pulse under control.
She didn't say anything, so I was thinking I hadn't gone far enough for her to realize what I was (subconsciously) doing. The rally ended, we went back to the hotels. But talking on the way back, I got the impression that the attraction might be mutual, although I could not point to anything in particular to support that conclusion. I decided it was wishful thinking on my part.
Gwen went to the event hotel. I walked over to mine, intending to grab a quick shower and change clothes. I needed it after dancing in the hot plaza.
Right as I finished my shower, I heard a knock at my door. I called out "Who is it?" I was stunned when Gwen answered.
My imagination went into Warp Speed. I slicked my hair back with my fingers, threw on a pair of pants, and went to the door, nameless erotic fantasies dancing in my head.
Taking a deep breath to calm myself, sucking in my gut, I opened the door, to find Gwen standing there with some guy. She introduced him as her Significant Other.