I woke up feeling very guilty the next morning. Sure, the guilt and doubt had begun building in my mind on the way back to camp last night, but it was only in the cold light of day that the possibility of my losing my new job hit me. I felt lousy, not because I hadn't enjoyed that contraband kiss with a camp participant, but because I had. And I wasn't sure I hadn't encouraged her too.
I have to admit that I spent a large part of the day in fear too... that Xiaowei would come right up and accuse me of taking advantage of her. So, I spent the whole day in my office, away from the campers on Day 2 of their camp. I pretended to be shuffling through the files and papers when any of the staff came in to check on me.
Relief for me came with the sunset, but I felt caged up, having spent all day in the cabin that served as my office and my bunk, including getting my meals sent to me. So, I went for a walk. Since the beach was the only part of the site far enough from the camp, I headed there, hoping that the fresh sea air would clear my head as I worked out my next steps.
"Hey!" I heard a familiar voice call out as I approached that little path branching off to the clearing overlooking the beach, and my heart sank. What did she want to do? Had she worked out a plan to leverage on what happened the previous night?
"Hey!" I responded, determined to not let her see that she was getting to me. "Wassup, Xiaowei?"
"Come over here," she grinned beckoning me further towards the scene of last night's crime. I shrugged, feeling even more trapped than I had been in my cabin. I tried not to let it show, though, and smiled brightly at her as I walked slowly into the clearing. It was brighter tonight -- there were no clouds covering the full moon, and I could clearly see the expression on her face. She looked eager, excited, and I wondered what she had in mind.
"I... uh... sorry about last night," she began, beating me to my apology. "I just... thought I peed myself, so I ran off. But when I got back, I found out it wasn't pee, it was...umm..."
"It came from another place..." I helped her finish her sentence.
"Uh... yeah. How did you..? Oh!" I could see her blush when I tapped my thigh.
"Yeah, it felt like pee, you know? Like a huge flood coming out..." she suddenly paused, as if she had just remembered just who it was she was describing her bodily fluids to. Then she looked up at me, a sparkle in her eyes. Uh oh.
"I wanna do it again," she declared, reaching quickly around my neck with her arms and pulling herself upwards to kiss me on the lips. That darned old instinct kicked in again, my arms wrapping around her to keep her from falling back, while I stepped back with my left foot and let her plant herself onto my right thigh once more.
This time, she didn't hide her intentions... she began rubbing her crotch up hard against my thigh, moaning softly into my mouth. Damn it, I was caught up in her hunger as well, so I ran my fingers across her ear and the back of her neck, knowing that this was something that brought her pleasure.