12.
Ellie lie in a coma; I only left her to eat and to grab a fast smoke. The days turned in weeks and weeks into months. Each day her poor body became weaker and I knew there wasn’t much hope that I’d get the chance to tell Ellie how much I loved her and was going to miss her.
It was a warm and sunny June day, the birds were singing songs of love, and the flowers were blooming. I was sitting with Ellie, reading her some love story, when she began to move.
“Hi handsome,” Ellie said looking to me with a half smile. Her eyes were alive for the first time in months and they were looking at me.
I grabbed her tiny, weak hand and gave her a kiss; “I’ve missed you so much!” I said with excitement in my voice and I could feel tears of happiness forming in my eyes. Her smile became bigger when she heard what I had told her.
“How long have I been asleep?” Ellie asked as she looked to me for an answer. Her pretty face started to look more normal as each minute went by.
I leaned to give her a kiss and replied, “You’ve been out for 5 months. I haven’t left your side.” I gave her another kiss. “And, I don’t plan on ever leaving you!” I said as tears ran down my face.
Her tiny hand reached to my face and wiped away a tear, “Don’t cry, this is a happy time.” She said with her beautiful smile. “I want to get up and go out into the sun!” Ellie smiled and tried to sit up, but her body was just too weak. “I don’t have much time left and I want to be with you, in the warm sun.”
“Let me get the nurses to take all this off of you, then I’ll take you to the first place we ever had fun.” I told Ellie with a smile. I knew she did not have much time and if it was her wish to go out in the sun, she was going to do it.
All the nurses and doctors told Ellie it wasn’t a good idea for her to leave the hospital, but Ellie said with laughter. “What it might kill me?” she looked to me with a big grin, “I hope you’re not taking me to the grocery store. That’s the first place we had fun.”
I kissed her head, “No, silly girl, I’m taking you to the park.” I told Ellie as I waited for the nurses to finish getting her ready.
“Oh, that will be a nice place!” Ellie said as one of the nurses pulled a long needle from her tiny arm. “That hurt!” Ellie said and burst out crying. Big tears starting running down her face and I rushed to her side.
“Can’t you people be easier? Or can’t you just leave that shit in her? I’ll bring her back in awhile.” I asked them as I rocked Ellie’s sobbing body in my arms. My arms held her with more love than I had ever known.
“YES! That will be fine.” Doctor Lewis said walking into the room. “Just tape the IV lines to her arm and let’s get them on their way.” He said with a stern voice and started to help tape some of the lines to her arm. Once finished he pulled me to the other side of Ellie’s room and said, “She doesn’t have much time. It might even be today.” He wrote down a telephone number and gave it to me. “If you need help call me and I’ll get help to you as fast as possible.”
“Thank you Doc. If her time is so sort, I want it to be happy.” I said as I felt tears forming in my eyes again. “I’m taking her to Winton Woods. We had our first date they’re watching the kids’ play, the ducks and geese swimming around. She loved it so much.”
Doctor Lewis patted me on the back and said, “Well, you just make sure her last hours are the best she’s ever had.” He said walking away with tears in his eyes.
“All done! Let’s get a wheelchair and take her out to your car.” One of the nurses said as she pulled some cold, ugly wheelchair next to Ellie.
“I don’t think so!” I said pulling my sick love into my arms. “I’ll take her!” I said giving Ellie a soft kiss and carried her to my car.
13.
I held Ellie in my arms as I slowly drove to the beautiful park just down the road from the hospital. “Just a few more minutes my love.” I told Ellie as I felt her breathing becoming shallower.
“that’s nice.” She softly said as she gasped for air.
I drove my car through the park and right to the lake. I must have broken 3 or 4 laws but I didn’t care, I needed to get my girl to her favorite place and soon. “Here we are, Baby!” I said as I opened the door holding her frail body in my arms. I walked to the bench we had sat on so many times. “Look!” I said to Ellie. “Here we are.” I said sitting down as easy as I could.
Her pretty eyes opened and looked around the placid lake. The geese were out in full force and not far away you could hear the children playing. “thank you! I didn’t want to die in that place.” She said, as her breathing became weaker. “it’s so cold and lonely in there.”
“Now you’re here, Baby.” I said holding her weak body as tight as I could. I knew what would be coming soon, but I didn’t want to let her go. I had never loved anyone so much in my life. Anyone I did love always seemed to disappear from me. Now my Ellie was only moments from leaving.
Ellie looked to me with a soft smile on her face; “I love you so much!” she said putting her tiny arm around my neck. Big tears ran down her face as the life was slowly draining from her weak body. “We never got to make love. I wanted you so bad.” She said gasping in air. “Kiss me one last time.” She said, as her breathing was now shallow I could even her breathing.
“Ellie, I love you, too!” I said leaning to her mouth, as I kissed her, Ellie’s last breath of air blew into my lungs. “Ellie! No! No! Don’t leave me!” I cried when I knew my girl was gone. My tears ran on her face as I held her lifeless body in my arms, rocking her. “I’ll miss you so much.” I said giving her one tender and final kiss goodbye.