The lights were low softly illuminating my beautiful wife as I struggled to stay hard enough to have sex with her. It had been three months since I had climaxed during sex with her and it wasn't because of an erectile dysfunction, instead it was due primarily to my inability to do the right thing. It had all started more than a decade before.
I stayed at college one summer to catch up on some hours I had dropped the previous two semesters. My steady girlfriend had gone home for the summer and I met a girl named Alicia. She wasn't terribly attractive, a short redhead with tiny breasts. What she lacked in looks she more than made up for in sexuality. She loved sex. We had sex three hours after we first met and thereafter throughout the summer until my girlfriend came back in town for fall semester. I didn't really keep in touch after school and it was five years before I got an email from her.
Since that first email we have exchanged hundreds of emails and instant messages about life, love and sex. The messages were almost always inappropriate. We are both married and if our spouses saw our messages they would surely kill us both. Living hundreds of miles apart makes it 'safe' to have a 'fantasy relationship' like ours. There isn't much chance of it moving offline, or at least that is what I thought.
Last summer things started to change. Alicia and her husband began to have problems and our conversations became more and more sexual. We even discussed meeting. That is when things got weird.
Alicia knew that sometimes when I was making love to my wife I was thinking about her. She liked this fact. She had an idea. What if I called her each time before I made love to my wife? I thought it might be fun so I did. The first call was sort of awkward. She wanted to know what my wife was wearing. I told her I assumed she was going to get in bed naked. Then she gave me my first instruction. She wanted me to cum inside of my wife doing her doggy style as I pretended I was fucking Alicia. Finally she asked me to call her as soon as I was finished. I followed her instructions, closing my eyes just before I ejaculated. Fifteen minutes later I called Alicia and she had me explain everything.
We repeated this several times over the next few weeks. I told Alicia I was doing it each time, but in reality it was only half of the time. I knew it was wrong, a betrayal of my wife. But it did turn me on. Alicia's instructions were always benign.
Then Alicia had a new idea. She told me to go to the bathroom where she asked me to start masturbating. Alicia began talking dirty to me, and it didn't take long for me to climax. She told me not to make love to my wife, but instead have oral sex with her until she had an orgasm. If my wife asked why I wasn't having intercourse with her I was to explain I wasn't in the mood. My wife loved the attention and was only a little bothered that I wasn't in the mood for intercourse. I called Alicia afterward and she helped me get off once more. The next evening Alicia asked me to imagine her face with each forward thrust of my hips. She then asked me to say her name silently with each reverse thrust of my hips. This one took quite a bit of concentration, but I came in less than five minutes much to the chagrin of my wife who asked "where are you?" I didn't have an answer. Afterward I told Alicia how quickly I came and she seemed pleased.
Alicia's list of 'exercises' grew over the next few weeks and soon each night I wasn't just making love to my wife, but also Alicia. She was a part of my sex life without even being present. My wife had no idea what was going on. Not that she didn't sense something was wrong.
Alicia took things to the next level when she asked me to stop 'making love' to my wife. She wanted me to 'fuck' her like a whore, saving 'making love' for her. She wanted me to start calling my wife a whore during intercourse. To claim I knew she was fucking other men. I didn't think I could do it. Alicia was adamant. Once I had agreed she then told me I couldn't ejaculate inside of my wife.