Him
I can't really remember a time where he did not cross my mind at least once daily during the past seven months. When I closed my eyes, most nights he appeared in my mind, seducing me with his deep brown eyes.
It started one day when I was in the airport with my boss on a work trip. We were colleagues and had been getting to know each other and flirting a little for about a month or so. When I saw a message from him I did not expect it to say what it said - the words right there in black and white - he had a crush on me. We were both married, with kids and lived in different states - complicated to say the least. That message changed me in a way I never expected.
As I began to get to know him more, each week I became more and more attracted to him, not only was he extraordinary to look at, his personality was incredible. To my surprise we had many things in common including likes, dislikes, wants and needs. I see myself as the average girl next door type who lived a simple, carefree life, he began to bring out a side in me that I had forgotten about and suppressed as I went through life almost on autopilot.
I still remember the first time he sent me a naked picture, I was literally speechless. As I looked over his ridiculously toned, strong body and enormous cock - it made me want him even more. He has sent me multiple pictures of himself, each one made my heart beat fast, my mind race and left me thinking about nothing but his cock for days on end. I know I could see his body a hundred times over and have the same reaction Every. Single. Time.
He made me feel confident, sexy, desired and wanted. I trusted him with my most wild sexual fantasies and told him things I had never told anyone, fantasies about masked parties where I would suck his cock while others watched, my desire for sexual activities in forbidden or risky places and shared intimate details of my previous sexual experience and those I am yet to experience.
That's what he did to me, made me free to express my true self without judgement, made me recognise that there was a part of myself in life that wasn't fulfilled, I was missing out on exploring my sexuality and more than anything, made me want to experience the euphoric, orgasmic experience I knew he could give me.
I liked to be in control of my life but he made me lose control, I felt unglued around him. He knew he had the upper hand and I could not control myself around him. I liked that he did this to me, it was an exhilarating feeling. He drove me beyond crazy and did something to me I couldn't explain. In my mind I tried to rationalise why he made me feel this way, so many other guys had hit on me and I never looked twice at them, yet this one guy, made me horny as hell and made me lose all inhibitions.