Rebecca threw her pencil down in frustration. It had been three weeks since Jon had taken her virginity. Three weeks of waking up drenched in sweat, mid orgasm from her dreams of him. Three weeks of walking into school with a pounding heart every morning.
Three weeks of Jon completely ignoring her.
After the... incident, Rebecca returned to school the next day with anticipation. She sat through her morning classes impatiently, watching the clock tick by every agonising second until it was finally time for her History lesson. She walked into the classroom prepared to try and mask her emotions, and the surely palpable tension that would be present in the room when she laid eyes on him.
Only when she walked into the room she wasn't met with the 6"4, crystal eyed Jon, but the grey skinned Mr Lloyd, informing the class of Mr Tate's absence due to illness. Rebecca's heart sunk, and the rest of the day passed in a mist of disappointment. The next day she walked past his classroom to see
Mr Lloyd still manning the desk, and once again no Jon. And for the next five days of school, there was no Jon to be seen. Rebecca had been going crazy, she began to wonder if he was ever going to come back, she was convinced he had left the school for good, hell maybe even the country.
Then, on a Tuesday afternoon she had walked into his classroom for her History lesson, not a hint of apprehension in her as she muttered an apology for her tardiness to Mr Lloyd. The returning comment however, was in the deep gravelly voice that brought colour to her pale cheeks and set her heart racing. She looked up to see Jon walking towards her with urgency, and she forgot where they were, she was sure he was intent on kissing her. She almost reached up on tiptoes, until she saw his arm outstretched. He was simply handing her a textbook that the rest of the class had been issued. She took it, thanking him, and looked up at his face. He wasn't looking directly at her, and she noticed a lack of warmth in the set of his jaw, the tightness around his eyes. She walked in a daze to her desk, a myriad of emotions wracking through her.
The lesson passed quickly, and by the end of it Rebecca couldn't have answered a single question on the topic of the French Revolution if her life depended on it. Jon had never once looked into her eyes, or even in her particular direction. She assured herself that it was just in front of the class, that he was being careful, sensible even. But it soon became clear that he had no intention of speaking to Rebecca, or repeating last week at all. Every time she walked past him in the corridor she stared at him solidly. He steadfastly ignored her, no matter how far away other people were. He never seemed to be alone in his classroom during breaks or after school either. He was always with another teacher, Rebecca had no chance of speaking to him. Slowly her feelings turned from hurt to frustration and all she wanted was to talk to him, to yell at him, to kiss him.
The cough of her Maths teacher brought Rebecca back to reality, and she picked her pencil up to carry on writing. He could only keep himself surrounded for so long. She could wait.
***
As soon as Jon had been left standing alone in an empty classroom with the damp panties of his student, a wave of guilt had began crushing over him. He had gathered up his things, hurried to his car and raced home. Pacing all night with a glass of whisky in his hand, he berated himself emphatically, furious at himself for having been so weak. What he had done was abhorrent, amoral, the worst thing he could do in his profession. He was disgusting, the whole thing had been wrong.
But then why could he not stop thinking about it? He could still smell her on his skin, could tast her on his tongue, could hear her moan when he closed his eyes.
This was ridiculous! It was wrong, he had more self control than that! He had almost convinced himself that he would be fine, until he put his hand in his pocket and realised he still had her damp knickers.
He had taken some time off, needing time to mentally prepare himself to stay away from her. The longer he went without seeing her, the easier he was finding it to quash his feelings for her. He went to the gym every day to release the tension in his body, and after about a week he felt strong enough to return to the school. After all, he had fucked her now; she would be out of his system surely?
When her class had filed in during their lesson he noticed she wasn't there. He felt concerned- he hadn't thought about how she was feeling. Maybe she had taken time from the school too? Perhaps she'd left altogether? Whilst he definitely felt relieved that the situation might be less problematic than he thought, he couldn't deny the feeling of disappointment that stirred in his stomach at the idea of never seeing her again. But then he heard a soft knock on the door.
Before he even turned a flood of emotions washed over him, it was as though no time had gone by at all. He felt elated, his cock stiffened, his stomach tensed, even his mouth watered. He still felt the same way before they had fucked; on the contrary, rather than being out of his system it was as though he craved her more, like she was a drug to him and the only way to assuage this desire would be to pound into her, to make her moan for him, to make tears come down from her eyes as she came again and again around his cock. He swallowed and turned around, taking in the sight of her. She looked dejected as she muttered an apology, she wasn't looking at him, but was heading in the direction of her seat. He felt anxious; was she upset that he was back? Did she want to forget the whole thing? It made sense, she was a young smart girl with a whole world ahead of her, she would want to forget the whole thing as well as him.
He was crushed, but he knew that this was a good thing really; they needed to forget about it, and this would make it easier. He excused her lateness as he picked up a textbook and walked over to give it to her. She had looked up at him, but he couldn't see the expression on her face as he was trying hard not to look at her- he couldn't stand to look at her if he couldn't do anything about it, and he was scared of the expression he would find on her face. The rest of the lesson he had ignored her, and then every time he passed her in the corridor he pretended he couldn't see her. He never let himself be alone in his classroom, he was too scared to be alone in case he saw her and couldn't control himself. He was doing the right thing. But that didn't mean he was happy.
***
It was a Thursday evening, Rebecca had stayed late completing her Literature coursework. She had been the last one left in the room, and had helped her teacher Ms Bernstein pack everything into the car, before returning to the school to get her things from her locker. The school was deserted, but she decided to swing past the history department on the off chance that Mr Tate would still be in his room. He was. But he was there with Ms Curtis, a young attractive blonde teacher, who was sat across the desk from him smiling and laughing at something he had said. Rebecca stood looking through the open door for a second, feeling sick and furious. She was about to walk away, but then she felt a wave of boldness wash over her, and she walked forward and knocked loudly on the door.
***
Jon had stayed really late at the school. He had a lot of work to catch up on due to his absence, and he didn't want to go home. The place had started to feel like a prison for his thoughts about Rebecca. At school he felt more aware of the risks of it all, the reality of the situation. He had been marking in his classroom when Felicity, his colleague had walked in. They had always gotten on, strictly in a friendly sense, but he didn't really feel ready for he company at that point. Or any company for that matter. It was well past school hours, it was unlikely that there would be any students left in the school at this time, and he was pretty sure there were only a handful of teachers. Still, she sat opposite him on the desk, she had to meet someone in town and it was easier to go straight from the school rather than head home first. They were discussing a pupil of theirs when a loud knock came at the door. Jon turned and his heart stopped.
***
'Excuse me sir, I wanted to ask you some questions about the essay'
Rebecca's voice was loud and clear. She was too angry with him to feel nervous, the three weeks of frustration felt like they were pushing her into the room. Mr Tate looked over at her, then at Ms Curtis, and he cleared his throat.
'Perhaps this could wait till another time Rebecca?'