I've never been afraid of the dark, as such. I'm more a little bit cautious than outright scared. Well, at least that's how I was before the party at Maggie's place last weekend.
Maggie is one of my childhood friends who I've never lost touch with, even though we're both almost thirty now. But that's pretty much all we have in common -- Maggie walks into a room and everyone notices. She's not brassy or cheap or anything like that -- although some of the things she wears would raise eyebrows in a strip club, let alone at a cocktail party -- but she just has this simple, elegant beauty that acts like a magnet to every eye. She's not loud, either, but her slightly husky voice seems to cut through the chatter around her leaving us all hanging on her every word. And before you even think it, we're just friends, and other than one silly weekend of experimentation more than a decade ago, our friendship is solidly platonic. I'm the quiet, slender girl with the untameable dark hair and Maggie is the curvier, vivacious blonde. There's never any confusing which one of us is which, for sure.
So, the party last weekend. Maggie is one of nature's natural hostesses, a lover of company and an organiser of the most wonderful parties. To make it even better for me, a single girl, Maggie isn't into match-making or trying to mix and match her guests; Mags is more into gathering together the sort of disparate personalities that make for lively debates and unexpected liaisons. Or to put it in Maggie-speak, she lights the blue touch paper and then sits back to enjoy the occasional firework and more frequent sparkler.
That sort of situation is ideal for me, as long as she leaves me room on the audience bench. It's a familiar position for me and to her credit Mags never tries to force me to participate in her party games. Which is not say that she doesn't encourage me to take part. Sometimes rather sternly.
It was like that last weekend when she suggested her latest game after we'd all been eating, drinking and chatting for a couple of hours. As soon as the words 'murder in the dark' left her lips, I was already busily trying to come up with an excuse to be excused, and when she add 'with a twist', my personal alibi-creation monkey was put on overtime duty.
The rules, Maggie explained, were a little less playground and a little more grown-up. In fact, she said that it was going to 'intriguing' and 'terribly, terribly secretive'. Not to mention 'a wonderful chance for one or two of you to give in to your naughtier sides'.
That last comment positively alarmed me, but I was mollified to a degree when she outlined the basics -- we were to be plunged into pitch darkness and were to simply, and anonymously, locate other party goers and whisper a secret observation about them into their ears. Whoever collected -- and admitted to -- the most complimentary "secrets" would be the winner. They would have to state what they were so of course there could be no cheating because we would, between us, know the truth of what was said. I figured that I would be perfectly safe right from the outset. There were some sixteen guests, divided equally between the genders and I was certain that my slight figure and ratty hair would be far down the list for any compliments that were to be dished out by the males present. As is usual with Maggie's games, despite my reluctance and despite the fact that I knew I stood no chance of winning any prizes, I was immediately wondering if anyone present would compliment me on my intellect or my sense of humour. It didn't make me comfortable when Maggie told us that the game was about to start, but I wasn't overly concerned.
'Right, everyone!' Maggie clapped her hands together when the men had, stereotypically, moved all of the furniture out of her living room, 'We're all set now, so everyone pick a spot to stand in and as soon as I turn out the lights, you go and stand there and we'll get started.'
'What if two of us pick the same spot?' Busty Barbara asked, timidly but reasonably.
Maggie laughed, 'Then I imagine the fun will start very quickly!'
Any grumbles that were about to be made were cut short in a series of -- mostly-feminine -- squeaks as the room was plunged into darkness. From somewhere close to the hallway door, Maggie chuckled at our reactions, 'Let the fun commence,' she announced. 'The lights will come back on in ten minutes, so get commenting and remember to be as totally honest as you can. No one will ever know it was you if you're careful!'
Her words were followed by a total absence of sound as sixteen people -- pretty much strangers -- sought to find their balance and their bearings. For a full twenty seconds there wasn't so much as a movement as we all worked out how to start breathing again, but then from somewhere a few feet away to my left I heard a muted 'sorry' as the first person made the first move and apparently stepped on the second person's toes.
Whatever had happened seemed to break the ice and a few seconds later a hand brushed past my arm before returning and slipping down to my own hand before clasping tightly. I knew even before the voice whispered 'who's that?' that it was one of the younger women -- maybe Siobhan or Melissa -- and I dutifully began to play the game.
'It's Maria,' I told the young lady.
'Good,' she replied, 'I wanted to start with someone easy.' She paused and her voice came back much more rapidly after a couple of seconds, 'Not that I mean I think you're easy or anything, I just meant it's easy for me to say this to you: my secret observation about you is that you are way smarter than you look... not that I mean you look dumb or anything, just, you know? I mean, you're like Einstein in drag... oh shit, look that's all wrong too... Am I ballsing this up big time, or what?'
'I think you're trying to compliment me,' I started to relax at Siobhan's -- I was now sure it was her -- discomfort -- 'so don't worry about anything. I'm flattered.'
'I am. Complimenting you, that is. Not that I'm... you know? I mean I don't want you to think I'm using the dark as an excuse for... you know?'
'I know,' I assured her.
There was a quiet sigh from my first contact, 'I hope the rest of the encounters go a bit more smoothly than this,' she whispered, 'but if it's any consolation for my awkwardness, I'm glad you were my first. Someone so smart and kind made it easier.'
'That's a lovely thing to say...' I just about managed to stop myself from adding 'Siobhan' to the end of my sentence. The poor girl was already nervous enough without knowing that I knew who she was. And let's face it, it really was a lovely thing to say, 'I just hope I get at least one more comment as nice as yours, but I doubt it.'
'Oh, I'm sure you will,' Siobhan chuckled softly, 'And I guess we'd better start circulating so you find that out for sure and I stop making a total fool of myself.'
I was about to tell her not to be so hard on herself but I felt my hand released, a gentle movement in the air and a sudden absence of a presence by my side. Siobhan had sensibly moved on. I stood very still trying to decide whether to move left or right along the wall when I felt that absence of presence suddenly filled. I paused, straining to hear anything but could only make out the quietest of breaths from close by my left ear.
'Who... who is it?'