That, of course, was the end of the discussion that night, but, of course much followed the next day (Sunday) and the days that followed. An event like that, a major first, required thinking and analysis to understand motivation and desires. The surprising thing was the acceptance by both of us that the sexual intercourse (if you would call it that) was not the crucial part of what happened. Obviously, it was of considerable importance - true in any marriage - but I wasn't bothered by it and, while she frankly admitted enjoying it, for Jan the real pleasure came from being watched, not the act itself. None the less, several times during the day the reality that she had committed adultery hit her and it did affect her. For my part, I recognized that I had enjoyed the whole show, but I didn't consider myself to be a "wife-watcher" as the term is usually used. Watching her being fucked wasn't the real motivation - it was watching her in an overall erotic setting having fun. I certainly had no desire to set up a situation just to have her screwed. Maybe that was just rationalization, but I really didn't care about applying a term to my feelings anyway.
Jan had, at least overcome her initial panic about our relationship with Marianne and Bryan and, while still worried about seeing her the following day in school, she decided to let her make the first move. Marianne's brief apology led her to hope that it would blow over - although this was not some ordinary faux pas which could be ignored. We still could not understand Marianne's actions, so that would just have to remain a mystery, at least until Monday.
Jan was really nervous as she prepared for school and her inevitable meeting with Marianne. They both had taught there for many years and almost always ate lunch together in the school cafeteria. As you can imagine, the situation was tense while they ate and talked in a stilted way in a room filled with elementary students. Neither was able to eat much and, when finished, Marianne hesitantly said, "Why don't we go into the teacher's lounge. I...I think that we need to talk. To an outside observer it probably looked as if they were headed to their doom - and they felt that way.
Fortunately for Jan, Marianne spoke first, blurting out, "Oh, honey, I'm so sorry about Saturday night! I don't know what came over me and," grimacing, "Bryan. I did and said things that I've never dreamed of saying or doing and, of course, Bryan did something that was beyond belief. I think that we both were out of our minds! I don't know how you could do it, but please forgive me...no, us."
A load fell off Jan's back at that point. "Marianne, of course I forgive you! We may all have been out of our minds. It was a weird situation when," blushing furiously, "I was exposed so explicitly as I was getting out of the Jacuzzi. Everything just went wild from there. I've never have been embarrassed and humiliated as when I was caught like that. I couldn't move forward, I couldn't get back and I couldn't cover myself - it was awful!"
"I know, and instead of getting up and helping you, I just sat there and laughed!"
"Yes, and that's just what my husband did too. I'm afraid that I would have done the same because the situation was funny - except for me! It was my own fault for I obviously didn't get the crotch piece closed properly.'
"That may be true, but, and I'm embarrassed to admit this, the real reason that I didn't get up and help was that I couldn't take my eyes off of your...your..."
"Pussy?"
"Yes, your pussy. I've never seen one exposed like that and, I'm ashamed to admit, I was fascinated and...this is hard to say...aroused by it. You know that I'm not a lesbian, but it excited me and, from that time on, I...I don't recognize myself or understand the way I acted. Instead of stopping him, I urged Bryan on and he took advantage of you - and I helped him! He...he even screwed you and I helped! How can you ever forgive me?"
"Marianne, you're taking too much blame on yourself! Yes, I was embarrassed by showing my pussy like that and if there had been a hole to hide in, I would have jumped for it. I was also embarrassed by everyone laughing at me and the situation as I sat there on Bryan's knee. However, as you must have seen, I got over that pretty quickly as I sat there struggling with Bryan. You weren't the only one who got excited and did things she shouldn't have done. I'm going to be honest. I knew what was happening and I could have gotten up and left the Jacuzzi, but I didn't. I let things happen - I let my top come down, exposing my breasts, I let Bryan feel me and I didn't stop the things that led to Bryan having me. This may shock you, but, while in my normal mind I never would have let those things happen, I don't regret them - even being screwed!"
Marianne looked at her bug-eyed. "Do you really mean that? What about Jeff?"
Jan looked at her warily, wondering if she had gone too far. Seeing nothing but curiosity and shock, she replied, "I certainly do mean it. I can't believe it either and I've gone over it in my mind a million times since Saturday and I honestly have no regrets. Jeff is not upset or concerned at all. He said that events just flowed from one to another and he saw no reason to intervene. He could have stopped it at any time, but he just didn't. He said that it was very sexy to watch, I obviously was really into it - and you were too - so he just sat back and let things take their course. I think that we were all under some kind of spell."
"I can't believe this. Oh, Jan, I'm so relieved. I've felt so guilty all day yesterday. I'm still bothered, though, by my...well, 'being into it' as Jeff said. Actually, I think that I was really 'out of it' as far as my mind was. Bryan, of course, did the main thing, and I don't blame him for that, but I know that I...well, I touched you and I may have hurt you!"
