Some readers will be familiar with websites on which prisoners can advertise for penpals. Some may even have met a nice pen pal through one of them. I have; two in fact. Both lifers; and both in for murdering their husbands. It's a bit weird, but the fact that they were killers turned me on. I was not looking for a girlfriend though, and I didn't want some ex-con turning up on my doorstep when she got out. One of my lifers used to write me very dirty letters and the other one wanted a more refined tone, so I gave then what they wanted, and each got the kind of correspondence she desired. With the dirty one it was all what we would do to each other if we had the chance, and with the refined one, it was books and life and all that.
It was all very nice and everyone was happy and none of us was doing any harm, but I loved those jail babes so much that I couldn't keep myself from surfing about on those websites until I found Delores. Delores; misery, and that's all she ever brought me; as well as the best fucking sex I ever had.
This was her ad:
Bad girl 34, lovely figure 36D, wants to find her good side, seeks nice generous, financially secure man 35-50 for long term relationship. Are you tough enough to tame me? Been in here a few times, but out again soon and don't want to come back. I was a professional dancer on the outside. I like playing pool, hanging out and having hot fun. Let me light your fire. The accompanying picture showed a rough and tough and beautiful lady, though with those hollowed out soul-less looking eyes and hardness of face that tough lives give to people. It was love at first sight.
I broke all my rules. She would be out in a year. She was incarcerated in a jail quite near where I lived. She had gone down for credit card theft and fraud; crimes of dishonesty. And you could tell just from looking at her, with all of those jailhouse tats down both her arms and round her neck that she was bad to the bone.
I wrote to her straight away, my usual letter of introduction, telling her all about myself, and of course talking myself up.
Actually I am a pretty shy sort of guy; 39, never married and not many girlfriends. Truth is, I'm a bit on the heavy side and not much to look at, and I have zero confidence when it comes to approaching women. I guess that's why I write to these kinds of women. I saw a shrink after the horrors of Delores; I was in such a mess, and he told me I have low self-esteem. He also got me talking about my attraction for these criminal women; why I like them and all that, but I don't want to say too much about that. I felt pretty disgusted with myself, learning about why I liked them. He said that even though they were tough and maybe even dangerous and nine times out of ten untrustworthy women; they were in jail, so it made me feel like I had the power. It's like going to the zoo and looking in the tiger cage and feeling scared, but knowing that they can't get you. Or maybe I should say cougar cage, because usually it's older ladies I go for. My two lifers are both older; 52 and 47. And the one women I ever had a real relationship with was 20 years my senior. So, I broke another rule when I wrote to a lady younger than me.
Anyway, I am sure that the shrink was right about the power thing; but that all changed when Dolores got out and I took up with her. I moved her into my flat and everything, and at first, for a couple of months it was good, but the signs of what were to come were there; it was just that I didn't want to see them, so I edited them out. But in the end, just as I couldn't keep away from those websites, she couldn't stay away from the drugs and the whoring (to get the money for the drugs) and that scumbag of a boyfriend (the one she promised me she had got rid of when she was still inside).
Of course, not even I am so naive as to not realise that 'professional dancer' meant stripper; but that was always what I liked about those women. I never guessed, though, that she was a prostitute too, and although I was a bit shocked at first, it was not long before the idea of that turned me on too. She had never mentioned anything about a drug habit, and I had never thought of it even in my darkest dreams.
So what was she like; the delectable Delores? Exactly what you would expect. You know the expression 'does exactly what it says on the tin?' Well, that was Delores. Trouble is; I didn't read what it said on the tin. Fact is; I didn't need to. I already knew; or guessed; but I just ignored what I knew or guessed. It wasn't that I was in love with her; not really, and she was pretty unlovable. It was irresistible, uncontrollable lust; that was that woman inspired in a man. Most men would have had the good sense to run a mile when they saw Delores coming; or better still pick her up in a bar, fuck the arse off of her and not even tell her their real name. And even if she wanted paying for it, she was well worth the rent money. She was as sexy as Satan, and a lot better looking, in her wrong side of the tracks, trailer trash way. Pick it up, fuck it and dump it quick. That's what women like Delores are for; unless you are as much of a degenerate as she is.
Not a nice to say about another human being, I know, and of course she was not born evil; she had a truly horrific upbringing and her adult life had not been much better, but I am not really the socially concerned type. I didn't think I could reform her or redeem her. I never really thought about that. I think I just wanted to live out a sex fantasy and didn't give much thought to the consequences. Well, that's the lie I told myself anyway. I was lonely. A bit of a loser maybe. One way or another, I brought it on myself, and you know something; there are times when I think it was worth it. I lost almost everything I had thanks to Delores, but the sex...it was fucking fantastic.
She wrote back to me pretty quickly. I got her letter less than three weeks after I wrote mine to her. It was mixture of pop psychology self-help slogans, some vague stuff about herself and a few fairly obvious sexual come-ons. She had also included a photograph of herself, topless at some beach. She had lovely boobs and looking at the picture made me hard.
So far so good. I wrote back, she replied again; more self-help slogans, more vague details of her life, a few questions about me and more sexual come-ons; and another photo, this time with a bit of pussy on show. Sexy, but not pornographic.
And so it went on, until after we had exchanged three or four letters each, and then she asked me if I would visit her. I didn't hesitate. She had told me when the visiting times were and I picked one and told her that I would come then.
The day arrived and I drove over to the jail where she was doing her time. It was about an hour's drive. I was a bit nervous, but I was looking forward to meeting her. I got there, went through all the checks and I was directed, along with all the other visitors, to a large hall. It was full of tables about two metres long and one wide, uniformly aligned. Her crime was pretty low level and she was not considered dangerous (she sould have been), so she was allowed to meet visitors here, rather in some more secure place. There were guards patrolling about to make sure nothing contraband was passed over, but you were allowed to touch, as I discovered.
I got there before she did. She would recognize me, because I had sent her a photograph of hmyself. I sat waiting as the room filled up more and more with inmates and their visitors, and she was one of the last to arrive. She knew well the value of making an entrance. Finally she came. She was easily the most attractive of the female prisoners who emerged and pretty much everyone in the room craned around to get a look at her as she slithered down the aisle between the tables towards me.
My cock leapt at the sight of her, and I swear it, I almost spunked my load in my pants when she looked at me as she was sitting down.
'Hi,' she said in her gravelly, drawling sink estate accent.
She must have spent hours preparing for my visit, and I wondered how she can have managed to get hold of so much make up in there. But Dolores had her ways. She looked like the woman who came first in the annual beauty contest at the local working men's club, in the over-40's category. Gutter glamour; that's what you'd call it. Way more sexy than the average model bimbo, because she was real.