We stayed in bed a very long time Sunday morning. It being a very late night and long day yesterday. The fiesta was such fun, the people wonderful and the music fulfilling.
I asked Jessica if she wanted to get up and hit the beach.
Her one-word reply.
"Nope"
She then proceeded to snuggle in with me very closely.
Stupid me, I pushed and spoke.
"Well, what would you like to do today?"
Jessica got just a bit whiney.
"Well, what's wrong with this?"
I realized my mistake and quickly answered.
"Not a thing Darling. Not a thing."
I then proceeded to pull her closer. Jessica is happy again. I have been thinking about this. The way that Jessica and I have been and are now. We are physically close. Almost always we seem to be touching, caressing, and holding. The need to be near one another. Yes, I would call it a need. I haven't ever touched or been with a woman in my entire life like this.
It's much like our music. We have developed a feel for each other. With music, there comes an intimacy. You learn what to expect from others. Jessica and I have that in music. Now our personal lives have it. I also believe it will grow and become stronger. And you know what else? I'm becoming greedy for it with her.
We stayed in bed for a very long time. Sometimes talking. Other times not a word. We did get up to eat something. I wasn't too hungry due to last night's fiesta food. A soft drink of some kind. I'm not sure what it is. A local brand and tasty at that.
I have the strong feeling that Jessica doesn't want to leave the beach house unless absolutely needed. I remember her saying. "I want you all to myself." I admit that I think she is right about this for us. We will be back soon enough, and things will go back to normal for us. I really don't want it to go back to that. Yes, we will go to work and all that. But something needs to change. Not sure what. I'm going to have to give it some thought.
Lunch is done. Jessica and I are still standing in the kitchen. As though we don't know what to do.
I speak.
"Come here please."
She does and I scoop her up in my arms.
She speaks.
"Where are we going?"
I speak.
"Back to bed. What's wrong with that?"
Jessica giggles. And we just lay in bed. As before, we spoke or didn't. It didn't matter. A good portion of the afternoon was spent this way. Once evening arrived, we ate some dinner. Then, as sunset approached, we went to the beach. We got wet, dried off and sat together to watch as it became night. Each night we do this, it is the same. Jessica sits between my legs and leans against my chest. I foresee this as becoming a habit for us. And I don't force her to do this. It is the place she chooses. In turn, I made her want there. Safe there. The night is starry and warm.
I begin to speak.
"Jessica?"
But she interrupts and speaks.
"Yes, I want you too. Let's go in."
How did she know? We shower outside first, then go inside. I must tell you we had one of the most gentle and intimate times I have ever known.
Monday was more a return to established habits. If you can call what we did last week a habit. Jessica and I walked along the beach. As before, we collected a few interesting items. Remembrances for later days. Today she is quieter and seems more introspective. Here, yet far off in her mind. My inclination is to ask. I choose not to. It will be part of the mystery.
There are things I have yet to learn from her. But all through this, Jessica's hand remains in mine. Occasionally, we stop. From time to time, I want a kiss from her or her from me. They are not mindless kisses. They carry thirst and passion. Passion for the other. No words are spoken, yet the meaning is clear for us both.
The walk then continues. I find that I watch her more now. I did before and it has changed. I seek her eyes to try and discern what she thinks or feels. I seek the curve of her face and try to interpret the faint smile she seems to wear more often.
She looks up and miles away. The smile becomes broader then and her eyes seem on the verge of a tear. As see this, my heart wells up inside me and it races. Jessica is happy yet is in tears. I don't understand. But I wish too. She hums or sings off and on. It is a song I don't recognize. I have heard her sing many times. But this song. It is different somehow. Yet more to the mystery.
We returned for lunch and some shade. Her naked body prepares food. It is my task to open the wine.
She speaks.
"Take the wine to the sofa."
I do and soon she follows with one large plate of edibles. She takes her place in my lap. We feed each other. Soon the food is gone and the wine as well. Lightly, I take her chin in my hand.
I speak.
"Nap?"
"Yes!" Jessica answers.
The bed awaits and she spoons against me and within my arms. Our breathing slows until we both slumber together. There is no alarm clock. There is nothing but the wind, the waves, and our breath. Though I sleep, Jessica remains in my thoughts. Her image of today or last month. The day I first saw her. Her form and her ways have taken root in me. She is a part of me now. A part I can no longer be without.
The sun is headed to the horizon when I wake. Jessica sleeps. I watched her for the longest time. Then, she wakes up. Will we go out to observe the end of the day? Or will we celebrate it here? Jessica would like to stay in. We make a little feast from what's left in the refrigerator. Shopping will have to be done once more before we leave.
Before we leave, what a sad thought. We both stand in the kitchen and wash dishes. We must as we let them pile up. Jessica sways back and forth. Periodically, her hip manages to hit mine.
I speak.