I have lusted after him for as long as I can remember. The first time I saw him was the day we moved into town- he was sweaty and tired and out of breath, returning from a game with his buddies, his shirt soaking wet, sticking to his body. He was into soccer. I was into him. He was a swarthy, big guy with a shy smile. We went to the same college.
My heart beat fast every single time he walked past me. I could smell him. I could feel his rough hands on me hundreds of nights as I lay fantasizing about his gorgeous mouth devouring my cunt, sucking my nipples, biting my lips. But in reality, we exchanged hardly more than a word or two. We were both never too popular in school, he kept to himself and I was a bookworm.
And then, he entered the big league, left town and I only read about him in celebrity columns. He was never in news for anything but his passion for the game and a couple of steady girlfriends. I couldn't help but notice how all women around him were...well boobilicious. I was sure he'd approve of the way I had filled up, I dreamed up scenarios - what would happen if we met, could I finally get him, when the news broke - he got married to this chic - the kind of skinny bitch I had hated all my life. And now I get to meet him, when he is taken. Life's not fair.
I ended up in a PR firm that is handling his account and I counted days when we would come face to face and he would see what I have become. I am not drop dead gorgeous or anything, but I do have a way with men. I have a kind of vulnerability to me I have been told, I have a mane of dark hair, a full mouth and a generous ass. I have always been voluptuous, down where I come from, they like a little meat on the bone. And I am hoping he does too. I am hoping more fervently today, because we are going to be alone, at last.
We met a couple of months ago at a party where I was introduced as a part of the team handling his account. At first I thought he did not recognize me, but then the string of messages started, that turned into phone calls, and then we started to chat a lot. He told me he missed home. He missed his friends and the simple life. I listened to him wondering all the time about the wife. I knew she was around because he would abruptly disconnect but I did not want anything to pause this real live fantasy that I was in the midst of. I listened to him attentively, but I gazed often at his body, his hands, his lips, the creases around his eyes, and I would go wet, soaking wet.
And then I started to notice. It wasn't just me. He took every opportunity to sidle up next to me at dinners, after hours parties, in the low lit lounges when he would let his hand just lie on my lap, his fingers tracing my shoulders, his breath hot on my neck, his fingertips grazing my nipple that one time we were in the back of a car and he had reached out to close the door. I lived for these fleeting moments for months.
And finally, he asked me out. To a secluded beach house with a private pool, while on break between games. He never said much, just that if I liked the idea of a weekend out at the beach, he would pick me up. I said I would love it. We were still both of us very polite, civilized, good people who were just enjoying each others friendship-even when I screamed out his name in the pillow every time I came thinking about him ramming into me fifteen years in a row.
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And now here we are. I am in the bathroom of the only bedroom in the house. He is at the terrace. I come out wearing a sheer see- through dress over my sea green bikini. I stumble a bit walking towards him, conscious of how I look.
His face is inscrutable, but I know what he is looking at. I have met few men who could resist the sight of my breasts - a size 38- d cup. So conscious was I of how I looked that I always wore a size smaller making them spill over- like today. I am sure he could see them perfectly under the sheer material.
I stood next to him without a word, looking out. My heart thumping loudly in my chest. I had no idea what was holding us back.