Driving home that night, I was filled with mixed emotions. I wasn't the cheating kind, or at least I never thought of myself in that way, but I couldn't deny what had happened. It had been months since I'd felt the excitement that Darla had provided in those few minutes, and even longer since I'd had such an amazing blowjob.
Pulling up to my house, I knew I needed to come clean and tell my wife everything, but I didn't know how I was going to do it. Would she be mad? Would she leave me?
As I walked in to find her watching TV, I started second guessing myself. She didn't even seem to have missed me, and barely acknowledged I was home.
I walked over and gave her a kiss, telling her I loved her and that I was going to get a shower. I wasn't sure how I was going to bring up what had happened, but as the warm water washed over me, I resolved to really open up and just deal with the fallout as it came.
"I need to tell you something," I said, sitting down next to her on the couch.
"Ok." She barely looked away from the TV.
"When I was over at Darla's house tonight, something happened."
She finally looked over at me, indifference showing more than hurt in her eyes. I told her everything, from the way I'd been feeling over the prior months to how things had escalated over time with Darla. I thought she'd yell, cry or storm out, but instead she just sat there, her eyes softening as I spoke.
"I assumed you'd been having sex with her for months," she said when I finished.
"No. Nothing happened before tonight. I didn't really see her as any more than a friend, and I'll stop going over there if you want me to."
"It doesn't really bother me. I just thought if you wanted to leave me for her you would. I know things haven't been great in a while, and I was surprised you kept coming back."
The next several hours were spent talking about our relationship, where it had gone off track and how we felt. We both cried a lot and by the end of it we'd decided that our relationship was worth working on and promised to work through the issues we'd been having.
She admitted she hadn't really felt attractive after the kids were born, and I was guilty of not showing her enough affection. We realized about halfway through the conversation that our communication had died at some point, and we decided to start by fixing that.
The conversation wrapped up just as the sun was starting to peek through the window, and we soon found ourselves wrapped in each other's arms, a spark of passion reignited as we made love and passed out on the couch.
The next several months found us in unfamiliar territory.
She'd told me that she'd never been jealous of Darla, and that she didn't mind if I continued the friendship, even if things became physical again. It was weird to be talking so openly, but it was also refreshing and just the thought of Darla and I possibly having sex at some point seemed to really turn her on.