How long must you wait for it? I did not know the answer but the question pounded my thoughts until that was all that lingered in my mind that night. It was one of those times in my life where I tore off the cloths of guilt, shedding them behind me as I ran into the darken streets releasing the scream held in my lungs all too long. I was no longer just in my place, spinning in a world of chaotic emotions and too lost to find my way out. I had a mission.
Erratic was the weather too warm to be believable yet the leaves spoke of autumn as they tumbled down the branches. Steam curled out of the open grates misted the air and leaving a scent of wet cement. He, he was beauty wrapped in a cloak of friendship that I tore into each night in my dreams. I wanted rapture. I wanted him.
The welcomed darkness fell and the music over-flowed out of open windows from the buildings I passed by. Bombarded, my senses were alive with the city. Please, please, do not hesitate, it is now the time that I had waited for so long. Flickering street lamps dotted the way and a warm smile spread on my lips as nervousness dripped off of me leaving a trail behind.
Someone was playing the piano that night as the door opened and the feathers masked ones turned to devour me with their eyes. Laughter came and left with the melody and he was there standing in the distance with the sparkling women pirouetting around him. Martinis wobbled on their long stemmed bases on trays that floated by and I slipped one between my fingers. Sipping casually leaving lipstick traces around the rim I snaked through the joyous crowds that had don on their festive costumes. The kerchief I had chosen had been perfectly nestled in his lapel pocket. He was amorously sampling kisses from the woman next to him. Dressed as a peacock she cooed as he whispered promises in her ears. Her slender fingers traced her skin from her jaw line down to her collar bone and clutched onto the trim of her sequined top. She had resisted under his hands as they started the game. The game was of what lovers played in anticipation. Had I waited to long?