To Live and to Learn-Part 1
Lily Comes Out of Her Shell
Josh...
The first time I saw Lily it was love at first sight. As she stood at a party talking to someone at a friend's house, she was a vision of blond hair, blue eyes and a petite, slim figure. As the evening progressed, I managed to talk to this vision of beauty where we managed to hit it off.
I asked her out on a date for the following weekend, which she accepted and thus began our whirlwind romance. As we got to know each other we learned that we were raised in very different ways; she in a very conservative religious family and me in a liberal non-religious family. At first, I thought this disparity would drive us apart, but, for the most part, we worked around it and became closer.
After several dates I tried to move our relationship along in a more sexual way, but she informed me that she was saving herself for marriage and would allow no intimacy until that time. Being the horny guy that I was, this news was not welcomed, but I loved Lily enough to accept her restrictions and refrained from any sexual contact until such time as we got married.
Eight months after we met Liliane Elizabeth Anderson consented to marry me, Joshua William Holgate. Our wedding night was more traumatic than romantic because our initial copulation was quite painful for her. We only coupled the one time that night and I was required to wear a condom.
As the weeks progressed, our sex life didn't. I would manage to talk Lily into sex about once every two weeks and it was always with the lights out, with her in her flannel nightgown and in the missionary position...I was very frustrated! We've been married for five months now and I loved my wife very much and decided I needed some advice to break down some of Lily's barriers.
I knew I couldn't just talk to anyone about what was happening, so I needed to talk to someone who was discreet, wise and who cared for me...us. That led me to my older sister, Jan. Jan was two years older than I was, but we had always been very close and she was a clinical psychiatrist with a large profitable practice. We didn't get together as often as we would like despite living in the same city, though we did talk on the phone a lot.
I decided I needed to talk to Jan about the issues Lily and I were having so I called her, she was understanding and listened attentively. When I had finished, Jan said, "Well, Josh, I think you'll have your work cut out for you. Lily has had a lifetime of admonitions on the evils of sex and it will take all of your patience to break through those barriers. So, are you in for the long haul or do you want instant gratification?"
I laughed and said, "Of course I want instant gratification, but I know that isn't happening, so what do you prescribe for the long haul?"
"Good for you. Something you might try would be to have her eat a THC gummy, with a low level of THC to relax her, and then introduce her to some homemade porn that features regular people having sex. Now, be careful not to show her stuff that is way out there like double penetrations and stuff like that. Limit her to scenes with oral sex performed on both sexes and coitus in various positions other than missionary.
"As the weeks progress, you can up the strength of the THC while showing her progressively more, shall we say, advanced forms of sex until she attains the level of acceptance that you want. You know you can call me anytime with questions."
She went on to share several sites that had the level of porn that she was talking about, so when we hung up, I checked a few out and chose the first ones I wanted Lily to view. I stopped at our local dispensary and spoke with the person behind the counter about what I needed and she very kindly set me up with a number of gummies in various strengths.
So, this Saturday was going to be the beginning of my attempt to loosen my wife up sexually. I have to confess that I was excited but wary as well. I was hoping that what I was about to try wouldn't damage our relationship beyond repair.
Lily...
Having been married for several months now to my husband, Josh, I could tell that he wasn't too happy about our sex life. I really wanted to be more, I don't know, sexy, but years of religious upbringing of how sex was evil, unless it was for procreation, made it hard for me to be what Josh wanted.
However, one Friday evening after supper, Josh sat me down and said, "Lily, I love you beyond anything I can imagine, but (a big sigh) our sex life has a lot to be desired. I know we've talked about how you were raised and how that inhibits you, but I think I may have found a way to get us both on the same page sexually.
"I spoke with my sister Jan, the psychiatrist, and she recommended that you try eating a gummy with a low level of THC, the ingredient in marijuana that makes people high, and watch some videos of others having sex. She thinks that the THC will relax you and help you get past some of your inhibitions and watching other regular people have sex in various ways may help. So, Lil, do you think this is something you can do for us?"
My first impulse was to say no, but I really liked Jan and knew she would never suggest anything that was harmful. As I thought about it, I realized that I had been wanting to get over my reservations and be more of the wife that Josh wanted, so I smiled at him and said, "Yeah, I'd like to try. All I ask is that you be patient with me."
"Of course, I'll be patient. Now this gummy has 2.5mg of THC in it. It's not very strong but it should give you a sense of euphoria and relax you."
I ate the gummy and decided that it didn't taste too bad, just kind of like a dirty strawberry. Josh told me that it would take nearly an hour for me to feel any effects, so we sat in the living room and talked. Finally, Josh said something that made me giggle and I couldn't stop for quite a while. At the same time, I was feeling really good.
When I commented about feeling good, Josh smiled and said, "It sounds as though the gummy has taken effect. So, why don't we get naked and then I'll play a video for us. Okay?"
