She was looking into her own eyes. Those big brown eyes. Looking into her own soul, possibly, and of all the things she could be thinking about, her school, her job, her fiancรฉe, the only thing on her mind at this time was the warm hand beginning to wrap around her waist.
Normally she would have pushed it aside, but the person who was trying to hold her closer was someone she had dealt with in the past. Their past was clouded with confusion, hurt feelings, beautiful moments, and the unfinished business that would never be quite resolved, and the "what ifs" that fate would hopefully let them try.
She wondered what her fiancรฉe would say about the situation she was letting herself into? Her fiancรฉe would probably want to know why she would risk their union over this man. Knowing her fiancรฉe's obvious reaction she could only feel a slight guilt by this. She knew why though, this man had made her life more interesting at times, and was same man that had guided her through rough times. In a way, it was almost logical for them to return to each other even for a moment. His hand was around her waist, slightly touching her backside. She allowed it. His touch felt soothing, comforting, as if it belonged there, belonged to her. Looking into the mirror, she looked at him. How cute they looked together, and yet every time he had tried to make it work, something had always fallen apart. Yet here he was again, in the same situation that always got him into trouble.
She looked at him and smiled. His other hand was rounding her stomach moving upward. He slowed his pace to think about his extremely engaging actions. He too had someone who waited for him back home. Was he cheating? What was the definition of cheating, but he knew. To him once your heart was promised to another the thought of you in someone else's arms was cheating. The Desire no matter how small was cheating.
He looked into her eyes. To him, she was beautiful, and at one point she had been in his possession, but that was the all in the past. He loved this girl, even though sometimes he wasn't sure whether it was his heart or the chemistry between them, the raw energy always drew them together. He could never understand why he would risk the trouble, both having significant others to go too, but she wanted him the same way he wanted her and in their minds they even argued that they had needs only the other could fill.
He loved the feel of her body, her soft smell, the taste of her skin. His conscience had begun to nag him, but his thirst for her was stronger. His craving to feel her body again was an overwhelming desire that flooded his entire being. Again his past came back, he had left her because of his young immaturity at one time, and another time he had left her in fear that the relationship would backfire on him. Yet if maybe, just maybe if would have worked at it, it could have been a good relationship, but now in the present, here he was holding her, wanting to feel her next to his skin.
His hand was nearing her breasts now, but she moved her hand to intercept. Through the mirror she looked into his eyes. She held his hand and slowly passed it over her breasts. She wanted to feel some control in this uncontrollable situation. His hands now remembering, what it was like to feel these warm mounds that every man yearned to touch.
She closed her eyes; her breasts remembering how good it had been to have his hands caress her body, how good his touch had been that time long ago. Indeed intimate relations had been shared once a upon a time, but that was a time long past. They had shared the passion for each other, they had connected, bonded in a way that would change the way they felt about each other, making their equation of Love Vs. Lust all the more unstable, and at the time they had promised themselves to others as well.
He pulled her tighter as if it hurt not to have close; he planted small kisses on her neck. She sighed softly, enjoying the soft wetness of his lips. His hands now roaming her body, searching, wandering. The scene was set. Both had the opportunity, the desire, and the need to push the limits.
She picked up a brush from the dresser as if nothing was going on with her body. Indeed she was feeling the tingle and moisture building in her loins. She couldn't push the feelings away, but she could try to ignore them. She moved her head slightly to give herself some room. Her straight brown hair was soft, untangled, so the brush glided smoothly through. He too was almost hoping that his conscience would tell him it was wrong, tell him it was unfair to break the trust of the loved one he had left behind waiting for him, and yet wasn't it unfair to deny his own heart, her own needs.
She continued to brush her hair when she felt something to make her whole body come alive. He, on the other hand, had not noticed what he had done to awaken such sensations in her body. She had already started going through the motions. Her breathing labored, her eyes closed, and her hips in gentle sway, and neither of them had heard the brush drop to the floor. As if he had awakened from a dream with no sense of feeling, the sensation of heat and moisture around his index fingers had totally and thoroughly surprised him. Another feeling was the pressure of her hand strongly pushing against his.
She uttered a word so quietly that he should not have heard it, but it was as if his ears had heightened in their abilities to hear, and as if they had been waiting for it. She said "More." Already was the train in motion, but they still had time before they passed the point of no return. He turned her around, neither one of them exchanging words, yet their eyes seemed to be doing all the talking. "Should we? We can't, can we? What about your man? What about your girl?" Then it all stopped. No sound except for the air blowing from the near by air conditioner.
The distance between them diminished bit by bit. Their lips answered all and their doubts ceased to exist. Without a second thought, without a moment's whisper, they sealed their sin with a kiss. Fluids swirling, memories were being revived, past becoming present, and two tongues getting reacquainted.
This kiss was nearly full of raw lust, but yet in there somewhere was that little bit of real love. Slowly their bodies started to drop in altitude. His kisses dropped to her neck. Gentle sucking down her neck going lower and lower, nearly reaching the cleavage line of her large breasts. Yes indeed this moment was bittersweet.
Keeping his eyes always in her, creating a stream of silent communication streaming back and forth. His conscience yet again nagged at him. Was following his primal urges the right thing to do? Was trying to relive an unfinished love so wrong? Yet he did not hesitate to lean her back on those soft sheets covering the bed.
Crossing her arms she lifted her snug V-shirt exposing her constrained breasts, which had been straining to get out of the confinement of the cute soft nylon bra. Beautiful, simply beautiful they were; rounded and lightly tanned, big and dark nipples hiding beneath that her bra, giving a glimpse of the prize, but still not close enough to touch. They begged to be freed from their imprisonment, and yes he was holding all the keys.