SILENCER
It is so warm in my hands; but because it is so firmly attached and only free at the end I am holding it has a life of its own. It springs away from me when I release it, but it likes me to hold it. If I hold it in certain places I can feel his pulse. It has a gentle bend to its length; the surface is so soft to touch but the surface is also deeply veined. When I am not holding it, it gently bobs up and down to his heartbeat. I want to watch it but I cannot stop and wait; I must. It needs me to....
I look at its head, why do I think it is such a wonderful colour, the texture on its surface, the outlet hole in the end the gentle curve around the back of the head and it's so warm to my touch. My pleasure in my hands and in my mouth; it so natural to just put my lips to it, warm and whole in my mouth. My tongue can trace the delicate shape and paths round the head, the different textures the crevices the tight filament that runs from the hole to the shaft. If I let my tongue follow that filament I know it will find where it really wants me to go, to probe, to flick and lick. I can feel the response in my hand it likes me to go there, to flick and lick. But it must wait for just a moment; my tongue retraces the path up that tight filament back to the hole. What do we have here? A little puddle of warm clear liquid, it really wants me, doesn't it? My tongue collects the little pool; I taste - it sweet and viscous. I run my hand from the bottom of the shaft to the top to squeeze out any more liquid. I am rewarded by a sudden waterfall of colourless warm juice to lick from the end. I can tell that it likes my tongue licking the end, it stiffens in my hand. I wouldn't think it could stiffen much more but it does.
The head is glistening from my attention. It shines in the pale light in the room; but I must go on, it needs me too. I don't want to stop. It needs my attention, my close, urgent attention. I want to give it my closest attention and my heart beats faster, I too am getting wet in faraway places that will be dealt with soon but my attention is here now to the matter very much in hand and in my mouth, eerrmm.
My lips surround the head and I push the head in and out of my lips. It is so soft so warm. It feels in love.