If you'd asked anyone in our small town what I was likely to become in life I'm sure they would have told you, "Oh, Susan's a quiet girl; she'll make someone a good wife and probably take over as church secretary after her mother retires." And before the events that changed my life occurred I don't know that I would have said anything different. But even then I was aware of a restlessness within myself that seemed to grow with every passing day, a hunger for something that couldn't be found within Grenville, Arkansas. Part of it, I knew, came from the natural changes in my body as I entered adulthood which fostered an intense curiousity about sex. I hadn't been a virgin for quite some time. And my boyfriend at that time, Bobby, and I got together as often as we could to explore the possibilities. Yet, although I enjoyed our sessions very much, a persistant inner voice whispered that there was more. But how or where to find it I had no idea.
And then one June afternoon I was walking on the blacktop road between my house and my friend Patricia's. We lived about a mile apart in a wooded rockstrewn area just outside of Grenville. Behind me, in the distance, I heard the throbbing rumble of a big Harley approaching. I was involved in my own thoughts and didn't pay much attention. A few moments later it roared past me and I caught a glimpse of a large, heavily bearded, man in a leather jacket and cap. He noticed me too. About a quarter of a mile down the road he slowed and swept around in a half circle and headed back towards me, moving slower this time. I could see that his eyes were fixed on my chest so intently that I almost felt that he could see right through my plain white t-shirt. Seconds later I heard him sweep around once more and come up behind me. Now it was the shape and movement of my behind through my jeans that earned his scrutiny. He came up slowly until he was moving beside me. I kept walking, eyes straight ahead. Although there was a real edge of fear there was also a powerful stirring of excitement.
"Lookin' good, Baby," he yelled over the noise. I didn't dare look at him. "You ever ride a bike like mine?"
I shook my head.
"You wanna go for a ride?"
I felt myself flushing. After several long moments I shook my head again. I was quite certain that his motorcycle wasn't the only thing I was being asked to ride. He kept moving beside me, revving the engine now and then. I had the feeling he knew that he had me going. I could feel my legs turning to water, trembling, and my crotch swelling with heated arousal.
He pulled ahead of me and stopped about ten feet away. As I approached he said, "Get on, Baby."
I started to walk past.
"Come on Honey, I won't hurt you. I promise."
I stopped and stared at the ground, shaking. I was excited but frightened too. He was a big man and seemed beyond my control. Dangerous. But my inner voice was telling me that just maybe this was how I could find what I'd been missing. Still looking at the ground, not daring to meet his eyes, I turned and walked to the motorcycle. He scooted up a little on the seat and I put my leg over, bracing myself with one hand on the side of his large body. Sitting down I was acutely aware that my legs were spread open. My purse was hanging from my right shoulder; I caught it and placed it between my stomach and his back.
"Hang on Baby," he said. Seconds later we were roaring down the road, the wind catching my hair. I could feel the seam of my jeans digging into my crotch as the vibration of the big machine stirred my desire.
To maintain my balance I pressed my hands against the sides of his body. I'd noticed that he had a sizable belly so it surprised me to find that he actually felt solid and muscular. We were passing Patricia's house and I wondered if she was watching; I turned my head to look but all the windows I saw were empty.
About thirty minutes later he veered off the blacktop onto a gravel lane with heavy woods on either side. It was my impression that he knew where he was going. In a minute the woods opened up on the left hand side and I was looking at a small pond surrounded by a grassy area. On the far side of the pond was a small barnlike building. He stopped the motorcycle and pushed the kickstand down with the heel of his heavy boot.
"Time to get off," he said. A couple of seconds later he chuckled. "Are you ready to Get Off! Baby?"