Despite her very petite physique, May was quite a calibre. A bargirl from the Midnight Bar in Bangkok's Soi Cowboy, young in years, 22 according to her own information, but after a short time in this business she was already well versed and quite a challenge for an aging sinner like me, but Bangkok is always and everywhere like that anyway. Nevertheless, May was also playful and occasionally really friendly and what was most important: she loved sex, a long hard fuck and everything you could think of, she knew no shame. She was bi and her heart was probably more into relationships with girls of the same age than with much older men, but one doesn't exclude the other and we all have to make ends meet somehow, and so May had become one of my "regulars" and I met her once or twice a week.
This time I had decided to take May to Pattaya, the epicentre of sinful nightlife in Thailand. The prospect of a weekend trip to this nearby seaside resort had her agreeing immediately and she turned up on time (!) and in high spirits at the agreed meeting point to join me for the three-hour drive. Once we arrived, we settled in, had a little banter in the room, got ready to go ashore and went for dinner in a nice restaurant on the waterfront and then it was already time for the nightlife. I knew pretty much all the bars there and headed first for the Angel Witch, a branch of the bar of the same name in Bangkok, which stands for a certain quality in all respects and has a show program that is actually worth seeing.
The bar was surprisingly large with a huge, almost two-storey stage and many rows of seats around it. The show was already in full swing and when Pon, a girl I knew, performed an act as a sexy musician. She moved lasciviously to suitable music as a supposed violinist, occasionally moving the bow up and down between her legs rather than across the strings. I noticed that May was looking at her with that certain look that I had noticed in her before. She obviously liked Pon a lot and her stink eyes were unmistakable. So I called Pon over to our table, we had a few drinks together and I enjoyed how May and Pon slowly got closer, because the working girls in Thailand like to get close to each other and I always found that really touching and inspiring. I don't know if that has anything to do with the local and foreign men there. I enjoyed having a girl sitting next to me on my left and right and let my hands accompany and support their slow approach, which they gladly allowed. I was already thinking of a nice night with two pretty little things in my room, but it didn't turn out that way, because soon Mamasan, the manager of the bar and the girls, came to our table and demanded that I should now "barfine" Pon, i.e. pay her fee for the night. However, it was far too early for this step, as my evenings in Pattaya consisted mostly of visits to bars, clubs and discos, and not of an early, quick number in the room. So, for better or worse, we had to say goodbye to Pon and May's regret was only too obvious.
As a consolation, I let May decide where the evening should take us. So we visited a few bars she knew, had fun, kept talking about which were the prettiest and hottest girls in each bar and the atmosphere was great. Then our route took us past the street where the gay bars are. Gay bar here doesn't mean that the gays meet there, but they are more or less exactly the same gogo bars as the girls' bars, with a stage, gogo show and young performers who you can ask to sit at your table and/or take straight to your room - only with pretty boys instead of girls and therefore for the gay audience. I wasn't familiar with this scene, but May suddenly felt like having a closer look and so we went to the first best gay bar on this street.
Inside, everything was as we knew it: dim lighting, a bar with lots of waiters scurrying around, a stage on which some performers moved more tiredly than skilfully, moderately busy tables in front of the stage. Everything was very familiar and yet so completely different due to the complete absence of girls. We caused a bit of a stir as a mixed couple, but quickly sat down at a table and no one seemed to mind us.
But I soon realized that not only was the situation different from what I was used to, no, May had also changed, she was constantly giggling and looking around embarrassed. This environment was obviously an unfamiliar challenge for her. She was used to being scantily clad in her bar and moving around confidently among many not very well behaving men, but being in a bar with young, handsome Thai boys looking at her was obviously new to her - she was completely insecure. I noticed this and really enjoyed it, because her moody, often assertive nature could be quite annoying. But here she was a small, shy girl who kept avoiding the boys' curious glances. I decided to savour this state further and challenge her and asked her if we should bring one of the boys to our table, as they do in gogo bars. She said no in horror, but I had already noticed that there was a particularly good-looking guy on stage who she kept looking at inconspicuously. I ordered him to our table with a small gesture and he promptly joined us.
"Hello, how are you? My name Nat." he said with a broad smile, shook my hand and wanted to sit next to me. But I made him understand that he should sit between May and me, which didn't seem to bother or unsettle him. May, however, sank further and further into her giggling insecurity and it was pure joy to see her like this for once. We talked for a while about nothing and soon Nat asked May something in Thai that I didn't understand, and it seemed to me that he was trying to clarify our relationship status. There was no easy answer as May was not my steady girlfriend, nor was she just the company for the evening and so it took a while before Nat seemed satisfied and he turned back to me to make his usual request: "I go with you!". This was the phrase I heard dozens of times a day from girls in Bangkok's bars and clubs, but coming from a young man - he must be in his 20s - it was new. So he wanted me to take him to my room to have sex with him and then hand him a few thousand baht, about €50-100, in return.
I just smiled amusedly, pointed at May and said: "She love me, she want go with me!" whereupon he shook his head, approached me and whispered conspiratorially: "She lady, she not like fuck ass!", which he obviously thought was a good selling point, not knowing that I wasn't particularly interested in anal sex in general. May, however, had apparently overheard and understood our little sales pitch and looked at me in horror, because I had never expressed any gay or bi interest to her and she no longer knew what to make of it all. Nat, however, seemed to fear that a fish was getting off his line and he followed up with another offer: "You want I fuck your ass?" he asked, once again trying to show May an undeniable advantage. I just shook my head with a laugh and asked him, pointing provocatively at May: "You can fuck her ass!", which of course immediately led to great indignation from her, but to a reaction from him that surprised me: "Sure, can do!" he replied, nodding enthusiastically. "Really," I asked, "You like fuck lady?" "Sure, I like!" he replied with a grin, and I understood once again what I had heard before, that many of the boys in the gay bars are not really gay at all and just earn their money with this masquerade. I laughed, leaned over to May and said to her in a heavy voice: "He wants to fuck you, not me!" and expected a further indignant reaction from her, but things turned out differently. In response to my casual remark, May kept looking back and forth between me and Nat and I could see that she didn't really dislike the idea.
