During thirteen years of matrimony, Ingrid and I produced two wonderful children and never seemed to be able to climb out of debt. We could not divorce if we wanted to and my God, we often wanted to. The house we share, a Craftsman bungalow on the northern edge of Marston Hill, has witnessed the steady dissolution of our marriage, the breaking of our bonds, the loud arguments, and silence sharp as a stiletto, as oppressive as a boulder resting on the back of a Carpenter ant.
Sleeping in separate bedrooms and silently cursing our enforced familiarity, this house is an escape proof prison no less secure then the cellblock at Alcatraz during its much-heralded prime time.
We swallow our misery, trudge on, hoping the other one falters, falls and in miss-stepping gets the bullet or the bayonet. I day dreamed of Ingrid and me traipsing through the jungle dressed in torn and tattered uniforms with Japanese troops all around us. Ingrid falls and before her lithe body hits the jungle floor, a guard shoots her in the head or thrusts his bayonet between her ribs. In another dream, Ingrid and I are in the cabin suspended beneath the Goodyear blimp. I open the cabin door, push her out and then watch her fall through the empty air. My grin widens and my burdens fall away as I watch her arms and legs kicking, as she gets smaller and smaller and becomes a dot not a woman.
The mortgage, the credit cards, the car payments binds us as effectively as Georgia road gang shackles or the handcuffs of a dominatrix.
Generally, we get along with little difficulty. Working the graveyard shift at the Peppermill Trucking Company allows us to live in my own way. Occasionally we even have sex. It is sex in the missionary position with little emotional or physical piquancy.
My sex life revolves around porn and adult personals web sites. I sit at my computer looking at the web camera images of women giving head and taking it in the ass. I chat with women in the most graphic of terms and several times met them for the kind of sex no longer delivered or received by Ingrid. My wife had no knowledge of my activities.
I did not know she had her own activities. Once a month I make some extra cash by driving a rig from here to somewhere else. On these weekends, Ingrid often spends time with her friend Holly. They eat lunch, shop, visit the antique mall that type of thing.
One morning after coming home from work, I entered the house and saw her dressing for work in a short, tight black skirt, typical attire for her. Bending over I got a clear view of her lacy black panties and her firm ass. In the early days of our marriage, her bending over in such a manner was a signal that she needed fucking. I complied by lifting the skirt and sliding my cock in around her panties.
In recent months, she worked out three times a week, paid careful attention to the application of her make-up, the dousing of her body with
Red
perfume, and seemed at peace with herself.
Say that I am dense but I did not connect her new vibrancy to any speculations on her cheating on me.