I woke up in a strange bed. But this was nothing new for me. I'm a trucker, and I'm used to sleeping in strange places like cheap truck stops motels or in my sleeper berth. Now I was laying here trying to figure out where I was. Then it hit me like a hard punch in the gut.
I knew where I was and what I had done. I had slept with my best friend's wife last night and I was still in her bed. I thought to myself:
"Boy, did I ever fuck up big time last night. I just can't keep my dick in my pants."
I was so disgusted with myself. I couldn't believe it, but I did it. I fucked her. I've wanted her for so long.
I knew she wanted me too. We couldn't help ourselves. She was so ready, for me. She felt like she was made for me. Oh how wonderful it felt as my pole slid in her warm wet hole. I never wanted to take it out of her. I felt so good in her. I know she liked it, because she came like it was the first time; she was ever made love too.
I was saying to myself, stop thinking like that. What I did, was wrong. She's not just some tramp I picked in a bar. She's special and my best friend's wife; my mind was running wild. I knew I should have been stronger, and keep my passion for her under control but I couldn't control myself with her; I've wanted her for so long.
My thoughts kept going back to her and how she must feel? I kept thinking she must feel dirty and used like some truck stop whore, or a street corner hooker.
I was saying to myself, Oh Annie, Annie, Annie, how could I have, taken advantage of you? I know I shouldn't have, but I did I just couldn't help myself.
Now I started thinking about Charlie. We were best friend since grammar school, and I betrayed him. I had sex with his wife and ruined our friendship.
My thoughts raced to my wife, OH SHIT, OH SHIT, OH SHIT I thought this going to hurt her so bad. What will make this even worse is that my wife and Annie are friends. When my wife finds out I took advantage of her friend! She will go bug shit and throw me out.
Who would blame her?
When my boys find out what I did they will lose all respect for me, and think, their Father is nothing more then a cheat and a scum bag. They won't understand how I feel about this other woman. How could they? That woman is not their Mother.
I was making myself sick. I wanted to throw up, I wanted to die. I wished I could go back, and change what I did. But I couldn't change it.
What was done was done There was no undoing this. What I did to her, and to them. I can't set this right, no matter how hard I try, or what I do.
Annie came into the room. Her hair was pulled back in a pony tail. She looked so sweet and innocent. She had on the same house coat, she wearing last night; now it was tied around her waist.
I could make out the shape of her perky little breasts, her narrow waist, and the curve of her hips. I thought to myself what the hell is wrong with me? I took advantage of her and soiled her. I took the gift from her that she should only give, to the man she loves.
She was carrying a cup of coffee and a note. My words rushed out of my mouth.
"Annie Please, please," I pleaded, "let me explain, it wasn't your fault, it was all my fault. I'm the one to blame, I'm so sorry about what.... I did to you last night. I shouldn't have...."
She put her finger on my lips to stop me.
She said, "Have your coffee and read this. Charlie left you a letter and I read it too because it was really for both of us."
I wasn't listening to her. I was still too busy making myself sick.
I asked her, "Where is he? Is he in his room? Does he know what I did to you, last night? Is he mad, or hurt, or both? How else could he be?"
She answered me," No he's not here. I made his coffee, and we had a talk. Then he went on a fishing trip."
Carl, she said, "You're not to blame, you wanted me, and I wanted you, I always wanted you. So no one's at fault and no one's to blame. Calm down now and drink your coffee. You need to read this, then we'll talk."
She handed me the letter as she sat on the bed beside me. With her legs folded under her like an Indian in front of a tepee.
Her house coat slide between her thighs and all I could think about was how good I felt between her legs, with my organ inside her.
"Carl," she said, "have your coffee, read this and calm down Honey, It's all right."
The Letter
Well, I hope you're happy with yourself now because you finally did it, you S.O.B. you.
YOU FUCKED MY WIFE!
Was she good for you? Were you good for her Carl, you neurotic fuck.
By-the-way Annie I know your reading this too, you nosey witch, but thank God that you're not as bad as your Mother - that old Bitch.
First Carl, I feel I have to tell this, I know it's none of my business but I know how miserable and how unhappy you are married to your wife. You've told me about it often enough. She's not going to change. She's a very different person then you are, with different family values. You have strong sexual needs.
You don't understand her family values, and she doesn't understand your sexual needs. These problems aren't going to away, or disappear with time. That's just the way it is. Your wife is a wonderful woman, and you're a great guy.
You two have two fine boys, and I know how much you love them. If you're going to stay with her to see your kids grow up then you need to accept your wife as she is. She already accepts you, as you are. She knows you, and she's not as stupid as you think she is. Your kids are very bright and they don't miss much either. They have a way of understanding things that might surprise you.
Now, YOU FUCKED MY WIFE last night, and you did it very well. I can tell from the way Annie was acting this morning as she made my coffee. Beside that she told me all about it. It was good to see her that happy. I could never make her feel that way, or any woman for that matter.
I could always see the sparks flying between you two. It's easy to see the way you two light up when you see each other. Then you try not to show it to each other. The sexual tension is so thick between you two that you can almost cut it with a knife.
I didn't think you'd ever give in to your desires, and take her. I have no idea why you haven't taken her along time ago. I was afraid she would stop waiting for you and find someone else to take care of her needs.
I don't really think anyone else could make her as happy as you do. I'm glad you two finally gave in to each other. I want her to be happy and satisfied. I want you both to be happy and satisfied. I know you don't understand that. I really do love her; but like a sister, not as a wife. We fight like brother and sister,and we live together like brother and sister. That's the way we love each other like brother and sister.
Maybe if you learned to love your wife like she was your sister you just might feel better about your life with her.
I have a secret. Annie knows what it is. Maybe you already guessed it, and don't care. But I have to tell you this anyway.
Carl, I'm gay and I have to stay in the closet. If I come out I'll be ruined.
Maybe you two can take care of each others sexual needs and make yourselves happy whenever you two can be together. At least I sure hope so. But be careful, and be discreet. Almost anybody can see how you two feel about each other.
Now I have to give you a warning. In case you don't already know, Annie's mother hates you, and she's like a snake, but more dangerous. She thinks nothing of destroying people's lives, and she doesn't care who they are, not even her own family. She gets what she wants, anyway she can. She doesn't let anyone, or anything, get in her way. You need to be very careful of her. Charlie.
I looked at Annie and said, "What can I say?"
I wanted to tell her that I always wanted to be with you. But I couldn't be married to you because of your mother. She's the reason I stopped seeing you so long ago. But, I couldn't tell her that. It would hurt her so.