When I was young, I always seemed to be in my sister's shadow. Though there was a 10 year difference between us, Anna's name always seemed to be brought up in most conversations growing up. Now Anna had a lot of friends, most of which I didn't care about, but there was one that I could never get off my mind. His name was Ryan.
Ryan was everything I wanted, funny, smart, and sexy on top of it, but like always, I was seen as his friends little sister and nothing more. Until one day...
"Ryan," I was visiting my home town after a few years away, just after my 23 birthday. "Is that you?"
"Devi?" he looked truly shocked to see me, "wow you look amazing. How long has it been since I've seen you? Four, five years now."
"I think so. The last time I saw you, was the last time I saw Anna." After all these years he still took my breath away. We talked for a few more minutes, remembering old times.
"Hey" he was looking at me in a way I had never seen before. "Do you want to go grab a drink, or something? If you're not busy of course."
"I would love that" we walked to the nearest bar and talked about everything from the past to what we wanted out of life and it was all I could do not to reach out and touch him. I wanted to make sure he was real, that my childhood crush was here talking to me about the men I've dated and what I was looking for now. After a while of talking about random topics we moved on to sex.
"Wow, I can't believe I'm talking about this stuff with Anna's baby sister. I mean I'm older than her." The worst part was that he really looked guilty about it.
"I'm not a baby anymore" he looked at me with almost an apologetic look in his eyes, almost like he was regretting thinking of me this way.
"No shit"