(Disappointment )
I stepped up to the apartment door, knowing that Andy was inside. I hadn't responded to his texts, so I was sure he wanted to know how I felt about it. With a deep breath, I opened the door and went in. I went to my room first so I could change into fresh clothes. Next, I went to find something to eat since I skipped breakfast at Skylar's place.
I sat down at the table and ate some cereal while waiting for Andy to come out, which didn't take long. He came out of his room, sat at the table with me, just looking at me without saying anything for a minute.
"I guess you didn't like my text," he said finally.
"Why do you want to suddenly date me?" I asked, wondering why he didn't ask me sooner.
"I don't know," he said. "We've been friends for a long time, and course, you used to be a guy, so I never thought we'd date. But, after what I said about moving into your house, I thought about it- and, well, we've had sex and just the other day, great sex. We already live together, we know each other well, and like a lot of the same things.
"Why couldn't you have asked me before?" I said, becoming upset.
"What's wrong?" Andy asked.
"I spent all day with Skylar yesterday," I answered. "And all night."
"Oh," he responded.
"Oh? Just oh?" I said, my emotions flooding into my voice. "We fucked! And I told him I'd be his girlfriend. Only because I thought you weren't interested!" My voice started to shake, and tears were welling up in my eyes.
"I'm sorry, Jen. I never thought you'd want to date a guy, so it's something I didn't want to bring up and make you uncomfortable," he answered, trying to explain. "And I thought the sex was just because it was easy, with no strings attached and felt good."
"That's what it was supposed to be," I said, wiping the tears from my eyes. "I can barely remember what it was like to be a guy. Any of it. I don't remember the sexual urge of a guy, the attraction to women, anything. Every day I wake up, more of that part of me has faded away, replaced by a piece of my new life. I want to hate it, but I don't."
"I didn't know, Jen," he said. "And I definitely didn't mean to hurt you. I just wish you would've told me all of these things- how you felt."
"I didn't even know how to tell myself," I said, then getting a tissue to wipe my eyes. "Andy, I like being this way. I love being a woman, and it makes me happy that you accepted me so quickly."
"Of course, I did! Just because you had to transition from a guy to a girl doesn't mean you aren't the same person. Even if you like being a girl, you still haven't changed all that much. You still enjoy video games, movies, porn, all of that."
I listened to what Andy was saying, and I appreciated every bit of it. Even with me trying to blame him, and the fact that I went and had sex with Skylar, he still sat right here and supported me. I got up and walked around the table to where Andy was sitting. Without saying anything, I turned and sat sideways on his lap, then wrapped my arms around him while placing my head on his chest. He put his arms around me as well, and we sat there in silence for a long time until I calmed down.
"I don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt you or Skylar," I said softly.
"I can't make that choice for you, but if you do pick him, I promise we'll still be friends like always," Andy said.
"Thank you," I said.
I spent most of the rest of the day in my room just thinking about what I was going to do. My parents were going to move soon, and I was going to have an entire house to myself. I'm sure by now, Skylar had told all of his friends that we were dating, and I didn't want to hurt him by breaking up. But, if Andy was ready to be with me, that's what I really wanted to do. More importantly, my final interview was coming. I cleared my mind of everything else for now and picked an outfit for the interview, wanting to make sure everything was perfect.
There was so much going on in my head that I could barely relax or sleep. I got out of bed incredibly early, and since I couldn't sleep, I shaved, took a long hot shower, and got my hair ready. I noticed my bra was getting a little tight again, which meant my breasts were still growing. That would be an issue for a different day, though, so I focused on today. I did my makeup and put on lipstick, then dressed in the clothes that I had picked out, which consisted of a blouse, skirt, heels, and stockings.
Instead of getting a ride from Andy, I decided to take a rideshare to the office. It gave me time to think on the way there without having to talk. When I arrived at the office, I signed in, then went to the bathroom to check myself while I waited for my turn. I straightened out my clothes and checked my makeup before going back to wait. Not long after, the district manager called me into his office. I followed him in and took a seat at his request.
"Thank you for coming, Jenny," he said.
"Thank you for this opportunity," I responded with a smile, trying to remember to sit up straight and keeping my legs closed.
"I'll get right to it then. I've reviewed your training and see here that you've done quite well, even working extra hours to complete it on time," he said.
"Yes. I'm willing to do whatever is needed," I said, trying to sound confident.
"I like that spirit," he said, then sighed after a moment. "This is a tough round of candidates. Ten altogether, but only two positions available."
"I assure you that you won't be disappointed if you pick me," I said, once again trying to be confident.
"Let me show you something, Jenny," he said, then stood and walked to the other side of his office.
