Kathy and Tom attended the same seminary. Both Kathy and Tom saw Christian ministry as their highest calling. Kathy stayed in the women's dormitory and Tom stayed in the men's dormitory. Kathy and Tom held hands in public, and often kissed in private. They both knew that they had to wait until after they were married to do much more.
Tom had too much respect for Kathy to ever put her in a position where she might be tempted to do more than just kiss. And Kathy believed that sex between two people caused them to become one flesh. It was a spiritual encounter. Both agreed that their relationship was the best it could be, even without having sex with each other.
One night, Kathy heard a couple of other women talking about sex. She stayed in the hallway and listened.
"I don't know," One woman said, "I couldn't help myself."
"Are you saying that you regret doing it?" The other woman asked.
"Oh, no. No regrets. It's just that I never thought it would be like that."
"Like what?" the other woman asked excitedly.
"It was so animalistic" The first woman explained. "It was like something washed over us and we had no control over what we were doing or what happened."
"Like what?"
"When he put his hands up my blouse and put my nipples between his fingers and he started breathing heavily and I felt his penis, it was like lightening struck and we had to get each other naked."
"And? And?" The second woman asked.
"We got naked and he got between my legs and it was like nothing I'd ever felt before. Yes. It hurt. But it felt amazing at the same time."
"Oh, my God!" exclaimed the second woman. "Tell me more."
"He was all over me. He was kissing my neck and growling and grunting. It was so surreal. I was like, Oh my God, who knew that sinning could feel so good."
"Do you think he's been with other women?" the second woman questioned.
"Not that his wife knows of, I'm sure"
Kathy was intrigued by what she was hearing, but now she wondered who this married man might be, especially since few of the women went off campus, let alone had ways of meeting other men who weren't students or teachers at the seminary.
The second woman asked, "What if Trevor finds out?"
The first woman retorted, "I didn't really think about him, until just now?"
"But he loves you, Shelly"
Kathy couldn't believe that it was Shelly, Trevor's girlfriend. Trevor was Tom's best friend. And Trevor and Shelly were like her and Tom, together and had promised not to have sex until they were married. But Shelly had sex, with a married man. And she hadn't even thought about Trevor.
"I love Trevor." Shelly said. "Like I said, we couldn't control ourselves. it just kind of happened. And you know what? Trevor doesn't have to know. Right? Karen?"
Karen was Shelly's best friend. When Shelly wasn't with Trevor, she was with Karen.
Karen didn't say anything for a minute, then she told Shelly, "Well. Have you always been honest with Trevor?"
"Yes."
"Well," Karen said, "You could be honest with Trevor and tell him what you did."
"No," Shelly told Karen, "Then I'd not only be messing up my own relationship, I'd be messing up Mr. Jordan's marriage. And his wife is pregnant."
"Was it worth it?" Karen asked Shelly.
"It was really fun."
"But was it really worth it?"
Shelly didn't answer for a minute, then said, "Yeah. I think it was. Mr. Jordan made me feel alive, really alive, like I was somebody, really somebody."
"So," Karen contemplated, "It was worth it to ruin another man's life and marriage and your relationship with Trevor for some meaningless sex?"
"It wasn't meaningless. It was amazing! It was incredible! I came! He came! It was wow!"
"So . . . what now?"
Shelly paused again, then told Karen, "What now? Right now I feel really good, and I don't see any reason that anyone else needs to know about this."
Karen sighed, "But you know and God knows."
Karen wondered aloud, "Is Trevor going to get sex with you now, too?"
"No." Shelly quipped, "We promised each other not to have sex until we got married."
"But you already did!"
"Yeah, but it was only once."
"But was that enough for you?"
Shelly growled, "I know I shouldn't, but I do want to be with him again."
Kathy, having heard all this, wondered what about Mr. Jordan, or sex, made Shelly want to risk her own relationship and Mr. Jordan's marriage at the same time. Mr. Jordan was not the most attractive man, and he was overweight, but that didn't seem to matter to Shelly. So, Kathy figured it had to be the sex that was worth risking everything for.
Kathy wondered about Mr. Jordan. Was he really that good, sexually? He was a great teacher, but he also cheated on his wife. He was married and his wife was pregnant, but he was willing to risk it all to have sex with Shelly. Was it Shelly who was that good in bed?
Shelly explained to Karen, "Once you have sex, you'll know what I mean. You'll know how good it feels to have a man want you and hold you and ravage you. Mr. Jordan knew how to make me feel like a real woman. He didn't see me as a student. He saw me as this sexy woman that he couldn't resist."
"And, obviously, you couldn't resist, either."
Shelly closed her eyes and thought back.
Mr. Jordan had taught on the oneness that sex brings to a man and his wife, the reason that God created sex, and why and how the marriage bed is sacred. Mr. Jordan had explained that sex is not wrong or dirty. It's just something you do only with your spouse, because it's special, a gift from God.
Shelly had stayed after class to ask Mr. Jordan some questions. When she approached Mr. Jordan's desk, she was nervous. Mr. Jordan told Shelly that no question was a wrong question to ask. Shelly asked Mr. Jordan what sex was like.
Mr. Jordan sat back in his chair, "What do you mean what's it like?"
"I mean," Shelly said, "What makes it so special? I mean other than it's a gift from God. What does it feel like to actually have sex?"
Mr. Jordan tried to be funny, "Well, since the wife is pregnant, it's been a while."
