I don't know why I felt the need to dress up for parent-teacher conferences. It used to be an unspoken rule between my ex-wife Tina and myself, that we'd dress to the nines for these things, like we had to show off our best selves or something. I kept it simple, a long-sleeved black button down, gray slacks, and my best leather loafers, a pair I don't think I wore since the days when Tina and I were still going on date nights, so... yeesh. Half a decade, at least.
To that, I added my best dress watch, a Lilienthal Berlin a client gave me after I helped hook his daughter up with new waist-level, wheelchair-friendly electrical free of charge. I didn't know it at the time, but the watch cost more than what he would have paid in labor, and the gesture's always stuck with me.
I strapped on the watch, decided on a dab of rich aftershave, and checked my teeth for what had to be the third time since I stepped into the bathroom. When I emerged, I was already cutting it close, and I hurried downstairs. My son Isaac and his babysitter, the college-aged half-Japanese stunner Jessica, glanced up from a game of rummy at the kitchen table.
"You look good, Lionel," Jessica said, showing off her small, sparkling white teeth with her wide smile. Unlike damn near every other available woman within a hundred miles of me, I had yet to sleep with her. I wasn't entirely sure I was going to, either. My five - yeah, five - girlfriends weren't fond of sharing me outside our circle, and I respected that. Mostly. There was one woman who held my interest as much as they did, but Morgan was taboo, the sister of my ex-wife, and a married woman, at that. I mean, true, her husband Douglas is a grade-A, high-octane asshole, but still, married is a ballpark I won't play in.
Isaac nodded enthusiastically. "You really do, Dad."
"Thanks," I said to both of them.
I came in to kiss him on the top of his head, and he groaned, "Daaaad."
Oops, I forgot. No acting sweet around any of our gorgeous friends. I squeezed his shoulder, grinning at Jessica over his head. "Deal with it," I said, and he twisted to pinch my arm. I jumped out of the way, and glanced at my watch. "I really need to run."
But when I was outside headed for the truck, Isaac caught up to me, barefoot despite the cold. "Hey, um... is Ms. Vega, um, is she... are you going to be talking about when I got so mad?"
The incident he was referring to happened a few weeks before, when he lost his temper and traded punches with a kid in class. It had been his fault, or... well, mine and my ex-wife's, I guess. Isaac went through a lot of changes in his life pretty rapidly, and something like it was bound to happen. Thankfully he wasn't much of a fighter, and neither was the other kid. It amounted to a couple of bruises and that was it. They'd even spent the night at each other's houses afterwards in that weird way kids have of bonding over high emotions. But the incident brought out a need in him to talk to someone, and his aunt Morgan became something of a pillar of support for him when Tina wouldn't step in and help. It was a mess, to be sure. But Isaac was doing really well since then.
"I think it'll probably come up," I said, opting for honesty as I usually tried to do when I didn't know what else to say to him. "Don't think I'm saying you should go around beating more kids up, bubba, but if it's the worst that's happening, I think Ms. Vega's going to speak pretty highly of you."
He nodded, not quite looking at me but more at the truck. "Okay," he said quietly. "I just... I really like her class."
I came to him and hugged him tight. "You've been trying, Isaac. That's what matters most. Tell you what. I'll text you the minute I know what she says about you. Okay? That way you don't have to wait until tomorrow."
Ms. Vega had scheduled the meeting at the very tail end of her schedule that night, and since I was having dinner and drinks with a pair of my girlfriends afterwards, I wouldn't be home until after he went to bed.
"Okay," Isaac said listlessly, and pulled away from me. Despite the crunch for time, I walked him back into the house. Before he went back inside, I told him one more time I was sure everything would be fine. Sometimes kids are afraid of the oddest things, but I got it with this one. He belonged in that school. In that class. Belonging for him wasn't easy right now.
* * *
Along the way, my phone rang. Despite my frustration with Tina lately, I felt no urge to change her ring tone back from a few notes from "our" song. Even during the worst of our relationship, the few weeks when we'd separated before deciding on a divorce, I never really hated her enough to forget the good times. But we moved on. That happens.
"Hey, Tina, what's up?" I asked.
"Just taking a walk, thought I'd call and check in. Is it a good time?"
"I'm on my way to a parent-teacher thing."
"This late?"
"Yeah. She's a good teacher. I imagine she's taking plenty of time with all the parents."
"Ms. Vega, right?" Tina asked, sniffing.
I wondered if that sniff was for Isaac and myself, or if something up there had happened. Then I immediately felt sort of awful about that. She was reaching out. That was... well, it was something. "Yeah."
"That's... that's good, it's good you're doing that."
I flung the first olive branch her way I could think of. "Isaac's scared as hell about what she'll say."
Tina laughed, and sniffed again. "He worries too much."
"Got that from me, I think." I winced, realizing how that would be taken. She had to think I meant that she didn't worry about us. Which... yeah, okay, it was sort of true at times, but it was still an asshole thing to imply. "Sorry, I... sorry."
"You're allowed a few points scored on me now and then," Tina said. I expected brittle, the way she got when we were fighting. But she sounded sad and distant. "Hey, I was actually, um..."
"Yeah?"
"Two things. Are you... are you okay?"
"Honestly? Never better. Why?"
"That's good. I just... I saw some pictures online. You, with a... with a few women. Very beautiful women."
"Yeah," I said. "I'm, uh, doing pretty well dating."
"That's good, that's good. I don't mean to judge. I talked to Morgan, and she filled me in that you and your lady friends are, um... all okay with each other."
"Tina..." I started, and sighed. "Just say to me what it is you want to say. Please. Can we do that for each other?"
"All right. Is Isaac safe?"