It started out pretty simply. Nick and I were in bed, watching some porn together. I don't know whether it was the TV or a computer or what, but he'd found a way to get to some free porn sites and use our bedroom TV to display them. Since we both enjoyed it - no, that's not really correct - we both responded to it. I can't say we sat and watched it as if it were commercial TV, or even movies. So "enjoy" isn't the exact, correct word to use.
Like I said, we watched. Depending on what was on the screen, we'd play with ourselves or with each other. I had started watching porn after college. I found myself fascinated by all the different things people would do with one another, so I was more into the amateur videos than those produced by the studios. One of my favorite genres was female masturbation. There was something about another woman getting herself off that got me started. I spent many a night before we were married, reclined in bed, my laptop showing me women who played with themselves while I did it at the same time. If they used a vibrator, I used a vibrator. If they used a dildo, I used a dildo. If they just used their fingers and their hands, well, I did exactly the same thing. I imagined I was being filmed - that I was then going to be watched by others as I brought myself to orgasm. That other women were going to be jealous of how long I could edge myself. That men would be jerking off as I pumped a large dildo in and out of my pussy.
At one point, I had a friend - a very good friend - actually film me. It was a night I don't ever think I'll forget. First off, he started out professional-like. He set up lights and cameras around my bed, and he was in the background, behind the lights. I wasn't worried about getting naked; he'd seen me naked before. Hell, he'd even fucked me silly a few times (he had one of the largest cocks I knew and loved); he knew I loved sex and he was appreciative. When he said action, it felt different than diddling myself to internet porn. I used that and hammed it up.
First, I got onto my bed and slowly undressed myself while facing the cameras. I took my time getting naked, and for every inch of skin I revealed, I made sure I was stroking and caressing myself there. I had a bandeau top on, tied behind my neck, and when I untied it and began to lower it, revealing more and more breast flesh, I made sure that I took my time and rubbed every inch as it was revealed. Hell, I found new erogenous zones I hadn't realized I had above my boobs. My eyes were closed and I just concentrated on the interaction between my fingers and my flesh. I was more aroused than I had ever been, I guess because of my audience. His murmurs and moans certainly helped raise the level of things.
I remember, as I slowly uncovered my nipples for the camera, that my cunt was already soaking my panties. I licked my finger tips to enhance the sensations as I played with my nipples; sliding around them at first, squeezing them tighter and twisting them, each new gesture increasing the degree of arousal. I simply stayed with the sensations, doing my best to increase their intensity, using the sensitivity and absorbed by it. It was both pressure and pain that eventually triggered my first orgasm on camera - without even touching my clit or my pussy! I rode it as long as I could, amazed by it.
At some point I opened my eyes, and told the camera what had happened.
"I just came without touching my cunt. Just from playing with my boobs and nipples. That's never happened before!"
And then, I slipped off my panties, spread my legs wide and pointed to the moisture on my cunt lips. I dipped my fingers in it and used both hands to spread them. I tried to feel myself as if I'd never played with my pussy before. It wasn't difficult - I had a new appreciation of my body. I used my hands to play with the inner and outer lips, delighting at the sensations. I explored the insides of my slit with my fingers, spreading them lips and exposing it, then inserting both index fingers in that hot, wet gash.
I kept my eyes closed, imagining my audience. Imagining cocks getting hard as they saw me fill my pussy with my fingers. When I used my thumb to rub my clit I came once again! The camera captured the twitching - the clenching and unclenching of my inner walls. It was exquisite! Again, I rode the waves of pleasure as long as I could.
When they faded, I turned the action up a notch. I reached off camera for my toy box and brought it to me. First, I took out my largest butt plug - 6 inches of black rubber, three inches across at its widest. I covered it with lube, then poked more into my ass, and adjusted my position on the bed to expose my asshole. Then I began the process of easing it inside. It was my biggest, but also my favorite, so it didn't meet with much resistance nor cause pain. It just filled up my ass in a delightful way.
Then I took my black dong from the box. I loved that cock. It was (and still is) my favorite toy for extreme sensations. It was molded from someone's cock, so it was very lifelike, from the veins on the surface to the details of the head. It was even wider that the butt plug, and the eleven inches ended at a set of fairly lifelike balls. When I filled myself up with it, it took me places I can't describe.
With the butt plug in place, my legs spread wide, I began to rub the head of that dildo up and around my pussy lips. As it gathered up the moisture, the head began to press up into my slit. I felt my opening stretch as I worked it in. It was an amazing sensation, part pain and part pleasure. The pleasure that I knew was coming made the pain seem minimal - I knew that on the other side of it was another world where all there was was pleasure. I had used it before. I was planning on cumming on camera until I passed out!
Watching the video, afterward, I was amazed by it. My face shows such a wide range of emotions, from pain to pleasure to something I can't even quantify. The visual affect of that monster slowly working itself into my cunt is still something that arouses me every time I watch it! And then, watching myself fuck myself with that monster, moaning and crying and cumming again and again and again still amazes me. It gets Nick hard as a rock every time. It got the camera man so horny that he couldn't control himself - one of the last things on that tape is him, his large cock in hand, spurting his white cum all over my tits and face.
Like I said, it was unforgettable - partially because I still like to watch it! I made a few more of those videos over the next few months, for my private collection. I figured they would be my secret - and then I fell for Nick!
I wasn't the only woman enthralled by him, He stood six-two, weighed 190, all of it well-developed and muscular. His wavy brown hair, square jaw and blue eyes gave him an unfair advantage in life - he was gorgeous! Since we first met at a beach club, it was also apparent that he was carrying a decent package - or at least, that's how I phrased it initially. After our third date, when I was finally secure enough that I could fuck him and survive it if it was only a one-night stand, was when I found out it was more than "decent." Nick was blessed with a fat cock. Or maybe I was the one blessed by his fat cock. Some guys (that I had fucked) had big, hefty cocks. Some were longer - but none were fatter. And guys, that's the real secret. What we really want - girth!
He still likes to tease me about my reaction when I finally got him into my bed. He says I was like a kid in a candy store. My eyes wide, my expression one of joy and amazement. I covered it in kisses. I licked every inch of it - because I couldn't get it into my mouth! It was so frustrating! But since a lot of time oral sex is just to get a guy hard enough (and he was clearly hard enough!) I didn't let it bother me. He was worried about getting it into my pussy - but there was no way I wouldn't. It was the most amazing sensation ever! When the head finally got in, I had to stop to catch my breath - it was probably close to childbirth, except he was putting something in. I started coming after he got two inches of that monster into me, and didn't stop until he pulled out, some time later that night.
Those first few weeks weren't exactly magical - it took me a week before I could walk without pain, for crying out loud. But it was so very worth it that we had sex every night until I was able to get him all in me. I had a passing worry that I was going to get stretched out of shape, but hell, that's what kegel exercises were for! Anyway, I still remember the night when I finally got every inch of him inside me, and how amazed he was by it. He'd never found a woman who was willing to take him. That was six years ago.
Along the way, we kept finding things out about each other. I let him know how I loved to watch porn - or I used to until he came around. He let me know how he felt addicted to it - especially because no one could accommodate his girth. We started comparing notes, and eventually set ourselves us so we could watch from bed. Lately, he'd been watching a lot of anal porn. He was trying to get me interested, but his cock was so fucking fat, so much bigger than my biggest butt plug, that I was extremely resistant to the idea. All I could think of was having a broken asshole and not being able to control myself - no way! He could fuck me. He could use toys on my ass, but there was no way I could ever contemplate him fucking me with his fat cock. It was beginning to become a problem for us.
Finally, one night, I had enough.
"Okay, Nick, here's the deal. You want to take my ass with that wonderful monster cock of yours, then you're going to have to reciprocate. You're going to have to find out what it's like to give up your butt. Until you're ready for that, then just forget about anal with me. Understand?"
"Um. Yeah. Okay."
"Hey - I love your cock. My god, it's almost my favorite thing about you!"
"Almost? What's that mean?"
"It means I love the man it's attached to more than it. Understand?"
"You mean, if I somehow lost it; it got cut off or something, you'd still love me and stay with me?"
"I didn't say that. It's an integral part of you, after all. But for purposes of this conversation, I'd say you were correct. You aren't your cock like I'm not my boobs or my cunt."
"Well, I appreciate that. And I'm not about to investigate a reduction..."